Ryan's Life

Let me fill you in on what I can about my stalker/freak. I can't give much info I been asked not to by the state prosecutor. He is being charged with stalking, attempted kidnap, invasion of personal privacy. He plead not guilty and the judge set his bond at $100,000 and he made bail. So I haven't heard when the court date is but it will be a few months I am sure. It always is right? The judge did order him to stay away from me and if he came with in 500 feet of me he would be arrested and his bail revoked. I will keep you updated as I can but until it goes to trial I can't say too much. Thanks to all of you that left me a comment or sent me an email wishing good wishes. That means a lot to know so many of you care. I am just confused on why someone would hate me so much just from reading a blog.

Hanging on in Atlanta.

Omg was I going crazy when Ryan called me and told me about him going to the pool and this nut approaching him. Of course he was all up set and crying telling me and I was mad as hell. He's had a couple instances of people harrassing him including the one time he got beat up by those 3 assholes from school at a party. He's a smart guy with a cute head on his shoulders so he handled it as well as could be expected. It's a shame the way someone has to keep an eye out all around them for nuts ready to do you harm. It is a sorry sad world we live in.

On a happier note and for those few that are interested my Nascar driver Kasey Kahne won the Coca Cola 600 Sunday nite. It's the longest race of the season and takes over 5 hours to run. Omg he was cute in his firesuit when he got out of the car all happy and sweaty. Ryan called me later all excited about it cause he likes him too. Kasey winning put him in better spirits so Im doubly happy today. The pics below are from the race Sunday nite.

Normally I'm a very anal person about what's going on around me. I think my dad working for the government and his line work has made us live a little different. A few times I have let my guard down and something bad has happened to me. Like a year and a half ago when I got beat up for trying to belong. Long story most of you know about it. Some new readers may not so let me just recap. I was beat up by some school mates for being gay. They invited me to a party. I played on the baseball team with them and I wanted so much to belong and for wanting something so much I let my guard down and ended up in the hospital with broken bones.

Now I got you up to speed let me bring you to what happen yesterday. I hardly ever go to a public pool for the fact I have a pool in my back yard but my friends wanted to go to Welcome All Park in College Park so I finally let my guard down and said ok I'll go with you. I am not big on public pools at all. Nothing wrong with them just not been big on them and you think me being a swimmer in school it wouldn't bother me. Anyway we get there and it's busy. Of course it would be. I see some people I went to school with and got to talk to them for a while. I haven't seen them since I was in school so catching up was nice. Out of the corner of my eye I see this guy just staring at me.

I thought maybe he's not really looking at me so I look away and look again and he's still looking at me. So I move so he can't look at me anymore and he moves. Now I am getting freaked out so I tell my friends this dude is freaking me out he keeps looking at me. My one friend said I'll go see what his deal is so he did and the guy said oh your friend looks like someone famous. It still made me feel very strange. So I didn't see the guy for a little while and then all of the sudden I seen the guy moved and he could see me and he was still watching me and I was freaked out bad.

I told my friends look I can't stay anymore this guy is freaking me out. They were like ok we can go. So I went into the changing rooms to change out of my wet trunks. Thinking my friends were right behind to change also I didn't think anything about going in first. I got to my locker and drop my shorts and I heard this guy shout Ryan. I turned around and there was that dude I was like fuck! I said how you know my name? He said I use to read your blog and really liked you until you upset me. I was like upset you? He said yes you made me very angry and I have waited on the chance to tell you. I said how you know where I live Atlanta is a big town?

He said when you posted that pic of the water fountain in the center of town and pics of your farm it didn't take me long to find your little town. I ask what have you been doing following me? Now mind you the whole time this is going on my friends haven't came in yet and I am standing in front of this stranger naked. He said yes when he seen me in my town and seen what I drove he followed me everyday until he got a chance to get me alone so he could tell him how upset he was at me. I ask him what have I have done that has upset him.

He went on to tell me that he also read another guys blog and when I talked bad about this guy it upset him. I ask him so now you have me here alone what are you going to do? I was talking real loud and I even screamed the alone part hoping someone would come to help me. Nobody came. I said you going to beat me up or rape me what? He said no I am not like that I am going to embarrass you like you did my friend. I ask what are you talking about he went on to tell me the other blogger he felt I did wrong.

I am not going to say his name and I'll explain why at the end of this post. Anyway he took out a camera and started snapping pics like crazy then I said oh so this is what is all about taking pics of me naked for what to put on the net? He said yes your boyfriend talks about your big cock all the time I think its time for everyone to see it. I said to late for that cause many already have. I am like still freaking out. Finally I heard this loud noise and then I seen cops and they took the guy down. I guess when he seen me coming in he locked the door and locked my friends out.

Since I can't hear well I didn't hear them beating on the door so they called the police and they busted down the door. My dad came also and went crazy on this guy. Luckily he won't be putting them pics out on the net. Oh the reason why I can't say anything about this other blogger they don't know if he knows anything or not so I was not to talk about his blog or his name until they are done looking into it. All I know is it scared the shit out of me and one of the main reasons I don't go to many public places. Sometime I'll have to write about when I was younger and someone shot up my dad's car and shot into the house.

A little freak out in Atlanta.

1. This city offers temperate weather year-round, averaging 57°F in the winter months and 81°F in summer months.
2. This city has four historic districts on the National Register of Historic Places.
3. This city has three National Historic Landmarks.
4. It has a population of nearly 60,000.
5. This city was second only to Ellis Island as an immigration station.

It's always sad for me and Mikey when a Nascar driver dies. Well any race car driver to be honest but when the driver is so young and never got a chance to really shine it's that much more sad. Whenever there is a driver that passes away we like to make a post about them so I hope you don't mind this post. We would like to send out thoughts and prayers to the families of Spencer Clark & Andrew Phillips. I couldn't find a pic of Andrew.




MORIARTY, N.M. (AP) - Spencer Clark, who made his Busch Series debut this year, and a crew member were killed in a single-vehicle crash on Interstate 40 in New Mexico, authorities said.

Clark, 19, and Andrew Phillips, 28, were killed when their truck and trailer were hit by a gust of wind as they passed through the mountains just east of Albuquerque on Sunday night. The vehicle lost control and both men were ejected, state police spokesman Lt. Jimmy Glascock said.
"Spencer was a good kid with a heart of gold that was as fierce of a competitor as anyone on a racetrack," Cary JC Agajanian, whose Motorsports Management International agency represented Clark, said in a statement Monday. "His sheer talent and determination alone were enough to propel him into the NASCAR Busch Series and we expected many great achievements from him in the future."

Clark made his Busch Series debut in March and finished 35th. In 2003, he was the rookie of the year in the Super Late Model division.

Phillips, an all-Western Athletic Conference offensive lineman for the University of Hawaii, was a member of Clark's Allegiant Air Racing Team.

The two were returning to Clark's home in Nevada from North Carolina, where Clark had been preparing a car for this weekend's West Series race at the Irwindale Speedway in California.

Debbie Clark said her son wasn't wearing a seat belt when the accident happened.

In addition to his mother, Clark is survived by his father, T.J. Clark, who drove in the Craftsman Truck Series and in Winston West events; and his sister, Candice.

Funeral arrangements were pending.

news from foxsports.com

Sad in Atlanta.

Not much going on and we don't have any weekend plans. Just hanging with some friends and missing Mikey. I think were cooking out this weekend. I believe its a big thing for everyone this weekend. You all have any plans this weekend we would love to hear about them if you do. Oh talking about friends I think I have talked about it before but I am a dog person and being gay I have to stick with little dogs. I don't why it's a gay thing but I been told it is. I wanted to share one of my best friends with you.

Oh tomorrow I am going to do a post on a Nascar / Busch car driver that was killed. I know most of you are not into racing and I know we bore you sometimes when we talk about racing but since I love the sport I feel when a driver is sadly taken away from us I should do a post on them to show how much we love what they did for the sport we love. Now on to pics of one of my best friends.

Later from Atlanta.

These last few days I been missing Ryan more than usual. Maybe because I got pissed at that comment and wondered how he was actually doing. The biggest thing I miss about not being with him is the cuddling. I know yall was probably thinking the sex is what I missed and I do miss that to. But just laying in bed cuddling is the best. Kissing his cute little face and I just love nibbling on his ears. I remember one of the times I visited him. There was a Nascar race on and we spent the the whole race naked with him sitting on my lap just kissing and cuddling. I take that back we spent almost the whole time cuddling. There was something blocking my view and I had to take care of it then it was back to cuddling.

Just one pic today but were both in it. I think Ryan's brother took it the last time I was at his house. Sorta goes with the cuddling theme. If you haven't done it all ready go check out the new blog It's Raining Men that was just started recently.

What's the deal with people that makes them such assholes. I was ready to blow a gasket the other day over what that prick said about Ryan. Im not gonna mention his name, I wont give him the pleasure. Ryan talked to me and told me not to worry about it. Sadly he's use to name calling from grade school and the like. He told me not to comment on the jerks blog anymore. I couldn't help myself. It was the closest thing to getting my hands around his neck. I don't have a temper unless you say or do something to someone I love or care about. It's hard for me to understand how people can be so mean. I wasn't brought up that way even though I had a father that was a asshole and called me every name in the book. Maybe I seen what it did to me and don't want to repeat it. I always hear kids repeat what they see at home. Well that's not my case cause if I see a kid or woman being smacked around or verbally abused I have to say something. Anyway I promised Ryan no more mentioning you know who so the subjects closed.

This is why we as Americans need to look at this immigration problem we have. This is a good example why laws need to be different for different situations. I think this boy should get a pass with no questions asked. Give him his social security number so he can finish school and get a job and pay his taxes. Seems to me after living in hell he is doing the right thing to make something of himself and what do we do. Throw him in jail for days cause he don't have the right paper work. I think some cases are different and should be look at differently. Oh it helps he is cute also. I would let him stay just for that reason alone if it was up to me.

Later from Atlanta.

(May 19) - Manuel Bartsch has dreamed of graduating from high school and going to college for as long as he can remember. Half of that dream came true Friday, when he graduated from Pandora-Gilboa High School in northwest Ohio.


The other half of the dream hangs in the balance. The 18-year-old faces deportation, because unknown to him until six months ago when he was jailed for more than two weeks by immigration officials, he is not a legal U.S. resident.

Manuel is an ordinary 18-year-old. He can be found working out on his school's football fields or hitting golf balls with his friends. It wasn't until December 2005 that he realized he was different. He needed his Social Security number to take the college boards and realized he didn't have one -- and it was only then that he learned was not a legal resident of the United States.

He was living with his step-grandfather at the time. The older man had brought him to the United States from Germany, where Manuel had gone through a difficult childhood living with an alcoholic mother and then suffered the death of his grandmother, who was his legal guardian at the time.

Manuel arrived in Ohio in 1997 with his American-born step-grandfather on a temporary visa. Manuel didn't realize it, but the man had never adopted him legally. His legal troubles started when he got a letter from his local immigration office. The letter informed him that he had filled out the wrong form when he applied for a Social Security number. They told him to come in for an appointment to straighten it out.

Manuel was excited about the possibility of getting the Social Security number so he could take his college boards, but when he showed up for the interview he got a shock.

"I got there and they handcuffed me and brought me to jail," he said. He spent the next 16 days behind bars.

Manuel has impressed a lot of people -- leading friends, teachers and politicians to rally together to support him.

"Everyone has been behind me 100 percent," Bartsch said. "I think this experience has brought a lot of people together."

In April, Ohio Sen. Mike DeWine introduced a special bill to help Manuel gain legal status.

"In my opinion, Manuel's status in this country must change," the Republican senator said. "Through no fault of his own, Manuel is not a legal resident of the United States. Had his step-grandfather adopted him, Manuel would be an American citizen today. And, if his step-grandfather had moved to legalize Manuel's status at some point before he turned 18, he would not be subject to deportation today."

Other politicians have shared DeWine's support for the teenager, passing resolutions throughout Ohio urging immigration authorities to let him stay.

DeWine also convinced Senate Judiciary Committee Immigration Subcommittee Chairman John Cornyn, R-Texas, to request a report on the case from the Bureau of Immigration and Customs Enforcement. Because of that request, the teenager cannot be deported this year, even if a judge were to order it.

Manuel's future is up in the air. He waits on the outcome of the ongoing legal proceedings, hoping something will be done so he can attend Ohio Northern University, where he was recently accepted and where he hopes to pursue a business or economics degree.

His lawyer, David Leopold, who accepted this case pro-bono, said he's watched Manuel grow up throughout this ordeal.

"He's really become a man throughout this experience," he said.

Leopold also said that included in the immigration bill currently being debated in the Senate is a clause called the Dream Act. This would allow citizenship to Manuel, since he came to the United States before he was 16.

"If the immigration bill passes, it will be a very good thing for Manuel," he said.

As Manuel walks across the stage tonight, he will no doubt get loud cheers.

"It wasn't expected for me to graduate, so tonight means a lot to me," he said.


05-21-06 12:54 EDT


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Also don't forget people today you can go and buy the Dixie Chicks new cd. We need to support them because they support us gay folks and besides that they can sing. I can't wait for their tour dates to be announced. Last time they toured me and mom was there and we will be again. You can pick the new cd up anywhere but I think Walmart has it the cheapest.

I debated on writing this or not so I wrote it Saturday and then thought about whether I should post it or not all weekend. I talked to Mikey about it he said it was a nice thing to do but in the end it was up to me. I talked to my mom and she said the same thing so after much debating I decided I would so here it is.

Most of you that read this blog also read Scotty's blog and you know what happen to him with his job. I haven't read Scotty's blog in a long time and another blogger I was talking to on the phone asked did you see what happen to Scotty? I at first said who's Scotty. I didn't even think it was Scotty from blog world. So he told me what Scotty put on his blog so I had to go and read it. I thought well that just sucks big time. If other people are doing it at his job I bet like everyone else that he was being singled out cause he was gay.

So I like everyone else from that time on waited for news from Scotty on his blog on what they were going to do to him. Let me go back a bit if I may. I don't comment on his blog and he don't comment on mine. We used to and was very friendly with each other. Then about a year ago I think there was some shit went down and we were all involved in it and it wasn't any of our choices. It involved other bloggers and we were caught in the middle but it did hurt whatever we had in between us I think.

Anyway back to the reason I am writing this. I waited just like everyone else for word on what happen to him and his job. Then out of the blue a blast from the past posted a comment on his blog. I am not going to say this guys name. He won't get any credit on this blog what so ever. Anyway with what he said I had to click on his name and go over to his blog to see what kind of bull he had to say. He claims from what I can tell to be the one that put a bug in the company's ear. When I read that it totally pissed me off.

First off I think this bum is trying to take credit for something he had no part of but trying to be a big fish saying he did. This guy has done nothing but cause trouble on blogs since he first started coming around. He caused a lot of the troubles I had with Scotty in the first place and he even raised some hell on my blog. I know me writing this now will probably put me in his target but I don't care cause this needs to be said. If it takes him away from Scotty and the hell he's going through now then here I am prick come and get me.

I know a lot of people that reads this blog also reads Scotty's blog. When I seen the comments he got showing support I seen many of my readers there. I thought wow blogging people are really cool showing all that support. All I know is that Scotty has kids and losing a job is not a cool thing. I wanted to do something even though we are not the best of blogging buddies to say hey man we care. I think all of you readers that read my blog and his should take a second and do a small post on your blog showing Scotty that you care.

Later from Atlanta.

Don't forget to check out It's Raining Men.

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4. Average annual rainfall is 49 inches
5. This city is home to the award-winning and largest performing arts complex south of the Kennedy Center in D.C..
6. USA Today called this city the sports capital of the USA.

I hope everyone's having a wonderful weekend. I was looking around on the net and came across this story. I thought it was really cute and wanted to share it with you all.

In a zoo in California, a mother tiger gave birth to a rare set of triplet tiger cubs.Unfortunately, due to complications in the pregnancy, the cubs were born prematurely and due to their tiny size, they died shortly after birth.

The mother tiger after recovering from the delivery, suddenly started to decline in health, although physically she was fine. The veterinarians felt that the loss of her litter had caused the tigress to fall into a depression. The doctors decided that if the tigress could surrogate another mother's cubs, perhaps she would improve. After checking with many other zoos across the country, the depressing news was that there were no tiger cubs of the right age to introduce to the mourning mother. The veterinarians decided to try something that had never been tried in a zoo environment. Sometimes a mother of one species will take on the care of a different species. The only "orphans" that could be found quickly, were a litter of weaner pigs.
The zoo keepers and vets wrapped the piglets in tiger skin and placed the babies around the mother tiger.

Last night was the final Will & Grace. Eight wonderful years of a great show! I remember when the show came on and mom watching it I started watching it with her. I was just a small boy when the show came on but I remember it. Also helps we have it on DVD. This has always been my favorite show and haven't missed that many shows when they first aired. Last night I watched the final show with my mom and we sit there and cried. I want to say even though I know they will never see this but have to say it anyway Thank You for a really great show!









Thanks again gang for one awesome show!

Last time I visited Ryans house he turned me on to one of the things he does to pamper himself. He takes long hot bubble baths not everyday but about twice a week usually. He has this huge bath tub in his bathroom and he gets the water nice and toasty. Then he puts somekind of bath oil in that makes the water feel real silky like and bubbly. It's hard to explain but it's really smooth on your skin. I forget the name of it but I looked around where I live and we don't have it up here. That's a shock. I hate to admit it but I had never had a bubble bath before. It's something I just never thought about. But he asked me to join him in the tub on my last visit to his house. Of course I jumped at the chance. I got in first and then he sat in between my legs. We spent the next hour just cuddling and rubbing each other in all the right places. Ok If you was wondering we did make love and it was great. First time I had did it in water other than the shower. Ive had several bubble baths at home since and every time I think back to that first one we had together. I know we'll have plenty more in the future.

Boy when I get the flu I really get the flu! I hurt all over. Mom is taking me to the doctor tomorrow. Early today I was trying to go downstairs and I got real dizzy and fell down the stairs. I got me a real nice bump on my head now. It even bled a little which sure did freak mom out. She said that the flu has my equal something off that keeps us balanced. I don't know all I know is I fell and it hurt. So tomorrow it's off to see the doc.

I want to take a second and tell you all about a new blog that has been started. It's mainly for gay men of all ages but everyone is welcome. What we want to do with it is maybe help some other gay men out there. Maybe their in the closet maybe they just have questions and have nobody to turn too. It is founded by a group of bloggers and more people will be added later. The posts will be about all kinds of topics. I think having a range of ages being a part of the group will help. Stop in and check it out. It's Raining Men.

I thought I would leave you with a pic of my town. It's been a while since I put a pic of Atlanta up and I think it just looks so cool at night.



Sick in Atlanta.

Update
Ryan's mom emailed me a pic of his boo boo this morning and I wanted everybody to see it. I wish I was there to kiss it and make it all better.

Update by Mikey

I thought I would tell everyone about my Mothers Day weekend that just passed. Saturday I slept a good bit cause I had worked the previous nite. I wanted to be rested since the race was on that nite. I spent the whole race talking to Ryan on the phone. I feel bad I can't be with him when he's sick. I'd love to be there to spoil him worse than he already is. But I know his mom is doing a good job of taking care of him.

Sunday I took my mom out to dinner. She's funny cause she don't like going out to eat. She says it's a waste of money and she can fix anything at home for less than half they charge in restaurants. But I kept bugging her and she finally did go and we had a good time. She don't care much for flowers so I got her one of those planters that have several plants in them. She loves those. She separates them into different pots.

I hope my update didn't bore you to much. Unlike Ryan who can write about anything sometimes I think Im boring but maybe Im to hard on myself.

Of all the days I had to be sick on it was Mother's Day. My family had a cookout and some friends came over but where was I? Laying in bed sick. I felt so bad cause my mom kept coming in to check on me. She didn't even get to enjoy her day for worrying about me. I know she didn't mind doing it it's a mother's thing to do is take care of her sick children but I still feel sad that she didn't even enjoy herself. I hate having a weak immune system seems I am always sick. Please forgive me for not reading any blogs or leaving comments. I'll catch up as soon as I feel good again.



Sick in Atlanta.

We had a what city Sunday post all ready to go but thought we would put it on hold for a week so we can say to all the moms that read our blog Happy Mothers Day and to our moms you mean the world to us and we love you very much.

Happy Mothers Day love Mike & Ryan




Mothers come in all sizes and descriptions it's true, But please know we're thankful for each one of you. Some have many children, some have only one, But each mother gave life to a daughter or son.

You may feel neglected and you may be, it's true, But at least for today we want to thank you. You not only gave birth but you guided and led, And you saw that your children were clothed and were fed.

You taught us each night to kneel down and pray, And things that you told us we remember today. You may not always be "with it" or dressed all in style, But my you are lovely when at us you smile.

Some of you mothers are grandmothers too, So your days for teaching children are certainly not through. Grandchildren love grandmothers and need them you see, To love them and teach them and their friend to be.

Thank God you're a mother and enjoy today, And know that we mean all the good things we say. We love you and need you every day of the year, And we're glad to express it when Mother's Day is here.

We tell God we're thankful for each one of you, But so often we're neglectful and forget to tell you. So as children or grandchildren or as husbands too, We say and we mean, "MOTHERS WE LOVE YOU."

My baby Ryan has a cold this weekend. Get well soon sweetheart.

Me & Mikey are taking a break today from any long posts or talking about anything that's sad or in the news. We will be back on Sunday with a What City Sunday post. We just want to take a second and say thanks to all the people that read our blog and for taking the time to leave us a comment. You make blogging fun.

Enjoy your weekend take one day this weekend and just relax we will be back on Sunday!




Later from Georgia & West Virginia!

Ok am I the only one that is really not shocked that Chris was voted off. I mean come on people he was good but was he great I don't think so. I think he will go on and make a cd and do good at it or maybe just another Bo Bice who knows. What I seen from Chris is the same thing every week and he didn't change much on his singing and a few times I think he got himself in trouble trying to rock out songs that his voice couldn't do. I really do believe he will go on and make a cd and I think it will sell I think he will be just fine.



This is all over the net Chris on Ryan's radio show.

This is the band Fuel asking Chris to be their lead singer

What is a shocker to me is that Elliott is still there and in the top 3 omfg what is America watching? This boy can't sing worth a damn if you ask me. Go ahead bash me over this I don't care I am just saying what I feel. It has nothing to do with his looks or anything else. I am talking about his voice and the judges going on and on like he is the next Elvis,please. If for some freaked out reason he ends up winning the show I see another Ruben on American Idols hands. He will do his album and it will flop and he will go away and never be heard from again.



Katherine omg what can I say here again I don't know what America is watching but after this past week yeah she needs to go. Thats all I got to say about her.



Taylor you got my vote ease up on the crazy dancing a bit and I think you will win. I see Taylor as a guy that you can promote and sell cd's and sell concert tickets. Like Kelley & Clay. Taylor can be a money machine. His heart is into music and it shows. My vote goes to Taylor to win it all! Did that make you happy mom?



My thoughts on Idol. Later from Atlanta!

Thanks to Fox for the Pics.
Thanks to Extra and Ryan Seacreast radio show.

The pic of Ryan this week is one we have posted before. He told me I could choose my favorite pic of one of his body parts and use it. Since Im not gonna be posting any pics of his nice big cock this is my second favorite body part. I joke with him all the the time and tell him I would rather kiss his ass than his mouth. He knows I only kid. I mean look at him hes adorable. I had seen plenty pics of it before we met but that first time we met and he took his cloths off before we showered I was like OMG its perfect. Then I got to put my hands on it when I was soaping him up. It's so soft just like a babys butt.He's so tight to just like he was made for me.

My pic this week is just another pic of my chest I had from awhile ago. We hope you like them both.

With Mothers Day coming this Sunday I thought I would write a little something about my mom. My mom has always been my best friend. Growing up I didn't have many friends my dad use to tell her she protected me to much. Maybe she did but she always told me I was her special angel. See I was a premature baby and they told my parents I wouldn't make it. When I did mom said I was her special angel. So she did maybe over protect me but I understand why she did.

When I was 12 I remember being so sad and mom ask me what was going on and I told her nothing. You know how a 12 year old boy keeps things to himself. A few days went by and I remember mom took me out to the beach house. Just me and her and we had a long weekend together. I remember her telling me I could talk to her about anything no matter how big or small and I said I know mom. Maybe an hour went by and I told her there was something on my mind and I wanted to talk to her but I was scared. She made it clear that no matter what she would be there for me.

So I went on to tell her my feelings I had towards boys and I was sad cause I didn't have any friends. She told me that it was going to be ok that she had a feeling that I might be gay but if I wasn't sure we could find someone to talk to about it. She told me no matter what she would always love me but until I was sure best not tell dad. Just like a mom huh? Then she said Ryan you are a very shy boy and you need to reach out more to make friends but if you can't just remember I can be your friend. I know when she said that the love she had in her eyes just made me cry. So from that day on my mom has been my best friend.

I just thought I would share that little bit about me with you all. Mom if you read this just know I love you very much and you will always be my best friend.

Later from Atlanta.

I came home from work this morning and seen Ryan's sad post. I hate seeing my sweetie so sad. I talked to him later in the day and was trying to cheer him up. He knows Im looking hard for job oppurtunites down in Atlanta. If he can just put up with me being so far away for a while longer then hopefully we'll be together for good. I know he beats the boys off with a stick down there but Im not to worried about that. He tells me when guys flirt and come on to him. I know he could have his pick of any guy if he wanted but he's picked me.

The weekend was awesome but I knew it would be. I wont go into details only to say the sex was better than ever. We had fun at the race even though neither of our drivers won. My driver Kasey Kahne finished 34th cause some idiot on his crew forgot to hook up two spark plug wires. OMG I was pissed at such a stupid mistake so I know he had to be. Ryans driver finished 37th after he got in a wreck with just 10 laps to go. We still had a blast though because we were together. I always have a good time when Im with him and no I don't mean the sex. I mean just talking to him and hanging around together.

I'm home and very sad. I know in my heart that Mikey is my soul mate. Everytime I leave him I am so sad that it makes me sick. That's all I got for today I am going to lay down and cry for a while.



Sad in Atlanta.

1. This city is the state capital and was also the capital of the Confederacy.
2. Patrick Henry made his "Give me Liberty or Give me Death" speech in this city.
3. The population of this city is approximately 203,056
4. This city has been an official city since 1737
5. The "Southern White House" of Jefferson Davis was here in this city.
6. This city became the confederate capital in 1861. At this time the capital building housed both the state legislature and Confederate.




We our having a blast this is our last day together so forgive us for not having a longer post. Next week we have some great posts about our weekend together and some pics of the race.

I thought I'd make a quick post this morning to let everyone know Ryan made it to Richmond last nite. Yes we had a great time last nite. Im glad all the covers are white. It's harder to see the stains that way. Excuse the bed not being made I wanted to take a pic before it got messed up but Ryan jumped me as soon as we got in the door. Anyway we can't wait for the race tonite. Maybe one of our boys will win one and we can celebrate it. Not that Im gonna need an excuse to ride him all nite like a horse.



I took these two pics while I was bored waiting on Ryan's plane.


The bed this morning after it quit rocking.

Hate a strong word that hurts a lot of people but we all do it. Yes I am guilty of hate. There are some people I know from the blog world that I just hate. Ive never met them in person I just know I hate them. There are people right here in my town I see sometimes everyday they also never done anything to me hell maybe they never even spoke to me. I just have this feeling I hate them. I wonder why this is?

I think in the gay community the hate among gays are stronger. I don't know why this is. It just seems to be to me. We all have our clicks we hang with. Like me most of my click is women or older men. Not many men in my click at all to be honest. Yet we see another click and we talk about them just like I know they are talking about us. Seems gay men hate other gay men and I also am guilty of this. I just don't know why.

Hate a strong word that hurts a lot of people.

Later today I am flying out to meet up with my honey in Virginia. I am so happy all I know is room service tonight. I don't want to leave the room. Yes lots of sex when we are together but just like in my baby's post yesterday it is more than just a hook up. I believe Mikey is my soul mate and I can't wait for the day we live together as one and the day he asks me to be his husband I will be the happiest boy in the whole world and I will invite you all to come to the wedding. Well not the ones I hate!

Have a wonderful, fun and sexed up weekend I plan on it!
Later from Atlanta on my way to Richmond.

Well Im a happy young man. I know your just dying to know why. Well I know there's not many Nascar fans who visit our blog so you may not know this but the race this weekend is in Richmond Virginia. So Im going to it and who do you think Im going with. Thats right you guessed it. Ryan is flying up to Richmond and Im gonna pick him up Friday evening. Were gonna stay till Sunday afternoon so we'll have two nights together and see a race Saturday night how sweet is that. Two nights with my sweetie and see a race too. This is only my second one Ive every been to. The other was the Daytona 500 and Ryan was with me there too.

Since Im seeing Ryan this weekend it got me thinking about a comment we got a week or so back. I ain't even gonna mention his name but the guy said the more he reads our blog the more he thinks it about the sex and us hooking up and not about the love. Well first off I wont lie the sex is awesome. Ryan is hot as hell and has a sweet little tight ass and a big cock and knows how to use it. Now that that's out of the way he's also my best friend. I can tell him anything and he wont judge me or put me down. Ive never had a friend like him before. So not only is Ryan my boyfriend he's also my best friend. I love him with all my heart. Everyone's entitled to their opinion. You know what they say. Opinions are like assholes everybodys got one.

Our pics this week are tame compared to previous ones. Ryan decided against the cum on his belly pics. Their a little to naughty for HNT. I hope you like the ones we picked.

Wouldn't it be cool if we could have all the pretty flowers and trees without the pollen in the air. The reason I say that is my allergies are giving me fits. It wouldn't bother me so much if my nose was just runny. That's never been my problem though. Its my eyes that bother me. They itch and burn and tear up like crazy. I wear contacts almost all the time but have to switch to glasses every year around this time. Trust me they don't help my looks any.

Another thing about spring and summer I don't like is the sun. I can't be out in it for to long or I burn real bad. As you have probably noticed in a few of my pics Im white as a sheet. I do tan a little but for the most part I just turn real red then it goes away and Im white again. I was wondering what everyone's favorite season is. Mine I reckon would have to be winter. I love the snow and the cold tempertures. Walking in the woods right after it's snowed and the temp about 20 degrees. You being the first one to walk in the fresh fallen snow. Probably the only one that's gonna walk in it.

Here's some pics of some flowers and trees around my town. I had to take pics of neighbors flowers. I sure as hell ain't getting out and planting any the way their screwing with my allergies.