Ryan's Life

Another Tuesday not much going on I miss Mikey so much it hurts. I agree with our readers about Mikey's post and their comments. It's time to move on and put that dog to rest. We keep giving it legs by talking about it so from now on its in the past and will not be talked about by us again. This blog is open to all comments good or bad but understand this. We will answer back good or bad don't mean we don't like you or don't want your comments. We think a blog that is open to comments should take the good comments with the bad comments. So feel free to comment and say what's on your mind.

I want to thank you all for your comments and emails I got on Andy and I printed out all the emails and gave them to him. I just wanted to clear up something up. I do support the troops 100% I said I don't agree with why we are there but I do support our troops. As far as me joining up I said why should I support a country that don't support me. What I mean by that is I am gay and proud of that fact but my country treats me like I am a second class citizen. I don't have the same rights as straight Americans and most of my readers agree with me on that just go down a couple post and look. It was said I was using the Gay card and I was coward cause I didn't sign up and go to war.

I am an American even though I am treated like a second class citizen in my own country. I still believe we have a right to choose different things. So I choose not to fight in a war I don't think is right in the first place. Even if I could they wouldn't take me and it has nothing to do with being gay it has to do with health issues I have. So if having these health issues makes me a coward then I guess I am one.


Do any of you believe in Angels I do and I want one like this!



Later from Atlanta!

It's been a while since this topic was brought up. I thought it might be a dead issue but apparently it's not. This Ryan Mike and now even Ryans friend Andy is all the same person bullshit. One part of me tells me to let it go and whoever thinks what thats their right and let it roll off my back. Then the other part of me that gets pissed says hell no I can't. So one more time.

We owe no explainations to anyone but since you want to know Ill go into it again for about the fourth time. Im Mike in the profile pic thats me on the right. Im from a small town in West Virginia called Montgomery. Ryan's the cute one on the left in the pic. He's from Atlanta Georgia. Now about the same spelling errors or interpuncation as you called it. Hell I don't even know what interpuncation means but whatever. You may have noticed when Ryan comments he uses 2 for to and 4 for the word for u for you stuff like that. Well when he writes posts he sends them to me and tells me to fix the spelling errors. I don't spell any better but I do it cause I love him and end of story. So there's the big mystery behind the same spelling errors. As for Andy Ive never met the guy he's Ryan's neighbor so I don't know how he spells and frankly have more to do that sit and critique peoples grammer.

About seeing a pic of me and Ryan on here together that aint gonna happen. Ryan's posted pics before and they have been stolen by other people and used as their own so end of that idea. If you was to see a pic of us on here it would be holding a piece of paper saying Fuck You if you don't believe who we are move on to the next blog.

On to a sadder subject one of my states most famous people died the other day. Don Knotts who played deputy Barney Fife on The Andy Griffith Show. I mentioned before in a previous post this is my all time favorite show. I can remember watching the reruns from a very early age. It's about the only good time I ever remember with my father and that was because for 30 minutes he was quiet while the show was on. I also remember him later as Ralph Furley in the reruns of Three's Company. I loved him in that too. Ryan has all the Three's Company episodes on dvd and loved him in the series too.

Last night the people who live next door to us son came home from Iraq. I knew he was over there and I know him all though not that well but still know him the same. They had a party for him and they ask us to come over. My parents of course right away said they would be there. Me on the other hand I wasn't as sure about it as them. Now it's not for the reason you are thinking. Yes I have voiced my opinion on Bush and the war and I think both are wrong but after last night I think I need to make something very clear about how I stand on something else.

I did go over to the party and the reason at the time for me was for the free food. I could smell the grill from my bedroom window and this southern boy was never one to turn down some good ole southern barbeque. Anyway I was there and Andy that's the Solider's name hadn't come in yet and for the record I told him I was going to write about him on this blog and I did ask him if I could use his name. I was feeding my face with some ribs when he came in the door and I never seen a mother so happy. I think the woman almost fainted the tears of happy and joy she had made me tear up.

Andy is only a few years older than me and I played at his house a few times never was close friends but I knew him. He kinda did his own thing and I did mine. I did think about him being over there and would hope he would come back safe. He was injured while he was over there. He was shot a couple times and only has half feeling in one arm. Least he came back alive and that I think is wonderful. I finally got a little time alone with Andy. We went out back he wanted to get high. He asked me if I wanted to get high with him I told him naw but if you like it go right ahead.

As we sit there I ask him Andy what was it like over there? He said Ryan it was like being in hell. He said most of the people over there could give a shit care less about if you live or die. He said I have to walk around worried about getting shot, kidnapped or blown up by a car bomb. He said the worse part is we know the people back home don't care either and he said it's not there fault but they were lied to so much by their leader that they don't want us to be here in Iraq. He said most of the guys in his group didn't want to be there anymore that they felt they were lied to also and their fighting for something that wasn't right.

He said it hurt a lot of them knowing they didn't have the love or support of their Country. He said a lot of people bitch and complain but they had no right until they walk the streets of Baghdad. He said all he wished for and most Solider's was to have the people back home support them not the war but just support them. He said when guys come home and in the airport very few people come up and say good job or welcome home. He said it's not our fault we are there. Were just doing our job but yet people blame us. He said what happen to America they use to support their troops. He asked is there that much hate for Bush that it trickles down to us?

I said yes Andy I am afraid so. There is so much hate in this country right now that it's hard for anybody to love anything and yes it starts at the top. I told him I didn't want to make a gay issue out of things I said speaking for gay people it's hard for us to support the troops when our country don't support us. I told him in the American peoples eyes us gays are 2nd class citizens and if your gay and in the military omg thats a no-no. I told him the hate starts at the top and runs down hill and right now so many Americans are filled with hate that they don't know what to support.

He told me that he wished the American people would just get behind the troops and show them they love and that they care. He said it didn't matter what they think of Bush or if the war was right or wrong that we should just support our troops like they did back when Pearl Harbor was attacked. He said there is a song that they played all the time over there and it sums up the way most of the troops felt. He ask me to listen to it and I did. After hearing it I have a different look on things. I still don't like Bush and can't wait for the day he is out of office but I have a better outlook for our troops. He also gave me some pics to share with you all. Please leave a comment for Andy if nothing else say hi show him we care!

I want to say Thanks to all the American Troops for doing their job and for doing something I couldn't do. I am sending you some love and safe thoughts from Atlanta!

Didn't I
by Montgomery Gentry

Didn't I make you proud
Go and lay my life down
When you called my name
I thought I stood for something
Was doing the right thing when I went away
Now being back should be so simple
But I keep getting mixed signals from everyone
Why do people sit and judge me
Who I ain't seen what I seen or did what I've done

Didn't I burn,didn't I bleed enough for you
I faced your fears
Felt pain so you won't have to
Ya didn't I do my best
And wasn't home here when I left

I've seen boys fall to pieces
Grown men cry out for Jesus
Til there black and blue
I thought God was on your side
Weren't we suppose to be the good guys
That would never lose
Cause I don't see no ticker tape or five mile parades
Sayin "Thank You son"
Just folks that sit and judge me
Who ain't seen or did what I've done

Didn't I burn,didn't I bleed enough for you
I faced your fears
Felt the pain so you won't have to
Ya didn't I do my best
And wasn't home here when I left.

I been doing a lot of thinking the last 2 days. Well every since I left Ryan really. The whole drive back it's all I thought about. I have been seeing Ryan every couple months or so now and to be honest it's like torture leaving him. We talk on the phone all the time and do other stuff but it's not the same of course. I need some advice from all of you that read our blog. Im seriously considering moving down to Atlanta but I have questions in my mind. As you know Im from a very small town and moving to a giant city like Atlanta scares me to death. Another question in my mind is my mom. If you don't know I still live with her. I find it hard to leave her I take her every where from work to shopping doctors wherever she needs to go. I know she would tell me to go cause she wouldn't want to hold me back in any way but it's hard to just up and leave her all alone. Those are my 2 major questions. Any advice you have will be really appreciated.


Also wanted to talk about Dolly Parton who I have always loved. I found this article on the net and thought it was interesting. It's titled Dolly's Plea for Gay Tolerance. It's hard to believe she's 60 years old. She looks damn good for 60. She always tells it just like it is and is so down to earth. I reckon thats why I have always loved her. She's just a good ole country girl.

Well been a couple days since Mikey left and I got me some big blues going on. We are working on some things and if things go our way we will be in the same state soon. Not much else going on really school/work is going great. I am ready for baseball season to start won't be much longer now. I know my ass will be there opening day got to support my Braves! I thought I would be posting more on American Idol but haven't seen anything yet that has jumped out at me yet. I have been watching but nothing like last year but maybe something will make me get into it more soon!

Later from Atlanta.

Well I knew this day would come as much as I hated to admit it. I was hoping the weekend would never end but it did. Im up early getting ready to head for home unfortunately. Ryan and I got back to his house about 7 last nite. I think I mentioned it before when I visited Ryan but his house is beautiful. It looks just like a southern plantation house to me. He don't really like talking about it he just says its just a house but it's beautiful to me. To many rooms to count and more bathrooms than a hotel. His mom had dinner ready when we got back so that was sweet. His little brother and sister are the cutest little kids. Dads your typical dad I reckon he's kinda leery of me wondering what my intentions are with his boy. Hmm wouldn't he like to know. We ate dinner than visited with the family for a bit then headed upstairs for bed. I was planning on getting to sleep early cause I wanted to get started early this morning. But that boy I swear he's a little animal. Hell I lost track of how many times we did it. We never did get to sleep. I even tried to take a shower this morning and he was right in there with me. His mom's got breakfast almost ready so we need to go and eat and cry our eyes out before I leave. I hope she don't offer me any cream for my coffee. I all ready had mine this morning.

Here's some pics from around Atlanta. I hope yall enjoy them Ill have more later on.

I had the time on my life here Daytona. The best part was Mikey being here with me. I think I surprised him by getting us into the pits it's nice having friends in low places. To be honest a boy who's name I won't say I went to school with and he is a driver and he got us in and that Saturday night he let us stay in his RV so we didn't even have to leave the track. This is one of the best times I have ever had and I know it can only get better with Mikey by my side. We are leaving here about noon so I thought I would post before we go.

The race was awesome there is a lot I could talk about but I want to talk about only a few. The first is Brian my driver leading some of the race. How cool is that I thought he might have a chance he would have if he only would have taken some tires his last pit stop. When he was leading the race I got a hard on I know that's simple but when your into Nascar like I am and your driver is leading and might win the blood is pumping it pumps in all the right places.

I want to say how happy I am that Jimmie Johnson won he is a team mate of Brian's so I was happy he won. With all that happen to his team this week I am glad he won. If you don't follow Nascar his crew chief was tossed out of Daytona and will be suspended for a few races. They said he added something to the windows to make the car go faster. Now I don't know much about g-forces and all that but how much faster can a car go with something on the window. Anyway it wasn't allowed he was ask to leave and he did.

Now after the car passed by Nascar and Jimmie won some of the other cry baby drivers said he cheated to win the race. For those that don't know the car was looked at before the race and after by Nascar to make sure it was legal and it passed by Nascar. So to those cry baby drivers and the haters of team 48 and Jimmie Johnson what do you have to say now? Just cause he can still win without his crew chief you want to cry he cheated all because your car sucked. If you want to bitch and cry about something why not cry and bitch about Tony Stewart and his driving. He bitches all week that somebody was going to get killed. So Nascar was on everyone about aggressive driving and who did more of it than anyone else at the race? Oh that's right Stewart himself. What a cry baby bitch!

Thanks to all those that keep coming to our blog and thanks for bearing with us on this Nascar week posts we been doing. I can tell by the comments some of you are not into it. We will be getting back to regular posts when we get back to Atlanta. Leaving you with some more pics from Daytona. I think I might give Mikey another surprise on the way home!

Later from Daytona!

Just a quick post to let everyone know Ryan and I made it to Daytona. We started out early yesterday morning about 6 and got down there about 1 probably. Traffic wasn't that bad although the closer we got to Daytona the worse it got. I have kinda of a naught story to tell hope you don't mind. I got the first blowjob while I was driving that I ever had. Surprised the hell out of me. Ryan didn't say anything just all the sudden unzipped and started. Im surprised I didn't wreck. My babies good to he didn't even make a mess.OMG that boy is a handful. Anyway enough of that.

With Ryan's friend he knows we was able to get back to the garage area and we got some awesome pics. Im posting some at the end of this. Were getting ready now to go back out to the track and mess around maybe take some more pics to post later. Well Ryan's finally ready takes that boy forever. We probably wont post again till tomorrow maybe before the race if not then after.


Brian just after practice

Brian with some guy

Brian practicing his car

Kasey he's so cute but he needs a shave

Kasey and his car owner Ray Evernham looking at lap times

Kasey practicing

One of Ryan's boy's Reed Sorenson also a cutie

Budweiser Clydesdale horses. If you look close you can see Dale Earnhardt's Jr's car behind the first 2 horses. Ryan and I like the horses better than we do Jr.

Here it is Thursday again and we are going to try this once again. A couple of pics of us and then our cartoon. I am so happy Mikey surprised me and came in early and he is at my home sleeping right now. We were up a little late last night. I had to get up and work today but that's ok cause I know when I go home he will be there waiting on me. We will be getting up Friday and driving down to Daytona for race weekend. I feel sorry for the hotel room after we leave that will be another story.

Later from Atlanta

Just a quick post to spring my surprise on Ryan when he comes on to look at the blog. Im on my way to Atlanta babe so I should be getting there a day earlier than planned. I can't wait to get there a see your cute face and cover it in kisses. Well that ain't all I want to kiss but I wont get into that here. Ill see you this evening babe. I love you very much.

Sorry it took so long to finish this story. I want to say if you don't want to read beyond this point you should stop now cause I am going to get a bit nasty. I am not going to hold back anything about my first time with a boy. Like I said before I was 14 the first time I mean the first time I had full sex. I played with other boy's when I was younger but nothing like this. So now the rest of the story.

We were on my bed kissing and feeling each other up and I was about ready to lose my load and I told him this he told me not just yet he wanted me to enjoy this. So he started taking my shirt off and the only thing I was wearing down there was my speedo's. He was kissing my neck my lips my neck I was going crazy. He worked his way down to my chest and I could tell he had done this before. He kissed on my chest sucked on my nipples I swear I was going to blow right there. I told him not to touch my cock I didn't think I could hold it and he said well we don't want that now do we.

He said he was going to take my speedo's off I said ok. He slowly took them off said he dreamed about this moment forever. He told me when he pulled them off he said I knew it I said what he said oh nothing I just knew it. I told him I couldn't hold back to much longer he said well I hope your up to doing it more than once. I said I was up to doing it all night. He was feeling my cock and then he started licking my head and I about passed out. He then took it in his mouth and went up and down a few times I told him I was cumming he didn't even take his mouth off it and I did cum and I almost passed out.

I have to tell you when I get to excited I do pass out. I have done it since I was little. Now sometime when I climax I still pass out I have freaked a few guys out doing that. Anyway back to the story after I cummed I told him I wanted to do him he said ok but he wanted to try other things I said ok. So I took his shorts off and I went to town I wasn't as sexy to him as he was to me I went right for the cock. It was a little funny at first I try to take to much in and gagged on it a few times he told me to slow down get use to it. I said ok and when I did it was like I been doing it all my life.

I got him close and he said he was about to cum I said go ahead he said Ryan you better not in your mouth I said why not you did. He said this is your first time right. I said yeah he said you need to ease into things like that he said I'll cum on my tummy and you can try it he said you need to ease into things. I said ok I wasn't happy but I agreed. So I got him close again and he said stop and he finish jacking himself off and cummed all over his tummy. After he said ok you want to taste it use your finger and try so I did. I thought this wasn't bad so I licked some up and it was different than the little I had on my finger.

Later he ask me if he could stay the night I said oh yes I want to do it again he said me too. So that night he said you think we could bath together I said sure my parents are going out I said sure we could. So bath time came we ran some hot water and got in he ask me if I thought I was a top or bottom. I had to ask him what did he mean and he told me. I said I don't know he said would I like to try being a bottom I said you want to put your cock in me he said yes I said ok. We got out of the bath and went to my room he ask me if there was any lube in the house. I ask him what was lube he told me I said I don't know maybe in my Mom's room. We went and look and there was nothing.

He ask me if we have any vaseline I said yeah we have some of that he said we will use that. We went back to my room and started make out again and he got some vaseline on his fingers and put his finger between my legs. I thought it was strange but it felt good and he stuck his finger in my butt and it felt good. He did that for a while and ask me if I was ready I said sure I'll try he said it's gonna hurt at first but it will get better I thought oh my it's gonna hurt. So he told me to get on my knees and we would try it doggie style first I said ok.

He got behind me and was rubbing his cock between my butt checks and stopping at my hole and he said ok Ryan I am going to stick it in I said ok. He started pushing and oh my it did hurt. He went slow and got it in and said lets just wait and you will get use to it. We waited for a few and he started moving and it still hurt but apart of me like the feeling also he ask me if I was ok and I said yes. He started going faster and I got hard as a rock the faster he pushed the better it felt I thought I was going to cum. He was going faster and faster and next thing I knew I did cum all over my bed.

About the same time he did also and we just fell on top each other he said did you like it? I said oh yes I like it a lot. We did it 3 more time that night and for about 2 weeks after that. I got really good at being a bottom. I guess if you were all wondering yes I am a bottom boy. I wish things would have worked out with the boy but it didn't not his fault or my fault. His parents found out what we were doing and shipped him away to get help for being gay. I never seen him again and often think about him a lot. Last time I heard anything about him he was in college doing real good and still is gay. I think about him a lot cause he was my first time and he was very sweet and easy with me.

I know he don't read this bet he don't even think about me but I would like to say thank you for teaching me a lot of things being gentle with me and I am glad you were my first.

Remember peeps this is a short story of a wonderful night of my first time so a lot of the small details I left out I didn't want to make this to long and lose you while you were reading.

Happy thoughts in Atlanta.

Here it is the start of another week. The only thing good about this week starting is gonna be the end of it. Ryan and his cute little mouth let some news slip that I was gonna share with you all. Im going to see him this weekend and then were going on to the Daytona 500. It's been awhile since I been with him so you can imagine how excited I am to be going. I still have a little surprise that even he don't know about. But Im not gonna say anything just yet maybe later or tommorow. He'll be surprised and love it I hope. This is not the big news I mentioned in an earlier post that is still in the works. When I work it out be sure Ill post about it.

Didn't really do much over the weekend. It snowed over the weekend so I stayed in. I got a couple pics Ill post of the snow. Oh yeah I did talk to Ryan both days so that was fun. Ok we did more than talk alright but you don't want to hear about that. The race I was gonna watch was delayed till Sunday because of rain. Both of our boys didn't even finish the race which sucks but maybe they'll do good Sunday in the 500. That's about it for now I may post later today about my surprise if not then I will tommorow for sure.

When I'm not feeling well my Mikey always can put a smile on my face. Today is no different he got some snow where he lives and he took me a picture isn't he the sweetest guy ever!



Next weekend he will be here in my arms as we make are way to the Daytona 500 I can't wait this is going to be the longest week ever. I'm sorry for not getting the rest of the boy story up I will this week I promise right now I just want to lay back down.

Later from a chilly Atlanta.

That's right its that time of year again. Nascar season has rolled around. The first race is tonight and although it's not for points or anything it's a Nascar race and that's all that matters. I wanted to talk about my favorite driver Kasey Kahne. He's starting 5th in tonights race so thats a good spot to be. He won his first race last year and was in the running to win a couple more. He also had to many races where he was wrecked and didn't get to finish. Even if you don't win the races it's important to finish as high as you can cause points are awarded depending on what place you finish in. At the end of the year the points leader is declared the champion. So if he can win a few races and get some top 5 and 10 finishes and cut down on his DNF'S he could be in the running for the championship at the end of the year. Of course he's cute as hell and I got pics of him Im gonna post. Look at his eyes when you check the pics out. I also got pics of some Kasey stuff my sweetie Ryan sent me Im gonna post. Ryan's got his favorite driver Brian Vickers who is also a cutie. He's gonna be talking about him in the next day or two.

I want to talk about something most guys don't talk about. Masturbation, jacking off, spanking the monkey what ever you call it. People that know me know I am a very sexual person I love sex and can't get enough. When I am alone I jack off a lot. I like jacking off I think I am very good at it. I think gay guys talk about it more than straight guys. Straight guys act like it's a sin or something but they do it as much as gay guys just don't talk about it.

I can remember back when I was like 5 or 6 playing with myself and it felt good. Of course I never stopped and do it much better now then back then. I bet I jack off at least once a day sometimes more. Some people say all kinds of stuff to get kids not to do it but it is healthy. I will have a link at the end of this post for those who want to see what the doctors say about it. When I was growing up my parents caught me a few times then my Dad talk to me about it and told me it was ok it was mine there was nothing wrong with what I was doing.

I think my parents are more open about sex then other parents. I mean hell they let my boyfriend stay the night here and they know we get it on. Back to jacking off like I said I do it daily and love it and I am not scared to talk about it. I use to have a couple friends growing up that we had circle jerks together I thought that was so cool. I will even drop this bomb and you will really think I am a pervert. I have jerked off to porn with my younger Brother. That's right I did and more than once so make fun of me I don't care.

Me and Mikey can't be together as much as we want so we have what they call phone sex and I have to say I drive him crazy when we do. I so get into jacking and toys it just drives him nuts. I don't understand why guys can't just be honest and say hell yes I jack off and I love it. They just can't it's just something not talked about like it's dirty. So I am going to be honest and just say it I masturbate I think I am damn good at it makes me feel really good when I reach climax. Now be honest with me you know you want to watch me. Just Kidding!

WebMD on Masturbation
TeenPuberty.com on anal stimulation



Jacking in Atlanta

Here it Thursday again and we are going to try our HNT. We are doing a mix of us and the cartoon also hope you like both. I just want to thank you all that sent me an email and left comments on here when I was feeling down. It's funny how a few kinds words from you all picks me right back up. Thanks! Also I want to send a special shout out to James stop by his blog and show him some love. If you all have us linked and we don't you please let us know and we will get your link up.

Happy Thursday! Later from Atlanta.

This has been a crazy week like a roller coast ride. I started out the week just fine and in a happy mood then yesterday I got hit with a brick or something. I don't know I'll move past it and work on the happy things that are ahead of me. I have been having troubles this week with my blood sugar I think it's on the same roller coast ride I can't get it under control. My ears some way I can't stand to have my hearing aids in but can't stand not having them in cause I cant hear. My ears have been itching so much it's drive me crazy.

I know a few of you have ask me to finish my story on the first time with a boy. I will try to get it before the weekend is over. I want to finish it cause I was so in love with the boy and him being my first real boyfriend he taught me so much and the way he held me was really great. So I will get to that before the weekend is over I hope. Mikey will be having some big news soon and I already know but I am going to let him tell it as soon as he gets all the details worked out.


Is anybody into the Winter Olympics Games? I sure am I love them as much as the Summer Games. I will do a little posting on them as I can. What did you all think of the Super Bowl? I thought it sucked and had some bad calls. Next week me and Mikey will have our first of many Nascar reports. I know what your thinking oh great a couple gay redneck boys talking about Nascar who would have guessed. That's right folks we are into Nascar big time so be looking next week for our first Nascar report. I want to say Hi to all the new readers and the few that has left a comment or two. Please feel free to leave a comment if you like what we do let us know hell even if you don't like it let us know that also.!

One other thing I heard this in a song today and thought wow what a good verse. I think me and Mikey feel this way about each other. Mikey I Lost It.

No one can make me cry
Make me laugh
Make me smile
Or drive me mad like he does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse, one thing's for sure
It's real love and I don't know what I'd do
If I lost it

Oh, if I lost it
I don't wanna lose it

Seems when I take 1 step forward I get knock 3 steps back. Not much really more to say I'm feeling the damn depression coming on again.

Later From Atlanta.

Ok this pisses me off. It's bad enough Fred Phelps and his nutty religous group are blaming hurricanes and other natural disasters on gay people. Now I see he has blamed the recent mine disasters at Sago mine and the 2 others on gay people and its God's way of punishing America. He even sent protesters to the funerals of the 12 miners. I didn't see it covered in the local news but I hope they got the shit kicked out of them by some good ole UMWA boys. West Virginia also had a soldier die in Iraq recently and they were at his funeral protesting. How sick and low do you have to be to protest at a funeral when the family members are grieving over their loved ones. My state and several others are attempting to pass a law that would keep protesters at least 300 feet from a funeral service. It's old news but here are a couple links if you would like to read more about it.

Kansas Group To Picket Memorial Service

States Rush To Stop Pickets

Clay unwrapped
http://www.expressgaynews.com/2006/2-3/arts/dishandgossip/clay.cfm

Back in Dish’s New Year’s prediction, she channeled the spirit of Fifi, Drag Queen of Heaven, who said that CLAY AIKEN would finally come out of the closet and the Washington Blade would never write about him again. Well, dear readers, Fifi’s predictions might just be coming true.

A supposed former hot trick of Aiken’s decided to cough up some information about their man-on-man tryst, according to the New York Post’s Page Six, the New York Daily News and the ever-reliable National Enquirer. Dish’s momma said two wrongs don’t make a right, but maybe three tabloids make a reliable source.

John Paulus, a hunky former Green Beret, claims to have met Aiken online.

"I have several personal ads on gay [male] websites," Paulus told the Enquirer. "Clay later told me he saw my pictures on a couple and decided to e-mail me. On Dec. 16, using the screen name of ‘valleyprettyboy,’ Clay sent me his first message."

Dish has never understood the fascination with the pasty-faced, swizzle-stick thin Aiken, and his online haughtiness just amps up her annoyance.

"He told me that he was single again, having broken up with his boyfriend about five months ago," said Paulus. Could this be the hair stylist that Aiken was rumored to have held hands with on an airplane trip this past fall?

Paulus claims they met in a hotel and performed their own 90-minute version of "Bareback Mountain," including unprotected anal intercourse, as Dish’s doctor would call it.

Since Paulus revealed his identity, he’s been receiving death threats from rabid Aiken fans who call themselves "Claymates" and want to protect their idol’s good name. Perhaps they should be offering Aiken some condom demonstrations instead.

There are a lot of things going on in our blog very soon you will be seeing a lot of changes. We were asked to be apart of something real big and right now that is all I can say about it. We have a friend that has lots of money and is backing us and some of the things that we will be doing. We have ads out on other blogs I can talk about that. Also it's time to but things in the past and move on. I am very bad at holding onto things when I felt I was done wrong. I also am man enough to admit when all the facts didn't come out until later that I held things against people that I shouldn't have.

I wish I could go into more details than that but for now I can't and will leave it at that. I am writing this post for me and Mikey more than anything else. I think once I am able to talk about the things we are doing you all in blog land will be happy. We have an ad out on a blog that in the past we had problems with. Now we decided long ago to de-link people that supported another blog and at the time we thought it was the right thing for us to do. Some new facts have come up along with a backer with money in the bank that talked to us and told us it's time to let things go. We agree and so we did.

Saying that I want to welcome an old blogger back to our blog, he is linked on the sidebar. Welcome back Scotty! Thank for putting our ad on your blog. Now before I can forgive everyone for the things in the past I need to talk to Mikey and our money man. As it stands right now it will be hard to forgive everyone but a simple email or and comment might help. If not that's ok also I won't lose any sleep over it and will let them be. Life is to short for all the drama like the hate comments we been getting just because were gay. I will say this we will not block any comments from coming through good or bad we are man enough to take it. If they get to be threating then I will have my Dad deal with it.

As soon as I find out where our other ads are at I will be giving them a shout out and linking them also. That's about it for this Super Sunday I am getting ready to watch the game and this Atlanta Boy is pulling for Seattle to win it!

Later from Atlanta.

Since Ryan did his 10 on 3 I was thinking I might as well do mine. It will let people know a little bit more about me. What I like and don't,what makes me happy and sad stuff like that. Some of my answers may seem strange to you but there honest.

One more thing I got a BIG secret Im just bustin to tell everybody. Im sorta superstitious so I don't want to say to much about it just yet. If it happens though your gonna be looking at one happy hillbilly. I hope I can say more about it soon cause I can't keep a secret for long.

1. Name 3 great women singers.
1. Martina McBride
2. Patty Loveless
3. Allison Krauss

2. Name 3 great men singers.
1. George Jones
2. Vern Gosdin
3. Vince Gill

3. Name 3 TV shows you watch.
1. Andy Griffith Show (I know it's old but still my all time fave)
2. Seinfeld
3. Cops (I look for long lost kin people on there)

4. Name your 3 favorite movies.
1. To Kill A Mockingbird
2. The Wizard Of Oz
3. Cool Hand Luke

5. Name 3 books you like.
1. I Lived To Tell It All
2. The Boy In The Book
3. Shield Of Justice

6. Name 3 things you don't like about yourself.
1. Im shy
2. my weight
3. I don't express my feelings very well

7. Name 3 things you like about yourself.
1. Id like to think Im a good friend
2. Im uncut (ok maybe tmi but I do like it)
3. the way I get along with other people

8. Name any 3 things that make you happy.
1. Ryan
2. The way my cock feels in Ryan's tight ass
3. did I mention Ryan yet

9. Name any 3 things that make you sad.
1. my childhood
2. people being mean to animals
3. thinking about my brother dying (kinda goes with the first answer but it's different to me)

10. Name 3 people alive or dead that you think are important to America.
1. Ryan
2. Davy Crockett
3. Daniel Boone

Shit Like this pisses me right off. When are we going to be free to live like all other Americans? I know we have come a long way but we are still far behind. I ask when will the hate stop and we as gay people can live like true Americans and not 2nd class citizens. My Heart Hurts for America.
Later from Atlanta.

Police: Man Attacks Gay Bar's Patrons With Hatchet, Gun
Before Attack Man Asked Bartender If It Was Gay Bar

UPDATED: 11:23 am EST February 2, 2006

NEW BEDFORD, Mass. -- Police in Massachusetts are investigating a shooting at a gay bar as a hate crime.

Authorities in New Bedford, about 50 miles south of Boston, said a man walked into the bar around midnight, attacked several patrons with a hatchet and then opened fire with a handgun. There were about 18 patrons in the establishment at the time.

Police said an armed man walked into the lounge, ordered a drink, and asked if it was a gay bar. He then attacked several men who were playing pool in the back, swinging at them with a hatchet before eventually firing a gun and fleeing. He is still at large. The lounge bartender said the man wore a hood over his face.
WCVB-TV in Boston reported that at least three people were injured, and one of them suffered serious injuries.


Police are still searching for the suspect, who they identified as Jacob D. Robida, 18, of New Bedford.

Puzzles Lounge is popular with the local gay community and is listed on several Web sites offering resources to gays and lesbians. The bar is connected to a small multi-family home.

Police were investigating reports that the attack was a hate crime.

"Three people total shot. Two of them were attacked with a hatchet as well. If it was up to me to determine what his motive was, it was a hate crime because his intentions were to confirm that it was a gay bar. Never spoke to anybody in there, he's never been in the bar before. And five minutes afterward, he starts attacking everybody," said the bartender, who asked to be identified only as Philip.

Robida was described as a short, stocky white man with dark hair. He was last seen driving a green 1999 Pontiac Grand Am and is considered armed and dangerous,

Two of the wounded men were taken to Boston hospitals. A third man was treated at St. Luke's Hospital in New Bedford. There was no word on their conditions.
Distributed by Internet Broadcasting Systems, Inc. The Associated Press contributed to this report. All rights reserved.

For the last few Thursdays I have been doing HHT pics Ryan Style as I like to call it. Thanks for all the comments we have been getting on them but me and Mikey been talking and we are thinking about maybe getting back into doing some real HNT pics of us again. I guess what I am asking is would you all like to see more HNT pics of us or is the hot cartoons better? Maybe a mixed like one week us and the next cartoon. Let us know what you think and we will try it.

Happy Thursday Later From Atlanta!