Ryan's Life

Im just posting real quick to let everyone know I made it to Ryan's in one piece. The traffic was horrible Im not use to driving in a big city. It scares the hell out of me. Like I said Im here Ryan's mom is just as sweet as he is. I can see where he gets it from. The house is beautiful I love his room. He has a nice big bed not that we'll need much room were gonna be on top of each other all nite. That's all for now Ryan's yelling for me. More to cum later. Like the pic says Im on cloud nine!!! Thanx for the pic idea Spenc. Hope you don't mind me stealing it:)

You turned my darkness into light;
You made everything all right.
You picked me up when I was down;
You turned my life around.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;
You were the only one who seemed to care.
When I didn't think I could make it another day,
You chased all my doubts away.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;
But there is only one of you.
You fill my heart with love;
You're a God-sent gift from above.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;
Because you are here with me.
There is no reason to be sad;
You've taken away all the bad.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A best friend is what you are to me!!

Before I start writing this I need to say Ryan knows about it and said he didn't mind to go ahead. He did want me to make one thing clear. He's not looking for pity from anybody. He's got issues just like me or anyone else. He's a strong guy and he'll work through them just fine.

I have issues myself,the two posts I made Knowing Yourself and Once Upon a Time being just one of them. I have since deleted them Ryan doesn't need to be reminded of them everytime he comes to my blog. I feel like I think of myself to much when it comes to wanting something. I don't know why I just do. Well I was feeling like that the other nite and made those two posts. Ryan asked me what they were about and I couldn't really explain it. Who am I kidding I could have explained it I just keep things bottled up inside of me and don't. I know that comes from not having anyone to talk to when I was growing up. I got someone now though my best friend who is also the person I am in love with and plan to marry someday so I need to start opening up to him more. Anyway I didn't explain the posts to him and him being the big tenderhearted guy he is took them as me being mad at him. I need to explain something Ryan has had friends in the past who have not stood by him and just up and left him when he needed them most. So he's very sensitive and afraid of loosing people who he's close to. So he thought I was mad at him and he was gonna lose me so he did something he told me about yesterday that scared me to death. At 3 o clock in the morning his dogs woke his mom up barking and going crazy. So she went looking for Ryan and found him outside sitting in the yard naked with a knife in his hand. He said he don't remember going out there and didn't know he was until his mom said his name and he snapped out of it. So that's why he's going back to his counselor today. Ive explained to him Im never gonna leave him. I love him with all my heart and the luckiest day of my life is when I found him. You might be wondering why all the mushy poems and songs Im posting well know you know why. Im just trying to let him know he means the world to me and that's my way of doing it. So Im warning you theirs gonna be a lot more of them. Im not giving up on trying to get him to believe he's not gonna lose me.

Im gonna end this by saying I love you with all my heart Ryan and don't ever forget that. As for loosing me your stuck with me so you just better get used to me.

You are my special angel
Sent from up above
The Lord smiled down on me
And sent an angel to love (to love)
You are my special angel
Right from paradise
I know that you're an angel
Heaven is in your eyes

A smile from your lips
Bring the summer sunshine
The tears from your eyes bring the rain
I feel your touch, your warm embrace
And I'm in heaven again

You are my special angel
Through eternity
I'll have my special angel
Here to watch over me

(A smile from your lips)
(Brings the summer sunshine)
(The tears from your eyes bring the rain)
I feel your touch
Your warm embrace
And I'm in heaven again

You are my special angel
Through eternity
I'll have my special angel
Here to watch over me (watch over me)
Here to watch over me
(Angel, angel)

by Bobby Helms

You can't lose me
Bet your life
I am here and I will always be
Just a wish away
Wherever you go
No matter how far
My love is where you are
You won't be lost if you believe
You can't lose me

From Friends To Lovers

Sometimes I feel sad and sometimes I feel blue
but whenever I see you, I'm as happy as can be
for you bring a smile upon my face
and a feeling of joy within my heart
you're like my sunshine in the morning
and my stars that glow at night
you're like the waves in the ocean
the cool breeze in the wind
like the call of the birds in the morning dew
like the sounds of beauty in the night
you see all of these things are of beauty and love
that's how I feel whenever you are near
for it was the passion and desire from both of us
that opened up the world for our eyes to see
for our love of each other will grow and grow
and our needs and desires will be more everyday
for a friend you once were and will always be
has turned into love as it should have been
so I want you to know as a friend and lover
that in my heart and arms you'll always stay
for our love for each other will never fade.

I can't stand it any longer I'm going to Atlanta next weekend. I need to feel Ryan's big cock inside me again,all 9 inches of it. Him being my first he has spoiled me. I wouldn't know what to do with anything smaller than his. He's got my ass just right so his fits perfect. Im craving the taste of his sweet ass. I just need to bury my face in it and stick my tongue as far as it will go in him. I love sucking his big cock and yes I can get all 9 inches in my mouth. I talked to him today and he said he's wanting to eat my ass real bad. He can take his tongue and lick my asshole and OMG he makes me explode. I think it's also about time for his balls to be shaved again so I can help with that too. I got to go Im making myself so horny thinking about him I need to go call him for some hot phone sex.

I want to thank everyone who took the time to comment on my last post. I really appreciate it you didn't have to I know but you still did it. The comments are what I expected them to be that Ryan is cute and adorable. The reason I made the post in the first place was to show him what other people see when they look at him. The person that counts the most needs to see it and thats him. It hurts me so much I can't explain it for him to think that he's ugly when the truth is he's not but just can't see it. Im not going to give up though trying to make him see what everyone else sees.

I also want to say something to the people who didn't comment. The one's who just happen to come across my blog and don't read it regularly I guess I can see where you wouldn't comment. You don't know me or Ryan I wish you would have but I can deal with it. What pisses me off is the people who come to my blog on a regular basis but didn't leave a comment. I know who you are and so do you so their's no need to say any names. Ive matched up your IP's from my counter to previous comments that have been made. Your right you don't have to comment if you don't want to that's your right. Would it hurt you to have of course not but the truth is Ryan don't need your comment to know he's not ugly. Anyway to make a long story short whoever didn't comment don't come back to my blog. You can kiss my white ass and fuck off!!!

Ok I have a favor I need to ask of whoever reads my blog. Before I ask it I need to give you some background information. This past April Ryan was attacked and beat up real bad. Their was 3 of the dirty motherfuckers. They took a bat out of his truck and broke several of his ribs numerous stitches in his head and on his body. As they were doing this they were telling him "So you think your a pretty boy were gonna make you real pretty",that type of shit. Well as a result of this my beautiful,cute,sweet,sexy boyfriend has developed a disorder where he thinks he's ugly.It's called Body Dysmorphic Disorder or BDD for short. The website I linked explains it better than I can other than to say Ryan thinks he's ugly which is a bunch of bullshit he just needs to see that. I ask him today to tell me what he thinks is ugly about him and he said don't open that door where do you want me to start. I know he believes that in his head but it's bullshit and I told him so. Ok here's the favor Im asking. Whoever comes across this blog the people who read regularly or anyone else. I want you to look at the two pics below and the others on here if you want and leave a comment on whether you think Ryan is cute or not. Im not worried about getting any bad comments just look at him that's all I need to say,he's beautiful, cute, sexy, I could go on but you get the idea. If he hears it from enough people maybe he will start to believe it again. Thanx in advance to anyone who comments.

1. What State was you born in? West Virginia
2. Where was your Parents born? Both in West Virginia
3. Any Brothers or Sisters? 1 brother 1 sister
4. Grandparents still alive? no
5. You play any sports? Football in high school
6. Closer to your Mom or Dad? My Mom
7. Have any pets? no
8. Plan on getting or are you married? No not yet but yes I am already know who it is
9. Favorite Actor? Paul Newman
10. Favorite talk show host? Oprah

Ive seen on a couple blogs pics of guys kissing. I thought I would take my turn and post a couple. Hope you like.

I spent the first 19 years of my life basically alone. Sure I had a "father" who happened to beat me almost daily. I have a mother still do who because of the abuse of her no good husband doesn't know the proper way to show emotion or even tell you that she loves you. I have a sister who for the lack of a better description is a bitch. I had a brother who was my best friend and made me feel not so alone. He died of a drug overdose when I was 16 my brother and best friend all at one time wiped out. The next 3 years I walked around alone not caring about anything or anyone. I quit eating lost a bunch of weight I felt terrible. Then 8 months ago I found someone. It was the best day of my life. The last 8 months I have never been happier but all the sudden Im feeling alone again. I don't know why I just am. Am I alone again I sure hope not. You see you can't be alone unless you have nobody. I got somebody but they say their alone so I must be too.

No I didn't write this poem but I found it on the net and loved it so I wanted to post it. I have a hard time writing my feelings down or even expressing them but this says what I want to say. I love you Ryan.


How simple my life is now you are here,
How I cherish each breath,
How I crave the light and laughter you have brought me.
I have fallen in love without taking a step,
Fallen into the sweetest of dreams,
How I hope no one wakes me.
The simplest gesture wraps itself around my heart,
Where I will hold it forever.

Each time we say goodbye a part of me weeps,
Though I know it is not forever
To my aching soul it is an eternity.
I see my happiness shine in your eyes,
Every time you hold my hand my heart skips a beat.
How sweet life is to be yours;
How meaningless life is without you.

They know nothing of the loneliness before you
Nothing of the empty tears I cried day after day,
How did you do it, I ask myself,
How did you banish the fear, the darkness?
You have made me see that nothing is that bad,
That I am strong and worthy of happiness,
You have saved me from myself.

Everyday I wake up and smile to myself
Knowing you are waiting for me,
Knowing you can't wait to see me.
How would I go on if you were not there to hold me up,
To bless me with your love and light?
How I am glad you have found me
My life is now complete...
I am home.

Several times Dave and Spencer have asked for me to put a pic of my ass up. Well here it is it's no where near as nice as Ryan's but he seems to love it and that's all that matters.

Ill use any excuse to put a pic of Ryan up but I need to make something clear. I got a comment on my post yesterday asking what angel that I am talking about. Well this pic should clear it up quite nicely. angel aka Dave from Jacksonville you don't want me pissed at you boy. I didn't like the comment you made about me maybe sleeping around on Ryan and I sure as hell don't like you thinking your the angel I am talking about. Your trying to be a smartass and your doing a good job at it,you know who I meant. Another thing you trying to pass your comment off about Ryan having cellulite on his ass as a compliment is bullshit. You know what your saying with your little snide remarks. Just because you see a lot of it on your fatass don't mean he's got any. Here's another pic of Ryan's ass if anybody see's cellulite on it Ill apoligize but I ain't worried about that.

I thought this Top 100 Songs MeMe I saw on Dave's blog was really cool so I decided to do it. Only thing is they didn't have top 100 songs from 2003 the year I graduated. Closest year they had was 2001 but I wanted to do it. I changed mine a little bit the songs I love are in blue the one's I like are in green and the one's I hate in red. All I listen to is country and old rock so a lot of these I have never heard of so Ill just leave them alone. Damn I have never even heard of most of these singers. I think I need to do a top 100 country song MeMe maybe I will.

Top 100 Songs of 2001


1. Hanging By A Moment, Lifehouse
2.Fallin', Alicia Keys
3. All For You, Janet
4. If You're Gone, Matchbox Twenty
5. I'm Real, Jennifer Lopez Featuring Ja Rule
6. Drops Of Jupiter (Tell Me), Train
7. Let Me Blow Ya Mind, Eve Featuring Gwen Stefani
8. Thank You, Dido
9. Hit 'Em Up Style (Oops!), Blu Cantrell
10. Independent Women Part I, Destiny's Child
11. Again, Lenny Kravitz
12. It's Been Awhile, Staind
13. Stutter, Joe Featuring Mystikal
14. It Wasn't Me', Shaggy Featuring Ricardo "RikRok" Ducent
15. U Remind Me, Usher
16. Where The Party At, Jagged Edge With Nelly
17. Angel, Shaggy Featuring Rayvon
18. Ride Wit Me, Nelly Featuring City Spud
19. Peaches & Cream, 112
20. Follow Me, Uncle Kracker
21. Drive, Incubus
22 .What Would You Do?, Alicia Keys
23. Survivor, Destiny's Child
24. Lady Marmalade, Christina Aguilera, Lil' Kim, Mya & Pink
25. Ms. Jackson, OutKast
26. Love Don't Cost A Thing, Jennifer Lopez
27. The Way You Love Me, Faith Hill
28. He Loves U Not, Dream
29. Butterfly, Crazy Town
30. Put It On Me, Ja Rule Featuring Lil' Mo & Vita
31. Family Affair, Mary J. Blige
32. I Hope You Dance, Lee Ann Womack
33. South Side, Moby Featuring Gwen Stefani
34. Don't Tell Me, Madonna
35. Get Ur Freak On, Missy "Misdemeanor" Elliott
36. Crazy, K-Ci & JoJo
37. Fill Me In, Craig David
38. Someone To Call My Lover, Janet
39. With Arms Wide Open, Creed
40. Case Of The Ex (Whatcha Gonna Do), Mya
41. All Or Nothing, O-Town
42 .Bootylicious, Destiny's Child
43. I'm Like A Bird, Nelly Furtado
44. KRYPTONITE , 3 Doors Down
45. Fiesta, R. Kelly Featuring Jay-Z
46. When It's Over, Sugar Ray
47. Jaded, Aerosmith
48. Promise, Jagged Edge
49. Missing You, Case
50. Differences, Ginuwine
51. This I Promise You, 'N Sync
52. Izzo (H.O.V.A.) Jay-Z
53. Superwoman Pt. II, Lil' Mo Featuring Fabolous
54. Crazy For This Girl, Evan And Jaron
55. Nobody Wants To Be Lonely, Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera
56. I Just Wanna Love U (Give It 2 Me), Jay-Z
57. One Minute Man, Missy "Misdemeanor" Elliott
58. Danger (Been So Long), Mystikal Featuring Nivea
59. Only Time, Enya
60. I Do!! Toya
61. Never Had A Dream Come True, S Club 7
62 .Stranger In My House, Tamia
63. Irresistible, Jessica Simpson
64.Heard It All Before, Sunshine Anderson
65. The Space Between, Dave Matthews Band
66. There You'll Be, Faith Hill
67. Love, Musiq Soulchild
68. It's Over Now, 112
69. No More (Baby I'ma Do Right), 3LW
70. Turn Off The Light, Nelly Furtado
71. Ain't Nothing `Bout You, Brooks & Dunn
72. Play Jennifer Lopez
73. I'm Already There, Lonestar
74. My Baby, Lil' Romeo
75. Beautiful Day, U2
76. Austin, Blake Shelton
77. Southern Hospitality, iLudacris
78. Grown Men Don't Cry, Tim McGraw
79. Livin' It Up, Ja Rule Featuring Case
80. Loverboy Mariah Carey Featuring Cameo
81. I Wanna Be Bad, Willa Ford
82 .Who I Am, Jessica Andrews
83. Music, Erick Sermon Featuring Marvin Gaye
84. Contagious, Isley Brothers Featuring Ronald Isley
85. Don't Happen Twice, Kenny Chesney
86. Here's To The Night, Eve 6
87. I Wish, R. Kelly
88. It's A Great Day To Be Alive, Travis Tritt
89. I'm A Thug, Trick Daddy
90. One More Day, Diamond Rio
91. You Shouldn't Kiss Me Like This, Toby Keith
92. E.I., Nelly
93. Dance With Me, Debelah Morgan
94. So Fresh, So Clean, Outkast
95. Get Over Yourself Eden's Crush
96. Hero, Enrique Iglesias
97. Most Girls, Pink
98. Oochie Wally, QB's Finest Featuring Nas & Braveheart's
99. Be Like That, 3 Doors Down
100. Hemorrhage (In My Hands), Fuel

Not much going on to post about. I could write more about my weekend with Ryan and I will because I do have juicy details. Just have to think about them so I don't leave any of the good stuff out. Also Im taking a little break from posting any more pics of him. He's so sweet I don't want everybody to get sick. So Im just gonna post some pics of my favorite time of the year fall in West Virginia. I just love all the beautiful colors when the weather gets cooler and the leaves start to change.

pa·tient
adj.
Bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance with calmness.
Marked by or exhibiting calm endurance of pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance.
Tolerant; understanding: an unfailingly patient leader and guide.
Persevering; constant: With patient industry, she revived the failing business and made it thrive.
Capable of calmly awaiting an outcome or result; not hasty or impulsive.
Capable of bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance: “My uncle Toby was a man patient of injuries” (Laurence Sterne).


pa·tience ( P )
n.
The capacity, quality, or fact of being patient.
Chiefly British. The game solitaire.
Synonyms: patience, long-suffering, resignation, forbearance
These nouns denote the capacity to endure hardship, difficulty, or inconvenience without complaint. Patience emphasizes calmness, self-control, and the willingness or ability to tolerate delay: Our patience will achieve more than our force (Edmund Burke). Long-suffering is long and patient endurance, as of wrong or provocation: The general, a man not known for docility and long-suffering, flew into a rage. Resignation implies acceptance of or submission to something trying, as out of despair or necessity: I undertook the job with an air of resignation. Forbearance denotes restraint, as in retaliating, demanding what is due, or voicing disapproval: “It is the mutual duty of all to practice Christian forbearance, love, and charity towards each other” (Patrick Henry).

It's not possible to be too happy is it. Cause I can't see myself being any happier than I am right now. The weekend was unbeleivable and I don't just mean the sex either. I mean just kissing his soft lips touching his smooth cute face. Laying in bed with him asleep on my chest and feeling him breathing and his heart beating. Just laying there together knowing he loves me and knowing I love him it's something I just can't put into words.


Some jealous asshole called him a pretty boy yesterday and a prick. Hell yes he's pretty and it's nothing to be ashamed of. Him thinking he's better than anyone else is ridiculous. He didn't say why the asshole called him that but I will. He was hitting on Ryan and he told him he wasn't interested that he had a boyfriend and he got pissed. The pic below is one of my favorites I just love his smile among other things:)

Ryan and I had a blast the last 3 days. The sex was as good as I remembered. I got juicy details that I'll talk about in a later post. Now I wanted to explain the pics Ryan posted yesterday. The first pic is him fucking me and yes I did take all 9 inches if your wondering:) Second pic is Ryan giving me a blowjob. OMG that boy has a mouth on him and knows how to use it. Third pic is Ryan with his cock laying on my ass after he cummed. Just a little small peek at the most perfect cock Ive ever seen but Im prejudiced so you can disagree if you want. Fourth pic is me fucking Ryan. Yes I got to have some fun too. That's my cock in his tight little perfect ass. Someone asked who's ass is in the other post. That's mine Ryan's is much nicer


I also got a comment I wanted to talk about. The rushing into marriage comment. There's no maybe to it the sex is definitely great. Thinking about the future he is what do you think he's doing by asking me to marry him. Surprised that Ryan and I hit it off. I wish you would explain that one. What's surprising about it. The surprise would be him hitting it off with you. As far as me loving Ryan that's forever and as for the sleeping around on him part. You don't even know me boy to be saying that so watch your mouth. The only way I would sleep around on him is if you was avaible but just my luck your taken. HA HA HA

This day had to come and I knew it I hate it but time 2 go home. We are not waiting 2 long before we get back together I think Mikey is coming 2 Atlanta next time to meet my Mom. So U want more nasty pics looks like we got some nasty readers.....but we love ya! Here ya go more to cum also!

Mikey I Love You!

Even though Mikey had to take time to delete his blog and start another because of a nosy person we are still having a blast! We are taking pics and a video for us to watch when were not together but looks like that will change soon! I think I have him talked into marrying me!

Want a sample well here you go!
















Later from the Boys at Super 8 in North Carolina!
posted by Ryan

I came up for air long enough to let everyone know I had to delete my old blog. A family member who I wont mention here found it for the second time. Im sending the link to everybody. Please don't link me on your blogs that's how I was found before. Thanx guys now back to the ass sucking:)

Well were finally together and I got what I needed 2 times already. Im posting from Ryan's laptop he's taking a nap right now. It's no wonder he's tired he can go forever. We have never been happier in our lives than we are right now together. I don't see us needing cloths all weekend just maybe to go get something to eat. Ryan needs food but I can live off his cum for the 3 days were here,it tastes so good. Later Im gonna help him shave his balls I promised I would. Well I have to go time to wake Ryan up for round 3.

More To Cum

I just wanted to make a quick post to say Thank God Its Friday. I thought it would never get here. Ill be leaving later today so I don't think there will be any posts this weekend. I hope Im to busy.

Yes another picture of my sexy boyfriend. I see blogs where guys put pics of themselves up everyday like their selling themselves like prostitutes so why can't I post a pic of Ryan every now and then. He's certainly hotter than anybody I have seen on other blogs. He's not posting them I am and he's definitely not for sale,he's all mine. Don't you think he's just the cutest in his boxers. I could just eat him up and will be later tonight.

I see everybody wanting to know what Ryan looks like. He gave me permission to put a couple of his pics up. You've seen pics of his body so I thought I would just post a couple of his cute face. I had a hard time choosing ones just as cute as the next. Ain't he just the cutest boy you ever seen. Not only is he cute but he's the sweetest boy you could ever hope to meet. He gets hateful email and comments sometimes. How anyone could say anything mean about him is beyond me. You don't know him. If you would just take the time to talk to him and get to know him you would see what I see. If you got anything mean or hateful to say about him please send it to me. I would love to talk to you. Here's my email address MikeyP18@hotmail.com. The hateful email is bullshit and needs to stop now. The luckiest day of my life is when I met him. Second luckiest day is when he asked me to be his boy friend. I love him with all my heart but still can't tell him how much he means to me. I just can't find the words.

A couple people's been asking what I look like so I thought it was about time I posted my picture. I'll be honest with you I have problems with pictures of myself. I don't have but a few and nobody but Ryan and a few other people have seen them. It has to do with the way I was raised and what I was told when I was younger by my "father" but I wont get into that now. I was gonna back out of posting it but Ryan talked me into. Who wouldn't do anything that boy says. Look at him aint he just the sweetest thing you ever seen.

Ok Im gonna just tell you right from the start Im in love with Ryan and Im going to talk about him a lot. I am glad he don't get embarrassed easy cause all I talk about is how cute and what a hot body he has. I call him almost everyday I have to hear his sweet sexy voice or my day just ain't complete. I talked to him yesterday and we made plans to meet this weekend. It's gonna be a long weekend so were meeting Friday at our usual place in Charlotte we spilt the distance its easier for the both of us. It's gonna be nothing but 3 days of sex and more sex. If you want to know about some of the details may I suggest this previous post July 28 from our first little sexcapade.Tried to link it but something is screwed up about linking previous posts on my blog. Of course Im going to post all the juicy details come Monday when I get back. OMG that first meeting I still walk around hard just thinking about it. Ryan's perfect body his tight little ass which I could spend all night on licking and eating he tastes so fucking good. I can't forget his balls OMG they hang nice and low just right for sucking. Oh and his cock only nine inches and thick real thick. Like I said boys Im in love and Im gonna do a lot of talking about my man Ryan so hope you don't mind. Im posting another pic of him well because I love looking at him. Sorry about the watermarks but their necessary he's had people use his pics as their own before. I used up all my luck for the rest of my life when I found him but believe me it's worth it. Im going go for now. I just got off work and Im sleepy. Im gonna go dream about a nine inch cock up my ass:)

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