Ryan's Life

As if I don't have enough to worry about now Im hearing Ryan's running around eating what he wants,not taking his insulin. His mom called me cause she knew I would get on him to take better care of himself. I tried to explain to him it's the doctors job to get on you if your not taking care of yourself. He's not your friend there to kiss your ass and tell you what you want to hear. I told him thats my job well at least the ass kissing is:)I told him he better start doing what the doctors say or next time I visit were staying in separate rooms. He got the meaning of that and promised to start doing better. We'll see if I get anymore calls from mom now about him and his health.

I also wanted to ask everybody if their having any problems with the pics loading on our blog. Someone mentioned they didn't work for them so I was just curious. Neither me or Ryan have any problems with the blog but we would like to know if others do,so if you do let us know please.

Edit: Sorry my pics were so late coming they just slipped my mind. Thanx Bob for reminding me

Last time I check I was 19 years old how come I still get treated like I'm 12 years old or something. let me explain what I am talking about yesterday I went 2 c the doctor coz my sugar has been all over the board he tested it and of course it was out of whack. He took my true track downloaded the past 2 weeks c what readings I been getting of course they wasn't good. Then he turns around and starts 2 jump my ass. He is like Ryan when you gonna grow up you need 2 start taking better care of yourself you need 2 watch your nutrition u need 2 eat when your suppose and test your blood when your suppose 2 take your insulin your not a kid anymore its time you do theses things 4 yourself.

I wanted to go off on him and tell him I do but all I did was sit there and kept quiet like I was 12 years old. I then go over 2 the ear doctor coz my ears they itch so bad that I scratch them until they bleed. I have them raw inside and all scaby and when I wake up in the mornings they have this crusty stuff on the outside of them and on my pillow gross I know. Ok moving on 2 the ear doctor I went in waited my turn and then when back he came in ask how things were I said they r still itchy he look and said bout the same thing the other doctor said about growing up stop stickin things in my ears 2 scratch. I'm thinkin give something 2 put on them so they don't itch.

So with both doctors behind I am on my home thinkin am I old enough 2 drive coz I sure feel like I should b sittin in the back seat. I am pissed right thinkin how these guys talk 2 me so I can't wait 2 get home 2 talk 2 someone about all this first person I see was my Dad he's cleanin 1 of his old cars and I get out he said get this "how it go sport" he hasn't said that since u guessed it since I was a kid. I started tell about the doctor and he like went off you haven't been takin your insulin eating all kinds of crap dammit Ryan you know better why don't your act your age and take care of yourself! I am like omfg whatever!

So I am like Mom will understand so I am layin on my bed when she gets home and she comes in and yep I got jump by her 2. Finally I had enough and I lost it I started yelling telling them I was gonna leave move 2 West Virginia I told them I was tired them yelling at me tired of having diabetes tired of the hearing aids and itchy ears tired of being treated like I am 12 years old. I know I have 2 takes care of myself I know I have 2 watch what I eat I know I have 2 take my insulin along with my other meds but once in a while I wonder what a weekend away with a friend where I don't have 2 worry bout that stuff would feel like. Now I know it felt great!

Mom called Mikey had him all upset he called me cryin and all begging me 2 listen 2 them and take care of myself I told him I was and would I just wanted 2 c what it felt like 2 b normal. Then last night I was laying there sleepin my brother came into my room woke me up ask if he could talk 2 me I said sure what's up? He said I anit gonna preach at you coz u had enough of that today but I want 2 tell u I love u very much and if something would happen 2 u I would so sad. I started cryin he hug me said I didn't mean 2 make u cry I said u didn't it was just not like u 2 open up like that. He started cryin 2 and we hugged then I ask if he wanted 2 lay a bit and talk he said sure we fell asleep didn't wake up till this morning that meant the world 2 me that my 15 year brother cared enough 2 open up 2 me like that.

Oh soon as I get a chance I will have the Reed interview up sorry it's taken a little longer than what I wanted.

Later from Atlanta.

Again I don't have time to post the interview but decided I would let the cat out of the bag. I spent the weekend with Reed I went 2 school with him and I for 1 am very proud of him and what he has done so far. I just need some time when I can sit down and listen 2 the interview and type it all out. So I am thinkin tonight I should have the chance. I have 2 more doctors I have 2 c today 1 is 4 my sugar its been out of control and the other is 4 hearing yes my ears been bothering me again. So please stay tuned the interview is comin soon I promise. 4 those that don't know Reed drives the 41 Target car in Nascar and the 41 Discount Tire car in the Busch Series. Here r some pics of reed and I will have more when I do the interview. He is so cute don't ya'll think?

Later from Atlanta!










Ed email me I have a pic 4 u!

This is gonna b a short post I just got up I know lazy ass but I got home late from my Nascar weekend last night. I ended up going from Atlanta 2 Bristol and from there 2 Charlotte I am sick of planes 4 a while. I have many things 2 tell ya'll bout my weekend I got some pics 2 share and this blogs first celb interview woo hoo I am so freaken on cloud nine right now. Oh a big thanx 2 google for coming aboard this blog so please check out some of there ads and things on here. There r some other things were workin on 4 this blog but until they happen were gonna keep quiet. I'll have a longer post soon but now I need 2 run off and c the doctor!

Later from Atlanta!

This is a personal message 2 Steve I tried 2 email u what u ask 4 but it keeps coming back so if any of u know him please tell him 2 leave me a message with his email or email me @ ryryt87@yahoo.com.


Tribute to Marc

I don't have anything really 2 write about my back is still sore but it will pass. I am leaving later 4 Bristol Tennessee for the Nascar race on Saturday night. Only wish Mikey could join me there but he couldn't get away from work. I guess that's it wishin ya'll a happy & safe weekend I'll leave with a cartoon that is kinda hot!




Later from Atlanta!

Let's see if I can update yall on my boring life. Ive been flooded with emails and comments asking what I been up to. Ok so I had one and it was from Michael from Into The Frey. Anyway not much going on with me. Im either at work or home or up in the mountains riding around in my truck. Oh and talking to Ryan everyday on the phone how can I forget that. Which reminds me I finally did buy the dvd of Brokeback Mountain and I loved it. I mentioned I have been spending some time in the mountains. Theres all kinds of old houses which are now deserted up in the mountains. I like going up there and just imagining what they were like when the familys lived in them. Ive taken a few pics of them and Im gonna post them in the next day or two. So thats my update I told you it was pretty boring.

What a Monday I had it sure wasn't just another Monday. I went back to work yesterday first time in almost a month. I know I know but remember ya'll I work 4 my Mom reason I can blog at work. Anyway I went out yesterday 2 get the mail and while I was gone the put in these new stopping curbs in the parking lot well I was looking at the mail on the way back in not watching where I was walking and yep I trip right over it. I twisted my back somehow on the fall and it's still killin me this morning Mom said if it don't stop it's another trip 2 the doc. Just my luck!

I want 2 touch on a few things and then I have some awesome news. First 2 the asses that keep tryin 2 bring me down not gonna happen! You will not bully me away from something I like 2 do. Keep doing what your doing and your gonna find yourself in jail coz my Dad is onto u and if he does throw your ass in jail trust me it will be public info then and I will have your mug shot on this blog. So just stop and leave me alone if u don't like our blog then stop readin it. If you think me and Mikey are fake then stop readin it. It's plain and simple there's an red x on top click it and this page will close.

I don't ask anybody 2 read this blog people do it on there own and 4 our regular readers we love u guys so much 4 stickin in out threw the good and bad. I love comments but don't feed off them. I have no problem with someone disagreeing with anything we say. Hell Net Mom does a lot and we love her so much she has a right 2 her opinion just as we do that's what makes us all human. But when your comment is pure hate or bulling that's a different story. Like I said before all comments are welcome good or bad as long as there not hate toward me or Mikey or anyone else that comments on this blog.

Now for some really awesome great news. I have landed an interview with someone famous! That's right this person agree to let me interview him for this blog and I am so freaken happy! Ok I will give you some clues on who it is. He's a race car driver. I went to school with him (but we only talk twice in school) I taught him how 2 swim this past year. Ok that's all I'm gonna say for now but he invited me to the race this weekend in Bristol and I ask him for and interview for this blog and he said yes. So stay tuned for that next week. Come on back get better I got plans this weekend! (hehe)

Later from Atlanta!

I was reading some blogs like I do every morning drinkin my coffee tryin 2 act busy since I am at work. One of my favorite blogs 2 read is Best Gay Blogs. When I click on there blog today I got a shocker I read that a follow blogger had passed away. Marc from Voyeur Nation I knew he was sick but didn't know how bad or what he had until today. I didn't know him as well as I know some of u others that I talk with on here or by phone. The little I did talk with him he gave me some great advice and 4 that I am grateful. Marc you will be missed we are sad here today on earth but in heaven the angels are smiling 4 they got a great angel!



I want 2 leave you with these words from a song when I hear this song now I will think of Marc.

Some Gave All by Billy Ray Cyrus

I knew a man called him Sandy Kane
Few folks even knew his name
But a hero was he
Left a boy, came back a man
Still many just don't understand
About the reasons we are free

I can't forget the look in his eyes
Or the tears he cries
As he said these words to me

All gave some and some gave all
And some stood through for the red, white and blue
And some had to fall
And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties and recall
Some gave all

Now Sandy Kane is no longer here
But his words are oh so clear
As they echo through out our land
For all his friends who gave us all
Who stood the ground and took the fall
To help their fellow man

Love your country and live with pride
And don't forget those who died America can't you see

All gave some and some gave all
And some stood through for the red, white and blue
And some had to fall
And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties and recall
Some gave all

And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties and recall, yes recall
Some gave all

Some gave all

Photo taken from Best Gay Blogs

It don't matter if your going 2 school or at a place of work or maybe u think your safe in your own home but r u really? What am I talkin about it's called bulling! Just like Jordan is being bullied now in school as I was a when I was his age in school. I thought maybe in my own home I would b safe from the bulling but I guess not. Let me explain what's going on it seems I have been hacked my Dad is still working on how but they hacked into my yahoo email and myspace and ebay along with this blog. So if you get an email from my yahoo account open at your own risk. I have taken all of those things back with help from my Dad and his co-workers. Feel free 2 send me email on that account but I do have a new 1 but will not give it out unless I trust you

Now with that said am I happy over this fuck no I am pissed the fuck off. I ask why? What have I done 2 make anybody hate me so much they would steal my info 2 hurt me. Is it over this blog? Please just tell me coz if it's still over this blog and weather I am real or not then maybe its time I just tell Mikey close it down and walk away. Maybe it's something else maybe it's coz I'm gay, or white maybe southern, deaf, short got a big cock just tell me. More I sit here and think bout what you tried 2 do the more pissed I become. I tell whoever did it this come 2 me tell me before my Dad tracks u down coz if he tracks u down he will have u arrested but if u tell me and the reason why I might b able 2 stop him. You think your gonna scare me off by bulling me I think not. I am right here your fuckers come get me all you done is make this southern boy very mad!!!!!

Ready 2 fight in Atlanta!

I know I will upset some people with this post but I don't care. When I read this I was upset. I am not a big country music fan but since I met Mikey I been listening 2 it more and more. I like the sound of Montgomery-Gentry until I read this story and now I am so pissed off at Troy Gentry that I threw away the cd's of there's I did have and will never buy anything of there's again. I kinda feel a bit sorry for Eddie Montgomery I don't think he had anything to do with what happen. I will post the story and some links I hope ya'll check out and then I have a bit more 2 say on this topic.

(AP) Duluth, Minn. The manager for Troy Lee Gentry said Wednesday that the country singer thought he had complied with the law when he shot and killed a tame black bear in Minnesota and was surprised when he was indicted.Gentry, of the vocal duo Montgomery Gentry, is accused of killing a tame black bear that federal officials say he tagged as killed in the wild.Gentry, 39, of Franklin, Tenn., and Lee Marvin Greenly, 46, of Sandstone, appeared Tuesday before U.S. Magistrate Judge Raymond Erickson in connection with a sealed indictment returned by a federal grand jury in Minneapolis.Authorities allege that Gentry purchased the bear from Greenly, a wildlife photographer and hunting guide, then killed it with a bow and arrow in an enclosed pen on Greenly's property in October 2004.Gentry's lawyer said Wednesday that the federal indictment was misleading."Number one, the bear was not killed in a cage," said Minneapolis lawyer Ron Meshbesher. "The bear was roaming around in a fenced area of several acres, and my client spent almost two hours in a tree stand before he got a clear shot with a bow and arrow."An acre is about the size of a football field without the end zones.Meshbesher said Gentry "is extremely distraught about these allegations. He prides himself as an environmentalist and an avid hunter who respects the fish and game laws of the United States."The bear's death was videotaped, and the tape later edited so Gentry appeared to shoot the animal in a "fair chase" hunting situation, the government alleges.Meshbesher said the videotape was made for Gentry's private use. He said it was edited to remove the time spent waiting in the tree stand, cutting the tape from more than an hour to 15 minutes."They never edited the videotape to make it look like something it wasn't," Meshbesher said. "Nothing was done to hide the fact that this (hunt) occurred the way it occurred."A spokeswoman for the U.S. attorney in Minneapolis said federal authorities would not comment on Meshbesher's assertions.Gentry's manager, Johnny Dorris, said Gentry expects to be exonerated.Gentry "relied on the knowledge and expertise of a local guide to obtain the proper permit," Dorris said in a written statement. "Troy felt what he did was legal and in full compliance of the law and was surprised to hear of the indictment."Greenly's attorney, Robert Malone of St. Paul, said his client is pleading not guilty.If convicted, both Gentry and Greenly face a maximum penalty of five years in federal prison and a $20,000 fine.
2006 The Associated Press.

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I ask you 2 go 2 peta and send them emails letting them know how upset you are for this guy doing this. You can also go 2 the group website and read what Troy say about all this of course he claims he's falsely accused. I also know a person is innocent until proven guilty but 2 me it looks like 2 me he is guilty. I look at what the Dixie Chicks did compare 2 what this jackass did and people come down on them for just speaking there mind but this jackass kills a tamed bear. Hunting period I don't like but I understand it but when you get stars that hunt 4 just fun is not right. I hope they throw the book at him and he get's the 5 years but we know he won't.
I also see they have a new cd coming out on the 24th I think it was I think peta should have on there website and all the animal websites should have a ban on this new cd lets show Troy how mad we r at him 4 hunting a tamed bear! This pisses me off I can't even type what I'm feeling!

Later from Atlanta!

Yesterday this lady my Mom knows called her and ask if she thinks I would talk 2 her nephew. She told my Mom he was having a tuff time in school and getting pick on coz he can't hear that well and wears hearing aids. He is in the 5th grade so you know how kids can be. My came and ask me and told me all about this kid and of course I said yes I would love 2 help him.

While I am waiting on his mom 2 drop him off so we could have a little 1 on 1 talk I started thinking back 2 when I was his age and elementary school. Kids can be so mean 2 other kids and I often wonder why are kids this way? Is it there parents maybe the neighborhood they grow up in or maybe its just human nature I don't know. I do remember getting pick on, beat up made fun so many times i couldn't even count and why? All because I couldn't hear and wore hearing aids.

I remember being called deaf & dumb I always hated that them 2 words went together. I was deaf not dumb and that hurt really bad. What's the old saying something bout words cutting deeper than a knife. Anyway I guess that's why I was a loner kept 2 myself most the time coz I was just scared 2 talk and have people laughin at me. They would taunt me moving there lips like my hearing aid battery's were dead. the worse was getting chased home god forbid they would catch me.

I guess that's another reason I fell in love with the computer and chatting and blogs and all. From the other end the people didn't know I couldn't hear or that I had health problems and when I did tell them they didn't seem 2 care and that made me feel so good inside just knowing there are still good people in this world. Yes I have ran into a few bad ones hell even had a few leave nasty comments about try 2 bring me down over my disabilities. I don't let them win anymore and I am gonna do all I can 2 teach Jordan the same thing! I will keep ya'll updated on how it goes.

Later from Atlanta!

Update:
Things with Jordan went great we hit it off and he totally like my brother and the rest of the family. After we talk a bit he and my brother played xbox 4 a while and I think he needs a few friends in his life and 4 him just 2 b a kid and open up a bit. I think it went really well I will keep ya'll update from time 2 time on him.

HNT:
For those stopping in for hnt we r takin a break this week with me just getting out of the hospital and all just didn't have time 2 this week. Maybe next week but if you want 2 c some skin check out out other blog it has lots of skin and full frontal 2! The Boys Club

Thanx 4 being u!

Sorry for not updating me & Mom went out 2 our beach house for the weekend just to relax and rest. It's not the same anymore out there if Mikey's not there. I did get some sleep in and we went shoppin & site seeing. I am feeling much better now guess I need to take care of myself better and listen 2 my body more. Mikey had to work all weekend so we didn't get 2 talk as much and I'm kinda missing him bad right now. I think before I make this a sappy post I'll just leave you with some pics from Tybee Island Light House and from Fort Screven. If you want to know a little about these America landmarks just click on there name. I love history American and others.

Later from Atlanta.

I have 2 say my 2 cents on this topics and I know I will piss a few people off but I have a right 2 my opinion. As everyone knows what happen over in England with the terrorist tryin 2 get on planes and blow them up American & British planes. I don't need to go into all the details on the story I know most of u already know the details. First off I want 2 say thanx 2 the British authorities for stopping this in its tracks it could have been nasty.



I next want 2 say I am sick & tired of this having 2 b scared 2 travel anywhere coz these terrorist hate us Americans so bad. I am tired of my Dad being called away in the middle of the night not knowing where he is going or when or if he will ever come back. I know it's his job but I am not happy bout it. I am sick of are troops being in Iraq fighting a losing battle when they should be over in Afghanistan getting bin laden.



I am sick of people jumpin on Israel for doing what anyone would do when you have terrorist coming at you defend yourself. It's sad to think all the crap that's going over there comes down to religion. It says in the bible that the end of time is near when all nations turn on Israel. I'm not makin this up look it up! Israel and it's people are God's chosen land and people it's all in the bible and if you believe in the bible you have to believe in this.



I don't know I am just worked up over all this hate in the world. Not just over there it's going on here also. I don't see it every stopping I think it will only get worse. Iran is looking for a reason to attack Israel only thing stopping them is they know the USA would jump them. Then you have China killin dogs coz there so stupid to get the dogs shots to stop rabies. North Korea what can you say about that idiot?



Ok I'm done have a good ......



Later from Atlanta!

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For everyone who likes pics of hot guys I wanted to let you all know that were back to posting pics on The Boys Club We had slacked off for a few months cause we got busy with other stuff but were back to posting regularly so go check it out. One little thing if you want to leave a comment the place is at the top of each set of pics not the bottom. It's just the way the temps set up.

I also wanted to thank everyone for the comments on this weeks HNT. Ryan didn't think he looked all that cute with the bear but you all said he did so he believes it now.

Well here I am back home once again. I hated to leave Ryan but at least I got to see that he got out of the hospital. I got to be his nurse for a couple days which was a trip. I'd say the best part was the baths I gave him. To bad it was just a couple times but I think his mom was catching on that I liked the baths a little to much.

This week were only doing one pic for HNT. I snapped this after Ryan got home and he was napping. He loves teddy bears and I thought it was cute how he was holding onto this one. I thought he was so cute and couldn't help myself and had to get a pic of him.

I want 2 send out a word of thanx 2 ya'll 4 the e-cards, e-mails and all the comments on here. When Mikey told me what ya'll said I got all choked up. It means the world 2 me that so many people that I don't know care and if we in the blogging world can care about each other this much then I think there is hope 4 this world after all. I'm still not 100% so please forgive 4 not writing more. I just wanted 2 stop in and say thanx!

Oh Mikey sweetheart I can't say thanx enough 2 u without u in my life I would be lost. Without u in my life my life would have no meaning. I know there is a God coz he sent me u my angel! I love u babe!

Later from Atlanta.

Here is some of the flowers & gifts I got.
Thanx 2 all!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry I didn't come on with a update on Ryan yesterday but he's been keeping me busy. He got out of the hospital yesterday and I been running around waiting on him hand and foot. Im loving every minute of it to. He's still a little weak but getting stronger. We did get to cuddle lastnite and he said it was the best he slept since he got sick. I was suppose to be back to work tommorow morning but I called a guy I work with and hes gonna take my shift. So now I can spend another night cuddling. Can't never tell what that might lead to. Im sure Ryan will be back to blogging in a few days. He wants to personally thank everyone for all the get well wishes. Now nurse Mike has to go give Ryan his bath. I so hate my job:)

I wanted to make a quick post and let everyone know hoe Ryan is doing. Sorry I didn't yesterday but I was so busy running from his house to the hospital doing errands for him and getting things he wanted. He's doing much better hes out of the oxygen tent. They took him out of it yesterday morning. I did say something funny that made him laugh when they took him out. I bent down to kiss him and he didn't want to kiss me cause he said he had bad breath. I said boy Ive had my tongue in your ass to many times to count and your worried about bad breath. You better shut up and kiss me. He busted out laughing and said you got me on that one.

Im going just in a bit to the hospital to watch the race with him. Also the doctor said if he continues to show improvement he may get to go home soon. I don't have to be back home till Wednesday morning for work so it would be awesome if he got out before I have to leave. I told him everybody wished him well. I even wrote down everyones name who left comments so I wouldn't forget. When I read them all he started tearing up and told me to make sure I post today and tell everyone thanks and send a big hug and kiss to you all. So thank you all. You definitely picked his spirits up. Now Im off to the hospital to watch the race.

Well Im off work and headed to Atlanta in a little bit. Ive always left early in the morning so it's gonna be different driving at night. If Im thinking right I should get down there about midnight maybe a little sooner I don't know. Talking to Ryan's mom today she said he was doing a little better. They still have him in the oxygen tent. Him being in that thing is what scares me. Once he gets out of that Ill feel much better about him getting well. Ill probably post tommorow sometime to let everyone know I made it and see for myself how Ryan's doing.

The other day before Ryan got real sick we was talking. He was wanting to do HNT this week. Well he got sick and can't so Ill attempt to do it. Their old pics we've posted before. Two of us and one of our mystery guest. Im not really in the mood to go through our pics and find new ones of us. So I got these off the blog that we have posted before.

Ive talked to Ryans mom a couple times today. She said he's doing a little better. He's still in the oxygen tent. I don't know if he really is or she's just saying that so I wont worry. I can't wait till Friday so I can get down there and see for myself.

It seems like when Ryan gets a little something wrong with him you never know when it's going to turn into something worse. Well this ear thing he had has turned into pneumonia. He called me this morning and said he was feeling real bad. Then his mom called later and said she took him to the hospital. She said they have him in a oxygen tent. The boys got me so worried about him now. I don't have anymore vacation left since I took it all when he came up and went camping. The best I can do is go down Friday after I get off work. Im gonna be a nervous wreck waiting for Friday to get here.