It's been a good week I guess even though I miss Mikey and he only been gone a few days. I been having problems going on with my ears again the hurt and r driving me crazy. For those that don't know I don't have total hearing and I am what they consider deaf I can hear some things but I need hearing aids to hear people talk. So later today I am off to the doctor find out what's going on. Oh when I talk 2 some of you on the phone u always crack me up when u say I like your southern draw. I like to say I speak Southern English and speak it proud!
I want to follow up a little on the Lance Bass coming out see a couple post below this one. I think people are missing the point. Has anybody stop to think the hell he lived having to live a lie. I have read the People's Mag that's coming out today. He had to lie to his family and his band mates he couldn't be honest with himself that had to be hard. I am so glad I have the Mom I do so I didn't have to live a lie. I say good for you Lance for finally standing up and sayin no more! You know you will have all the support you will ever need.
Bass said the reason he wanted to come out in public now is that rumors "really were starting to affect my daily life. Now it feels like it's on my terms." He said that in the magazine think about what he said when the people of America stop treating other Americas like second class citizens then we won't have to worry about who's coming out and who's not. I think Bass coming out is a good thing gives us young people a role model now he needs to rethink and use his celebrity for the cause.
Lance's Boyfriend!
Last thing is the stalker he was track down and talked 2 of course he lied at first but when they showed him the proof and threaten 2 take his puter and arrest him he admitted 2 it. Funny thing he told my Dad he had so much hate 4 me and didn't know why. He was given a restraining order to keep away from me wow 2 stalkers in 1 year I feel special! I bet he is reading this right now for now I am not gonna say who it is I am not sure I can. All I know is Dad told me 2 be careful on what I say about him coz I could get backlash. I will say this if you want 2 know and I think I can trust ya send me an email and I will let u know! No harm in that I reckon.
Later from Atlanta!
All of my vacation I spent with Ryan was the best time of my life. The 3 days we spent camping was awesome. It was to funny watching Ryan out in the woods running around the campfire and swimming in the creek naked. Showing him around town the local hangouts and where I went to school, he loved seeing it all. When we wasn’t camping we stayed in the hotel for the most part. There’s not really all that much to see in Charleston but there was plenty to do in the room.
I did go back to Atlanta with Ryan and spent the weekend. That was really fun hanging out with his family. Ryan his little brother and me rode his dirtbikes a couple times which I love doing. They had a big cookout Sunday which I really enjoyed. There was enough food for a army, I can’t remember ever eating so much. The wieners were smaller than Ive gotten use to though and not as juicy but I did leave room for a bigger one later that nite. I also had my first airplane ride which was a piece of cake. I don’t know what I was worried about but I was up all nite worrying about it. It seemed like it lasted no time and we was landing in Charleston. I got back from my vacation and went to work to find out my shift had been changed. I was working midnite shift but now Ive been switched to mornings. I don’t mind though staying up all nite was getting old. It’ll be nice to go to bed and sleep like a normal person.
HNT this week is a little game we wanted to play. Its called Guess The Pubes. The idea is to guess whos pubes and belly belong to who. Two of them are me and Ryan and one is a mystery guest we have used several times in the past.Heres a little clue about the mystery guest. He comments on most of your blogs and is real good with his hands. Can you guess which pic belongs to who?
Anybody surprised with this bit of news? I think not we all knew it. I am just glad he finally came out we need more like him to be honest about who they are it might help 2 stop the hate. Then again I bet it wont oh well Welcome Lance out of the closet! Tune in tomorrow 4 hnt and Friday I have some news on the emails the poilce have talked 2 someone say look 4 that.
Later from Atlanta! 'N Sync's Lance Bass Reveals He's Gay
Singer Kept Sexuality Secret To Protect Band's Success 
POSTED: 11:01 am EDT July 26, 2006Former 'N Sync member Lance Bass has revealed that he's gay.
Bass told People magazine that he kept his sexuality under wraps during his 'N Sync days because he was afraid it would derail the band's success.
He said he knew that if he "ever acted on it" or admitted it, then "it would overpower everything."
Bass said that he's coming out now because rumors of his sexuality were growing louder. But he stressed that he's happy and not at all ashamed of being gay.
"I don't think it's wrong, I'm not devastated going through this," Bass said. "I'm more liberated and happy than I've been my whole life."
Bass said he's in a "very stable" relationship with model-actor and "Amazing Race" winner Reichen Lehmkuhl.
This is Reichen Lehmkuhl for those who don't know.
People Mag where he came out!Copyright 2006 by
The Associated Press. All rights reserved.
How does one tell when hate on the net goes past a comment here and there? Well my Dad knows. I thought of not bringing this up and let it go but the more I see the emails the more mad and upset I become so I found the best way 2 handle things is talk 2 ya'll about it. While I had a blast last week with Mikey and all I got a few emails that I think went beyond a nasty comment on a blog. Oh for the record just case some of u wanted 2 know when u have a blog its public and when you open it up 2 public comments u must take the good with the bad just like people in the public eye so despite what people think coz my Dad works 4 the government its hard 2 prove hate or stalkin when u have a blog.
Now back to the emails I got. This is a whole different ball game and yes I have already gave them to my Dad. These emails come from 3 different people or 1 person acting like three I'm not sure yet. Now with these emails he went beyond blog hate to personal hate that's what my Dad said. Reason I bring this up is there is no secret there are a few bloggers out there that I dislike hell even hate but they earn it and I'm not bringin up old shit just they coz me a lot of heartache and tears so there for they earn the hate they get from me. Again the reason I bring this up was they were spoke of in the email. I don't think they sent it I think I know who it was but right now I am not going 2 say.
Another reason I am speakin about this so ya'll know what's going on incase something happens. Some of the things this person claim he was gonna do scared me and I think the more people know the more scared he will b 2 really try somethin. Course I bet it was all words and he would never come from behind his puter but u never know. These people have tried 4 over 2 years now 2 prove that I am not real and I am still here Mikey is still here and we r not going anywhere so now u have 2 send emails that threaten 2 out us or the last email how u put it "I will put a sniper bullet in your head" very clever and my Dad is on it and he will take your ass down! So I say bring it on you bitches!!!!!!!
Locked & Loaded in Atlanta!
The last week of my life has been 1 of the best! I have travel a lot in my short life my grandparents live in England as most of u know and we go over every year but this past week going 2 Mikey's state and seeing where he come from was the best. I did get home sick a little I think I was missing my Mom more than anything. Mikey did his best 2 make me happt but I told him I missed my Mom. I know I sound like a big baby but I can't help me and my Mom have always been close. Hell she called me everyday I was gone and when we got home she was waiting with open arms and it felt so good.
We didn't do anything this weekend just stayed at my house but if felt good being with my Mom and havin Mikey there. I told him I so much want him 2 move here with me and I think after this past week he is ready 2 be with me full time also. I also know it's gonna b hard on him moving away from his family and the life he knows. I am willing 2 wait 4 as long as it takes 4 us 2 b together full time. We had a long talk about it and we understand each other feelings. I know 1 day we will b together as 1 and what a happy day that will b.
Thanx 2 everyone 4 being there on vacation with me the comments the emails ya'll sent also help and made it 1 great week 4 me. Well this is Mikey's last night here so I gonna go and enjoy him! Thanx again u guys r the greatest people and I couldn't ask 4 better friends 2 blog with!
Later from Atlanta!
I don't know when Ive had a better week than the one I just spent with Ryan. He got to meet my mom. She thinks he's a new friend of mine that I go fishing with a lot. She did whisper to me once he's a good looking guy aint he. I just said I guess he is. Camping was awesome we both had a great time. We originally was gonna just take a tent but got to thinking how hard the ground would be. Nothing worse than a rock poking you in the ass when your sleeping. I got poked in the ass by something hard but it wasn't a rock. So I borrowed my uncles pop up camper. It had a nice soft bed in it just right for sleeping or whatever else 2 horny guys want to do on it.
Ryan had a ball in the woods. We was off by ourselves not anyone around for miles. He got to run around naked a little bit and swim nude in the creek so he was in heaven. We got back to the hotel yesterday and showered and got all good and clean. Ryans heading back to Atlanta this morning and I surprised him by telling him Im going with him. I still got the weekend of my vacation left. So Im gonna stay till Monday then he's buying me a plane ticket back home. Which should be interesting cause Ive never flown before. Well he's planning on being on the road by 8 so I got to go wake him up in my own special way which he just loves:)
I am havin such a blast here on Brokeback Mountain West Virginia style with my man Mikey. Campin, swimmin and running around nude in nature what else could a person ask for? I did learn something about Mikey I never knew until now. We made a campfire and were sitting there he said I want to play u a song I knew he could sing out I didn't know he played a guitar but I do know and he played and sang me this song and made me cry. I could see us living up here like this and I would be happy never thought I would want to live out of the city but after being here with him like this I could live here on brokeback with Mikey!
Here is what Mikey sang 2 me! He told me who sang it I never heard it before and now I don't want 2 so I can always think Mikey sang it and it was 4 me only!
Life may not always go your way
And every once in awhile you might have a bad day
But I promise you now you won't ever be lonely
The sky turns dark and everything goes wrong
Run to me and I'll leave the light on
And I promise you now you won't ever be lonely
For as long as I live
There will always be a place you belong
Here beside me
Heart and soul baby -- you only
And I promise you now you won't ever be lonely
It's still gonna snow and it's still gonna rain
The wind's gonna blow on a cold winter day
And I promise you now you won't ever be lonely
You're safe from the world wrapped in my arms
And I'll never let go
Baby, here's where it starts
And I promise you now you won't ever be lonely
Here's a shoulder you can cry on
And a love you can rely on
For as long as I live
There will always be a place you belong
Here beside me
Heart and soul baby -- you only
And I promise you now you won't ever be lonely
No, no, you won't ever be lonely
Andy Griggs
Later from the Mountains of West Virginia! 
Ok I am having a blast up here with these hillbillys (haha) Only a few people will understand why I said that. This is gonna b a short post also coz were going up in the mountains to do some campin that's right brokeback style. Sleepin in a tent and bathin in a creek now who would ever think I could do that. Hey I like camping just never done it rough style. It will b fine coz Mikey will b there 2 protect me! I will have pics from the trip in the mountains to share with ya'll.
I want 2 say thanx again 4 the birthday wishes made me feel really good and the emails and ecards u guys are awesome! Lets c oh nascar yesterday my friend that I went 2 school with lead some laps and had a chance 2 win the race until they went pass the alloted time 4 the race. Unless u watch nascar u wouldn't get it but they have to try 1 time 2 have a green white checker finish so the fans get a cool ending well there was a late wreck and that sent them into overtime so 2 speak and my friend ran out of gas ended 18th I think it was. I was so pullin 4 him coz I went 2 school with him and we became friends after we got out of school. Well I have bored u enough with nascar talk.
Here r a few pics and I'll have more later this week.
Just drivin thru town!
Mikey stop here and got me some roses awww!!!!!!
Some things in town.
Ok this is Mikey's house now does it look bad? I don't think so now tell him he had nothing 2 worry about did he?
Later from Montgomery!
I wanted to post real quick before Ryan came on and checks.
Today is the hottest boy in the world birthday!
Take a second and wish him a Happy Birthday!
On a personal note Thank You Ryan for a great night I Love You Babe!
Ryan wanted me to get on his laptop and post real quick to let everyone know that he made it to Charleston safe and sound. He couldn't believe we didn't have a Hilton hotel in the city. He's got them on his mind cause he said in the post earlier thats where hes staying. The best we have is Embassy Suites so his spoiled little ass will have to make do with that. I told him Im gonna have to keep my eye on him while he's here cause they've not seen anyone like him before around here. I already noticed people in the hotel lobby staring at him guys and girls. I asked him if he seen people staring at him. He said yeah whats wrong. I told him they never seen anyone as hot as you before around here. He said whatever and told me to shud up. I made sure to keep hold of his hand just to make sure they knew he was all mine.
I reckon we'll wait till tommorow to go visit the town where I live. It's been pouring down the rain all day so we'll wait till in the morning hopefully the sun will be shining. Im sure we can find stuff to do in the room till then. Ryan's showering now and he promised I could help so I got to go. Im sure he'll be posting and have some pics of my town and around the area.
In a few hours Ryan will be on his way here and I am scared to death. I know what he said about my back ground and the house I live in but I worry about it. I am happy to see him and show him around but a part of me is worried when he see's all these things he will have second thoughts. I guess I shouldn't be worrying but it's just me. So if you see a black Trans Am with a hot boy in it heading out of Atlanta to West Virginia that would be Ryan. Honk your horn and wave at him.
We decided to do a blast from the past for HNT. We are going to talk about the HNT thing again when he gets here and if we start it up again every week we will get some new pics. Hope you enjoy these even though you seen them before.
1 more day and I'll be heading up 2 c Mikey. I just talk 2 him and he is a wreck bout me comin. I wish he wouldn't worry about I don't know how many times I told him I don't care bout money and houses and stuff I care about him. I am gonna b stayin at the Hilton Hotel in Charleston Mikey is gonna come over and stay there with me. I know we will b spendin a lot of time in the room but I told him I want 2 get out and c things 2. I will also b takin some pics of that area and sharing with ya'll so stay tuned 4 that.
I know we haven't been posting everyday like we use 2 well we decide to back off a bit 4 summer. We might pick back up in the fall or winter but with all that happen we just decided 2 back away a little but not go away. Hope ya'll don't mind and thanx 4 stickin with us thru all the hell again once a year seems like it comes around. Old news so let's leave it in the past. I do know 1 thing ya'll our the best support group any person could ask 4. I don't how many times I have said it but let me say it again thanx a million!
That's bout it 4 now I need 2 start my packing 4 me week with Mikey.
Later from Atlanta!
I am finally back home from a vacation at the beach with the family. Best time 4 me of course was when Mikey came down. I am leaving this Thursday going up 2 see him. I can't wait 2 c where he grew. I knew this is big deal 4 him he scared 2 death about it. I told him it was ok I didn't care bout what his family has or don't have what I care bout is him. I just want 2 c where he calls home and where a cute little Mikey grew up at.
Sorry 4 not posting 2 much while I was on vacation I just wasn't in the mood and really wanted a break from it. I will do some catching up on ya'lls blog this week I am working now so I have time one good thing working 4 your Mom I can blog at work. I had a good time really last week at the beach just hanging with Mikey when he was there and then just hanging with my family we didn't do much but what we did do we went as a family and it was cool.
I seen lots of stuff going on in the news and it's driving me crazy and I try not 2 write about it on here coz I know ya'll c it 2 but sometimes I have 2. Just so u know I will try not 2 do that coz this is not CNN. Also I am thinkin bout doing HNT this week not sure yet but been getting a few emails form some of u say u miss us doing that. I know that's what put a hole in r ship b4 but like 1 email said if we stop doing hnt also then they win maybe he's right I am not sure so u will have 2 look in Thursday!
Later from Atlanta!
I am thinkin this guy is nuts.
I try not 2 talk about political crap 2 much on this blog I do read a lot I like 2 keep up to date on the goings on around the world as well as my own back yard. I know ya'll heard about this guy testing missiles. I wonder why is he doing this for? I think he is trying 2 start something I personally think he wants a war he has what the 3rd largest army in the world and I think he wants 2 test them out. I sure hope I am wrong last thing I want 2 c is a war that could turn into a world war 3. I just thinking out loud what do ya'll think?
Later Tybee Island!
Mikey just left a little while ago going home I already miss him. We r stayin at the beach until Sunday. I had a blast while he was here we got a lot of things worked out and he will b moving soon down here with me. I am going up 2 his place soon 2 see where he comes from. All I know is Mikey is my soulmate and I hear people all the time say your 2 young 2 have found you soulmate well I say bullshit I have dated a few guys and I idn't feel like I feel when me and Mikey r together. He brought me a something when he came took me by surprise I'll share it with u at the end of this post also some dolpins we seen over the weekend.
I hope ya'll had a great 4th holiday sorry 4 not bloggin like we were. We have talked about it and all the drama that happen. It's behind me know and they got 2 me again but with ya'll and Mikey's support I got over it and will take your advice and just look pass these asswholes that try 2 get under my skin enough on that old news leave it in the pass. Did any of ya'll get out 2 see the firework shows in your town? I will b visiting blogs today so hope I can catch up from the weekend break. I have tons of questions and all kinds of posts in head and wrote down in a tablet but kinda scared just 2 go back 2 posting like before maybe in time. Guess that's it 4 now I want 2 blog surf a bit and then go lay out it's so nice here about 85 and sunny. Sorry if the typing sucks but i decided from now 2 type like I do and not send in 4 Mikey 2 fix.
Later from Tybee Island!
What could this mean? Just maybe ya'll have to wait to find out!
Sorry for not posting but I made it to Ryan's beach house with his family ok. Im staying till Wednesday. We been having a blast but haven't seen much of the family. Yes Ive had plenty of cantaloupe if you were wondering and hotdogs too. We have been making our own fireworks. More details on my trip later. Me and Ryan want to wish everyone a happy 4th of July.
