Ryan's Life

Gonna make this short we r getting ready 2 leave 4 the beach house 4 the 4th of July weekend. Mikey is on his way down I am so happy I can't wait 2 hold him, kiss him and just cuddle and move on form there! I want to say thanx 2 all the great comments & the support I can see now there r people that care and do believe. I am gonna take your advice and will blog when I want about what I want and those that don't like it can............ From now on hate comments or any negative comments will be taken down as soon as me or Mikey see's them people can write and talk what they want about us on there blogs I am not gonna lose it over this shit again. I am gonna win not them and I c all the help and support I have from my true blogging friends I can get pass this. So again thanx I can't say that enough when I was weak u were strong 4 me and that means a lot 2 me. Love you guys!




I might not post again until after this weekend I want 2 spend all the time I can with Mikey so if we don't post forgive us. I want 2 wish all of u a very safe and fun 4th of july weekend!



Lots of Thanx from Atlanta!

I see all the advice everyone has given Ryan about the blog. Thanks for your input. If he wanted to quit the blog just because he's tired of it I wouldn't have a problem with it. But him wanting to stop blogging cause of assholes comments and shit like that that's something I can't stand. He's stronger than he realizes and I have to remind him of that sometimes. If you've read his old blog and this one you may know he gets depressed sometimes and takes medication for it. He's doing better now. I talked to him today and also to his mom. Their going to the beach house for the weekend and she invited me down. I have some vacation time coming so I took her up on her invitation. We'll have a good time and Ill put him in a better mood for sure.

I know I shouldn't comment on comments but when someone thinks there getting something over on me well I have to. Shane/Gregg you got nerve to mention someone having balls yet you comment as 2 different people. Yeah I went and dug up your info. Both of you are from Atlanta you use a Mac computer and firefox browser. You mentioned Ryans balls. Well I have first hand knowledge of them you might say and their the size of cantaloupes. What have you got grapes asshole!!

Normally I write post and send them 2 Mikey for him 2 check and fix 4 me coz I write and spell different then most people who read this blog and I didn't want u 2 think I was Georgia hick or something. This time I am posting it just the way I write it. Maybe it will show some of these people that there r 2 or us. This thing is making me sick I know I shouldn't let it eat at me like I do but the way I was raised I think might work against me. Honesty was a big thing in my house growing up and still is I guess I believe in people until they did something 4 me not to believe in them anymore. Trust is another big 1 growing and I trusted people sometime when I shouldn't and got burned.

Last year this same topic came up and the year b4 that and now here it is again. I may ramble on a bit in this post so bare with me. Let me start out by saying some people that read this blog knows this story but those who don't the very first blog I had was called boy in atlanta I had maybe 8 months when people trashed it out so I delete it. I loved writing 2 much 2 stay away so I started another blog called boy on boy again last year bout this time getting trash called a lair and a fake I said fuck it im done I walked away. Mikey ask me to join this blog at first I didn't want to coz I do like writing so I said ok honey ill join your blog. So here I am brings you up to date somewhat.

Now I have been blogging 4 about 2 years now. Like I said some of you came from them other blogs. If I was anything these people accused me of don't you think after 2 years I would have fucked up by now? Living a 2 year lie with out a mistake come on people that would take someone who was very good and made a job out of lying don't you think? But every year seems like when the blog either mine or this 1 finally takes off someone wants to knock it down. Is it me? Am I that hated that someone wants to keep me down? I tried to be as open as I can but after the last go around I said right up front I would not be talking about my family much I wasn't giving anybody anything they could use for blackmail. But I was honest with ya'll about that.

Now this blog is causing me and Mikey troubles. We have done nothing but fight and fight over the phone to the point all I could do is cry myself to sleep. I want to walk away forever and just come a blimp in your blog memory. He don't want me to he knows how I like to write and how good I am at putting my feeling on paper. I tried 2 tell him after a while your feeling r out there they get hurt so bad that u want to hide them or take them and jump in front of a truck or jump off a building with them. He got mad when I talked that. He thinks if I stop writing they win they got what they wanted and makes us look like were hiding something. I tried 2 tell him I don't give a fuck what they think! So right now the trip is off 2 c him unless we can work this out kinda hard 2 work things out when I can't stop crying.

When I was growing up I know some of u heard this b4 from the other blogs but I was a small kid still am really but I always got pick on coz I was the smaller kid I guess u could say I was bullied a lot by other kids called names such as fag, sissy boy, queer and much worse sometimes I knew these words were said to me 2 b little me even tho I didn't know what they meant at the time. They still hurt anyway. I would come home from school with bruise marks on my arms and legs Mom said what happen I lied said fell down playin I didn't want my parents 2 know the other kids hit me made fun of me and I was a sissy boy. So I would hide in my room and didnt have many friends until later in life.

The puter open new doors 4 me and gave me something I long 4 friends! I talked 2 people on there they seemed 2 care about what I was saying they never called me names. I found a blog 1 day and thought how cool I already write and have a ton of jounals this could b a way 2 make even more friends. This was a good thing 4 me even tho things in school got a little better when I got into sports but still I wasn't the kid anyone wanted 2 hang with I was stange 2 them coz I was quiet I guess I learn in grade school 2 keep 2 myself or get beat up. So I trusted people on the net and yes been burn a few times and I blame myself. I also learn how 2 fight back 2 some degree on here but there is always that part of me that wants 2 run and hide and thats what I want 2 do now. This time they not only pushed me but what blogger friends I had 2. They been going around commenting as me say bad things or just sending emails out saying who knows what. I just want 2 hide.

I have more 2 say but later I just want 2 crawl up on my bed and cry.

Sad in Atlanta

I will have a post soon!
Thanks for all the concern!

1. This city is one of the ten largest cities in the United States.

2. This city maintains and operates 41 community and neighborhood recreation centers, 232 playgrounds, 173 basketball courts, 112 volleyball courts, 126 play slabs, 258 neighborhood tennis courts, 258 picnic areas, 69 miles (110 km) of hiking and biking trails.

3. This city is home to two of the greatest men's choruses in the world.

4. This city has the most watched PBS station in the United States and was the first PBS station to air Monty Python and other British comedies.

5. This City has the largest gay and lesbian population in the Southwest United States.


This is the last what city Sunday we will be doing thanks so much for playing along. On another note later this week we will have a post letting everyone know what we our planning on doing about blogging. We are just sick & tired of all the crap going on and being accused and being put in the middle of everything. We talked all day yesterday and we decided so check it out later this week.

Wow you guys just plain rock! Last Friday I did the cool quotes and ya'll jumped right in with some awesome quotes. My pick last week for best quote goes to Gomad.Ch here is his quote he sent in "The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain" Dolly Parton Stop by tell him hi and give him a congrats for having the coolest quote last week. This weeks quotes I picked come from movies but remember your quotes can come from anywhere. Thanks for playing!

Later from Atlanta!

Napoleon Dynamite: What the flip was Grandma doing at the sand dunes?

From Anchorman
Frank Vitchard: I am gonna straight-up murder your ass.
Ron Burgundy: I'm gonna punch you in the ovary, that's what I'm gonna do. A straight shot. Right to the babymaker.

Ace Ventura: If I'm not back in five minutes... just wait longer.
Ace Ventura: Warning. Assholes are closer than they appear.

From Monster in Law
Viola Fields: What do you do for fun?
Pop Star: I love watching really old movies. They're my favorite.
Viola Fields: Really? Really? Which ones?
Pop Star: Well, "Grease" and "Grease II." Um, "Benji." I love "Benji." "Free Willy," um..."Legally Blonde," "The Little Mermaid."

From Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Mr. Salt: Are you using the Havermax 4000 to do your sorting?
Willy Wonka: No.
[laughs]
Willy Wonka: You're really weird.

Willy Wonka: This is the puppet hospital and burns center. It's relatively new.

From Cars

Lighting McQueen: I'm serious! He's won three Piston Cups!
Mater: [spits out fuel] He did WHAT in a cup?

Mater: My name's Mater.
Lighting McQueen: Mater?
Mater: Like tomater, but without the "tuh".

For now we are going to put hnt on hold. We think it's for the best we might do it again soon. Please understand this is not what we wanted just think it's for the best. I got an idea from a good blogging friend of mine Gomad-Ch Over on his blog he has a post about songs of summer and I thought what a good idea so me and Mikey is going to list our top 5 favorite songs of summer. We would like to know what yours are so feel free to leave us a comment with your songs. HHNT to those of you doing it.

Later from Atlanta!

Here's my 5 songs.

1. Get Your Shine On - Jesse McCartney
2. Let's Take Our Time - Ryan Cabrera
3. Rain, Rain - Cher
4. Margaritaville - Jimmy Buffett
5. The Boys Of Summer - Don Henley (I remember this song when I was little singing it with my Mom)

Here are Mikey's 5 songs.

1. Summertime Blues - Alan Jackson
2. Summers Comin - Clint Black
3. Sweet Southern Comfort - Buddy Jewel
4. Good Vibrations - The Beach Boys
5. CenterField - John Fogerty

Ryan mentioned in an earlier post that I was thinking about having him come here for a visit. So I been working on that and I think it's gonna be in a couple weeks maybe sooner if were lucky. It'll be a delicate situation because as I've mentioned before my I've never told my mom Im gay. Im sure she's got a clue or two in the past that I am but we just don't talk about stuff like that. I wanted to show Ryan my little town which wont be that easy either. In a town the size of mine practically everybody knows each other. I can just imagine the gossip after people seeing me around town with a cute strange boy. So I reckon we can get a hotel room in Charleston which is about a 30 mile drive from my house. That wont be to bad. He wants to see my house so I was thinking I could catch my mom not home and show him around. I know her schedule pretty good so I know I can catch her not home. May even be enough time to jump in the bed for a quickie:)

Actually I was sort of hesitant to show Ryan my house. Not that I don't want him to see it. It's just that compared to his house it's not much really. He told me it's not about what my house looks like it's cause it's where I live and that's why he wants to see. So he's going to and real soon.

Yesterday's post was not one I was proud of but it had to be done. Something good did come from it. Wonder what it was? Your good advice some of you left in comments others emailed either way thanks gang you rock what can I say. Like many you told me I need not focus my energy on the bad guys and give them less time on our blog so that's what we are going to do. So I am going to throw a few things out that we are going to do and not do.

I think me and Mikey open ourselves up sometimes to get attacked. So that is going to bring some changes. Starting today they will be less and less pics of us on this blog. That means no more hnt. I stopped a long time ago talking about my family on this blog in fear for them. Maybe not in the sense someone would hunt them down but just giving out info. I am going to be careful about what I say when comes to personal info where I live stuff like that.

You will be seeing changes coming to this blog some good and I am sure some that ya'll might not like. Just remember all you have to do is leave a comment or send email if we take something away ya'll liked. Im just trying to be careful with all the crap of the last year an half. Funny thing is these people think were going to turn tail and run but look we are still here and will be here until blogging is not fun anymore.

One question I get a lot is why do we post at midnight every night? Like this post here you are reading I wrote at work. Yes I blog at work but no worries here my mom owns the place. Anyway I am not a good speller so I write many posts at a time my mind goes 100 miles an hour. Then I send them to Mikey he checks them for me and then sets them up to be posted at midnight. They post while we our in bed sleeping so the night owls have something to read! J/K

Thanks from Atlanta!

You question me!! I question you with the 4th of July almost here and it was time for your big show what happen. Time for you to be honest and you couldn't cause if you did people and your readers would have known you was a fake!

Little of what you said...........

What will this "Spectacular" entail??? Some of it I wish to keep secret for now. But it will be unlike anything you have ever seen in blogger land so far and will likely see again anytime soon. It will be an hour to an hour and a half of constant posts one after another. They will start fully clothed in some stuff I have purchased from International Male and have been waiting to "fit into" and get progressively more "revealing." Down to and including the birthday suit by the end. In between will be a vast array of underwear, g-strings, thongs and some "theme" stuff. And yes I even envision 2 or 3 VIDEOS worked in, attempting to actually dance in very little as I did for 12 years once upon a time. I am a little out of practice... so you'll have to live with that LOL.
If it appears that weekend might not be good because many might be traveling and not have access to be there… then I might move it back a week or something. As it stands now though, the GRAND UNVEILING will be on July Fourth from 12-1pm EST and then those face shots will be taken back down again right after.

I was willing to let things go and move on past this bump in the road but people seem to love this bump. You have the balls to attack, threaten and call me fake! People who have been apart of this blog forever knows I will not back down from a threat. You have the balls to copy my post and then question me about it or question on how I comment on other blogs. I am going to answer one question of yours and that's it and then it's my turn to show that you are the 1 that is a fake!

The reason I leave short comments on blogs is I don't have the time to give long answers on blogs unless what the person wrote touchs me deep. I believe if I leave some sort of comment on every blog that I have linked the people know I took a little of my time just to give to them. I have many people comment on my posts with 6 words or less and to me 1 word or 20 words I am happy they took a few seconds out of the lives just to give to me. To me that's what comments mean.

Now do we end this blog war now or do we keep it up?

To all the people that read this blog and believes in me & Mikey thank you very much! I am very sorry that ya'll have to witness all this bullshit. It's just I am tired of being threaten and attacked and I am not going to sit anymore and let this guy or his friend get away with putting me down. Jealous people get no where in life!

Angry in Atlanta!

1. This city became the capital of its state only after a very suspicious and controversial election.
2. There are approximately 1,693.75 statute miles between this city and Atlanta.

3. This city was established on October 30, 1864 following the discovery of gold along Last Chance Creek by the Four Georgians.

4. By 1888 about 50 millionaires lived in this city.

5. The city was originally named Crabtown.

It seems like we go down this road about 6 months

Myself I could care less only reason it pisses me off is because of Ryan

He's to tenderhearted and wants everyone to like him

When they don't it upsets him and then that upsets me

I ain't gonna get mad and start cussing much as I want to

Im sitting here at 3 in the morning on a nite off when I should be sleeping

The shits starting to get old

Friday again I tell you this week just flew by. I did this quote thing last Friday and ya'll seem to like it so what the heck let's try it again. This week I found some quotes from some actors & singers. I love looking at their quotes and wonder where they were and what they were doing when they said it. Last week ya'll played along really well and had some great quotes. I am looking forword to what you have this week. As promised I have to pick one of you for a shout out and please everyone click on the winners name and stop over and say hi and let them know you came over from here. Next week I will give a shout out to the best quote.

From Martin his quotes came from The Simpsons.

Police Chief Wiggum: Can't you people take the law into your own hands? I mean, we can't be policing the entire city!

Homer: Operator! Give me the number for 911!


This weeks Quotes:

She's sweeter than any poodle, but she's strong and just won't heel,... I do all the work. I'm the disciplinarian.
Adam Brody

Mix one part Denzel Washington and two parts Eva Mendes and you have a nice hot cocktail.
Dean Cain

I want to do a character-driven porn movie. It's all going to be about characters, and the porn's gonna grow all out of the character's and it's going to serve as character development.
Matt Damon

Dream as if you'll live forever; live as if you'll die tomorrow.
James Dean

I don't see why I can't have friends of both sexes without wild rumors being circulated. It's crazy.
Leonardo DiCaprio

I only answer to two people, myself and God.
Cher

Country fans need to support country music by buying albums and concert tickets for traditional artists or the music will just fade away. And that would be really sad.
George Jones

Later from Atlanta.

It's only been a few days but I am missing Mikey so bad I can't stand it. I know he is me also cause were both burning up the phone. We have talked about him moving and it's looking better everyday. He also asked me if I could come up for a week. This is a big deal for Mikey and I told him hell yes I would. He is working things out so I can come up so I will keep ya'll updated on that.

Last week we had a guest for hnt and it went over well. He sent us another pic for this week. This is a blogger like I said last week we all blog with and he comments on every post we do. He also comments on many of yours. Can you guess who it might be? Show him some more love this week and he said he would send even a hotter pic next week!

Happy HNT from Atlanta!

You know I was all about bitching for gay marriage and still think we should have that right. I was looking around my town and the gay news when I ran across this and when I read it I thought what a good point. I think we should never give up the fight for marriage but I think we should fight the small battles that we could win and then take on the big ones. I am also thinking about helping a local candidate running for Georgia House District. My Dad think I should cause I always have an opinion about something I am going down to his headquarters and talk to them I already have on the phone and they ask me to stop in. What do ya'll think?

That's about all I got for today make sure to check back tomorrow for HNT the guest we had last week sent in another pic and its hotter than last week me and 7 Mikey will also have up a pic that is the hottest we have every had on our blog and you already had a sneak peek of it.

Later from Atlanta.

Please read this
FOR GEORGIA'S GAY COMMUNITY, MARRIAGE IS ONLY ONE ISSUE OF MANY

Thanks to www.outinatlanta.com

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I am having the time of my life! Me & Mikey are making memory's amoung other things. I just wanted to say sorry for not posting much and not commenting on your all's blog I will catch up tomorrow. This is my last day with Mikey and I want to enjoy him. Hope everyone is having one awesome weekend like we are. Now we our going to cuddle up naked on the sofa and watch Nascar.

Much Love from Atlanta!



UPDATE......... 06-12-06

Mikey is on his way home I am at work feeling really sad. I hated telling him goodbye this morning he look so sad leaving I told him stay and he said soon! I hope so. Think I'll check ya'll blogs. I hate this empty feeling!

1. This city was founded in 1812.
2. It is the capital of it's state and has been since 1816.
3. This city has gradually grown into the most populous city in it's state.
4. 50% of the United States population lives within a 500 mile radius of this city.
5. This city has a worldwide reputation zoo.

I was thinking of trying something new for Friday's. I want to call it "Quotes that make you Laugh" I thought it might be a good way to start your weekend. We all could use a laugh from time to time right? So what you can do is leave your quote in the comments and we all can read and laugh and then later I will pick the best quote of the week and put it in one of my post with your name and a link to your blog. If it goes over well then I will do it every Friday or maybe once a month depends how it goes.

Here are some of my favorite quotes they are from Karen Walker from Will & Grace.

Honey, I'm busy, touch yourself.

Honey, what's this, what's happening, what's going on here?

Honey, you're simple, you're shallow, and you're a common whore, that's why were soul mates!

Martini, honey, and don't waste any space with those olives!

You're in a gay club with a nice ass, start shakin' that money maker!

Thanking God it's Friday here in Atlanta! Mikey will be here soon!!!!!!!

This week we have a guest for HNT. This guy is a blogger we all blog with he can't do HNT on his blog his family reads it. He ask me not to give out his name or blog because of the family maybe he will live a comment and say who he is. Let's show him some love and maybe he will send me some more pics for another guest shot on HNT. I want to personally say what a great ass he has!




I also want to put up this pride pic that is going around the net. This is pride month and until we have the say rights as all Americans I think we should show our pride.



On another note I am so happy tomorrow Mikey will be here and I can't wait to hold him. Mom said I been acting like a little kid with a new toy I guess I am. We will be back next week with HNT pics of us I thought this was a good change and want to thank the guest blogger for showing us his cute little ass!

Happy HNT Later from Atlanta!

Only 3 more days till I go to visit Ryan again. The days are dragging by like theres 48 hours in a day instead of 24. He's got all kinds of stuffed planned for us to do over the weekend. He says were gonna go to a few gay clubs while Im down there. Ive just been in and out of one in my life so that should be an experience. He also want to take me riding dirt bikes around the farm. That should be really fun. He's also got shopping planned he says he needs to teach me how to shop. He's the expert so if anyone can it's him. All I know is with all this stuff he's got planned he better left some time for me to get some of that hot ass of his. Hell we'll probably never leave his room the whole time Im there. If we don't I know where Im getting my protein from so it's not like Im gonna starve.

I been thinking about Mikey a lot since all this stuff happen to me this past week. I been thinking how special he is to me. How much I love him, how safe I feel when he holds me. I can't wait until next weekend so I can hold him. When he makes love to me I will be in heaven.

Mikey your my rock and without you in my life I am not sure where I would be.
I Love You Babe!

In my eyes
God never made a more beautiful boy
He just grows lovelier to me
There's no one more lovely in all of the world
and he looks at me at times with such surprise
When he sees how special he is in my eyes

In my eyes
Sometimes he makes mistakes
But I'm aware of his faults
His moods go up & down
But that's just because
He's just a man
& giving his love only to me
Without his help, I would be less of a man
Than he thinks I am

In my eyes
Love never changes, all pretend
His mystery never ends
& everything I need as years go by
Makes his love grow sweeter still in my eyes
In my eyes

The Saturday Evening Post is published here
This is the nation’s 12th largest city with 1.6 million residents
The world's first transistor radio was made here
The average high temperature is 58 degree F. The average low temperature is 21 degree F.
Largest children's museum in the world is located here.
More than 65% of the nation's population lives within a day's drive of this city.

For the third time in their career, the Dixie Chicks roost on the top of The Billboard 200. The Columbia album "Taking the Long Way" tallied 526,000 copies in its first week of U.S. sales, according to Nielsen SoundScan, the trio's best-selling week since 2002's "Home" debuted with 780,000.

And while country radio has remained cool to the group in the wake of a 2003 boycott following comments group member Natalie Maines made about President Bush, "Taking the Long Way" also nabs the No. 1 spot on the Country Albums chart, bumping Rascal Flatts' "Me and My Gang" (Lyric Street/Hollywood) down to No. 2 after seven weeks at the top.

Billboard Story Here
May 31, 2006, 10:55 AM ET
Katie Hasty, N.Y.

Well can you say "How You Like Me Now" I find this whole Dixie Chick thing a little dumb if you ask me. I am a fan of them yes so I will defend them. I ask what am I defending? Are they not Americans? I think they have a right to speak their mind just as everyone else does and they did and people come down on them for it. Now that's bullshit. What they said wasn't that bad and now more than 50% of Americans agree with them. I know I sure do Bush sucks!

They are coming to Atlanta on October 17th Phillips Arena baby and we belong to the Ticket Master Club so mom got our tickets on the 23 of May. They went on sale to the public today so yeah we got great seats!

Later from Atlanta.

You know I didn't think blogging would come back and bite me in the ass not once but twice but now I think about it twice is not that bad. I look at what blogging has done for me. I met my wonderful boyfriend blogging made some great friends and the support I get from all of you just takes the two bad things and pushes them so far back in my mind I will soon forget they even happened.

I don't know if I say it enough but I want to take this post and make sure I say it. Thanks for all your support. I wish I could give you all a hug that has either left me a comment or sent an email. When my spirits were down you guys pick me up. You guys rock and I want you to know that. I will keep blogging as long as I have readers like you. I think the support we all give each other makes blogging fun and a great tool.

Thank You from Atlanta!!

I have been thinking it's time for me to go visit Ryan again. This crap with the stalker has got me worried about him and missing him more than usual. I wanted to go this Friday but I have relatives coming in and Ryan wouldn't hear of it. So the earliest I can go is the following Friday which is June 9th. So Im certainly gonna have something to look forward to for the 10 days.

Ok you will probably think Im a big baby or something when I tell you this but here goes. Some months back I was telling Ryan how much I missed him when were apart and how I loved the way he smelled all the time. So he has this special teddy bear that he has had for a while and he slept with every nite. He takes his favorite cologne, Abercrombie & Fitch's Ezra Fitch and sprays it all over the bear and sends it to me. I had asked him before what kind of cologne he used and he told me Ezra Fitch. The boys crazy spraying that all over the bear. The stuff cost like 79 dollars for a 3.5 oz bottle. I told him it was to expensive and he was wasting it.He said it was for me and it didn't matter how much it cost I was worth it. He also told me a story about when he was real little he had a bear. He wanted to name it Ryan same as him. But he couldn't say Ryan clearly so he named it Wyan. So that's my bears name Wyan and he sleeps with me everynite smelling just like my baby.

I thought we would take a couple pics we used before and play with them a bit to see what they look like. So I did a little fooling around with them. We hope you like. Instead of a cartoon or painting Im posting a pic of Wyan half nekkid which is the way he stays all the time. Yes he's just as cute as Ryan.