I was moved last night by my Dad he came up 2 my room 2 check on me. Let me go back a little so this all comes out right. Mikey don't like sitting around like he is using my parents I told him it was ok coz he really is helping Mom by takin care of me. That means she can go 2 work and not worry bout me so much. Well he ask Mom the other day if she needed help at her job with me not being there being short 1 person. Mikey said he could take my place until I am well enough 2 come back. She took him in with her 2 help out. My Dad was impressed with Mikey takin steps 2 help without being ask.
So back 2 my original thought Dad came up 2 my room see how I was feeling. He then started 2 tell me how he was impressed with Mikey and how they been getting alone. Mikey helped him round up a couple horses that got out of the gates the other day. He told me he wasn't sure about this gay thing before but he can see now there is no different then the way he feels about Mom. He said he can see the love and care in Mikey's eyes when it comes 2 me. He told me all he wants is 4 me 2 b happy and he can see that Mikey does that. He also told me that he is a great choice! I was like totally taken away with what he told me and yes ya'll know me I cried.
I know I haven't said it on here and don't say it enough but Dad thanx so much 4 all u have done 4 me. I heard this song and when I first hear it didn't do much for me now I understand it. So Dad this one is for you!
I love you!Daddy's been a back-row Baptist,
With his share of front-row sin.
His Saturday night still on his breathe,
Every Sunday when he'd walk in.
He's never led the Benediction,
He's never sang in the choir.
But he's an angel with no halo,
An' one wing in the fire.
Mamma lives by the Bible,
The Bible lives by the bed.
An' she's lied alone so many nights,
With scriptures in her head.
Prayin': "Good Lord, just be with him,
"I know his Faith is tired,
"But he's an angel with no halo,
"An' one wing in the fire."
"An' I know he lives a little left of livin' right,
"An he's come close to goin' way to far a few times.
"But I'd trade a thousand prayers if just one prayer would come true:
"Lord, please believe in him, like I believe in you."
Daddy's always been there for me,
From T-Ball to touchdowns.
Fixed my car an' fixed my heart,
When they've been broken down.
I know he calls for more forgiveness,
Than most folks do require,
But he's an angel with no halo,
An' one wing in the fire.
An' I know he lives a little left of livin' right,
An he's come close to goin' way to far a few times.
But I'd trade a thousand prayers if just one prayer would come true:
Lord, please believe in him, like I believe in you.
Well, I just can't imagine,
What Heaven might be like.
If me an' Mamma make it,
Without Daddy by our side.
Lord, could you please remember,
When it's time to call us higher:
That he's an angel with no halo,
An' one wing in the fire.
song by Trent Tomlinson
Later from Atlanta!
I cant believe how happy I am to have my man back with me. Not that I didnt trust the hospital but its good to have him back home. Ryans the one that dont trust hospitals I reckon cause hes been in and out of them so much in his life. Ive been on him since he got out to take better care of himself. I cant tell you how good it feels to look over and see him sleeping next to me all curled up under the covers. Ok I wont lie we have been making up for lost time but it was almost 2 1/2 weeks since we had been together and a guys got needs:)
I got a call from my mom the other day checking up on me to see how I was. She is wanting me to come home for Easter and bring Ryan with me. I dont see a problem with that so I reckon we'll be going up there but its still a couple months away so who knows it could change. Ryans mom wants me to ask my mom to come back to Atlanta with us when we come back and stay a week. I dont know about that idea, that would be very interesting. My mom has never been out of West Virginia in her life so I dont think she'd make a trip all the way to Georgia but I said I'd ask her, she might just surprise me
I wanted to put up a few pics from around Ryans town. Their nothing really special the one pic is of one of Ryans favorite places to eat. Ive been there several times and they do have really good cajun food.
Layin here in this room waiting 2 be released I got to see more TV than what I wanted. I also did get to read a few books and that always makes me happy. Mikey what can I say about him he's the best been right here with me I had to make him go home last night so he could get a good nights rest but when I woke up this morning he was right here. I tell him everyday how much I love him I just wish there was other ways I can show him he means the world 2 me. I know I am still young but I know Mikey is the one I don't even think about sex with anyone else. I look at cute guys still and we even talk about cute guys we see but it's different now it's like yeah that guy is hot but I don't want to sleep with him. Use to be I was like damn I would like 2 jump his bones but now that don't cross my mind what crosses my mind now is forever with Mikey.
I got an email the other day didn't know if I should say something or let it go coz really it's none of my business. I slept on it and I talk it over with Mikey and he said it was up 2 me. So if it's up 2 me I am gonna say what's on my mind. I am gonna talk about Scotty a little bit from
The Other Side Of Str8 blog. Most of you that read my blog also reads his some of you been around for a long time with both blogs and you know there is no love lost between us. That's old news on what happen and it's in the past and please for those that know the story let's leave it in the past. I haven't been to Scottys blog in God only knows when but in this email from a friend to both us was telling me about what Scottys been going thru with haters and stalkers and such. Scotty decided to walk away from blogging and I can totally understand why he would he said his kids are the most important thing in his life and they should be. I think we all can agree on that.
Now let me speak on his blog just a bit and being a gay guy myself. I couldn't follow his blog that well just as I think he couldn't follow mine that well maybe an age thing or something else don't matter. A lot of people did follow his blog and I think it's helped some other gay's along the way. Scotty was married with children there are a lot of gay dads out there just like him that could feel and understand what he was going through, not me I don't have any kids. So see his blog did help I think as a gay community we need to stand up and help each other when were being kicked or bullied or harassed. I believe the best way to stop hate is to do things in numbers we as a gay community and the people that are not gay but support our cause would agree with me here.
So what I want is someone to email Scotty and tell him come read this post and read this part more than anything. Scotty this is what I think you should do and this is just an idea before you walk away from the
other side of str8 this is what you should do. You have helped many people along the way and just like me have picked up a few haters along the way but all them people you helped its time they turn around and helped you. This is what I mean take 4 or 5 people you trust or more or less choice is yours but ask them to post on the other side of str8 until your ready to come back. Maybe you can find other gay dads that would help you. Your blog has the followers and they would be ok with it they would understand. They when your ready you come back to your blog. This way Scotty the fuckers don't win we show them as a gay community we will stand together. You walk away or stop posting on your blog they win don't let them win.
Later from room 309 in Atlanta!
Is there anyone that likes hospital food? It's like the get the worse cooks in the world throw them in a kitchen and say cook something and that's what it is something the good Lord only knows what the food really is. Yes I am tired of being here they said maybe Thursday I could go home I am ready now. I need to shave and I am not talking about my face it itches so bad! All I do is sit here and watch TV or read but I am ready to get up and get out and do something go shopping anything damn this id driving me crazy. I know I can't jump 2 quick or I will end right back here but I am bored out of my mind. Poor Mikey been with me through this he is so sweet I love him so much!
We did talk a little yesterday and we are thinkin about doing something new 4 the blog when we go down 2 Daytona. We are gonna be gone like a week and we know we won't be into posting and thought it would be a good idea to have like a couple of readers like guest host the blog for us. Don't ya think that would be cool? I was thinkin I would like 2 people a boy and a girl it don't matter if your gay or str8 that don't matter 2 us. I was thinkin you could email me or Mikey if u think u want 2 host for a week. If we get a lot of people that want 2 do it I think maybe we could have like a little vote off. I think it would be a great idea and I know ya'll got some great things 2 say and u could promote your blog and others u like.
What do ya'll think of Hillary running? Think she has a chance? Only thing I am not sure about is here changing her mind on the gay issues. I guess in time we will see how well she does. I think we need a women to run this country I think the men had there chances and they sure have screwed it up and the 1 that's in there now Lord don't let me start on him. I think a women running things could open a lot of doors not only for women but for gay people also. I also think it would make us look different in the world eyes and the way we look now is not good. We need a change and someone that can fix all the fuck up's that the dummy in the white house is doing now. Can Hillary be that person I don't know only time will tell.
Later from a hospital room in Atlanta!
Finally got move 2 a private room and can have my laptop in here I just wanted 2 say thanx 4 all the comments and emails and ecards I got from ya'll. I am feeling better and should b home by Thursday or Friday there telling me. Another week in the hospital might kill me tho DAMN! I will get caught up on ya'll blogs and the things I missed so sorry. Again I just want 2 say thanx 4 being a friend!
Love from a hospital room in Atlanta!
Hey everybody I just wanted to get on here and make a quick post to update yall on Ryans condition. Doctor says hes got the flu real bad but I could have told him that. He says the blood come from where Ryan was coughin so hard and he busted or ruptured as he called it a blood vessel. Hes doing better but hes gonna stay in the hospital maybe a week just to make sure he kicks the flus ass real good. It makes me so sad to see him laying there with iv's and tubes in him but Im trying to be strong for him and his mom. Thats about it for now any new word I get Ill be sure to let everyone know.
I just got to get on here real quick and make a post cause I promised Ryan at the hospital. He started coughing real bad today and blood came up so his mom took him to the hospital. Their running tests now and thats all I know. I just ran home to get some stuff for his mom and me. Were gonna be spending the night at the hospital with him. When I find something out about him Ill be sure to get on her and let everyone know. Since I was running home he made me promise to get on here and let everyone know he hadn't forgot about yall. He felt bad cause he hasn't been commenting on all your blogs. I gotta run now
Benny Parsons, a taxi driver who became a NASCAR champion in 1973, died Tuesday from lung-cancer complications, his son Keith said. He was 65.
Bobby Hamilton, the 2004 Craftsman Truck Series champion and a four-time winner in the Cup Series, died Sunday January 7 He was 49.
I never had a chance 2 meet Bobby but last year at the Atlanta track I got 2 meet Benny he was such a nice guy the thing that took me by surprise was the fan base he still had and hadn't been in a race car since a year after I was born. That was 1988 last time he drove for those that didn't know what year I was born. He stood there and signed everything everyone had and did not leave until everyone was happy first class guy in my book. You will both will be missed around the track I am sure. Prayers go out 2 there families.
I have a great Idea for a post I will run by ya'll tomorrow or Thursday right now it's almost time 4 American Idol.
Later from Atlanta.
I don't guess Im saying anything new when I say being sick sucks, and it's not a good kind of sucking either hehe. Ive only had the flu one other time in my life and I think it was when I was 11 I believe. I don't remember it being this bad, leave it up to Ryan to have a more powerful flu bug the big brat. Im feeling a whole lot better though thanks to Ryans mom. I think she could have been a nurse if she had wanted to. She's been so busy taking care of Ryan his little brother and me I was woried about her business but she has a office here at the house and she says she has good people to take care of stuff for her so it's fine she says. One thing she did that sucked is she made me move to one of the spare bedrooms while Im sick. Yes I know why she did it cause neither one of us would ever get well in the same bed. Like I said Im a lot better now Ryans still not feeling good cause of his immune system it takes him a lot longer to get over it. Im still in another bedroom but with him most of the day. One thing that came out of me having the flu is I got fired, well actually I told the guy to stick his job up his ass so I quit first. So I got the flu and of course Im not going to go to work with it. I called in the first nite and he said ok. I told him I had the flu then and maybe he better find someone for the next week. He says no you have no right to be missing a week of work and you just started. So I just let it go but was mad as hell told him ok but knew in the back of my mind what I was gonna tell this asshole. So next nite I called in he says what did I tell you about missing work. So I said look asshole I feel like shit and Im not coming in to work with the flu. How long I been there has nothing to do with it. You can take your job and stick it up your ass, then hung up on him. He didn't call back so I reckon he understood me. So Im just getting over the flu now and Im out of a job. Ryans happy cause he didn't like me working nites anyway. So I guess Im back to laying around the house waiting on my man to come home everyday. Im just kidding theres always stuff to do around here to help out so ill make myself useful. I might even go to work with Ryan and see if I can help out down there once hes up and around.
Oh and I almost forgot about this. I dont see how Ryan jumped up out of bed and went crazy when it happened. His friend from school who drives for Nascar stopped by the other day. He left tickets for Ryan and me to go to the Daytona 500 and pit passes to get back in the pits. He also said if we wasn't busy we could come down and spend the week leading up to the race with him, its called Speedweek and they do all kinds of cool stuff during it. We dont know about the whole week but were definitely going to the race. Its not till Feb 18 so we got over a month to get Ryan well. Even if he wasn't I think me and his mom would have our hands full keeping him from going.
I also wanted to let everyone know like you don't already but Ryan is the best friend in the world. I don't know what the hell his "friend" was talking about in her message she left him.
Something I thought I would never hear but when I woke up this mornin that is what I heard from a voice mail on my cell phone. It caught me off guard 2 say the very least I always try 2 b a good friend hell I would even say a great friend but then have some 1 tell me I am not a good friend. What am 2 think now maybe I'm not maybe I am a bad friend. Let me take u into a little bit of the voice mail a friend called I never heard the phone ring then again maybe coz I'm sick with the flu maybe it's coz I didn't have my hearing aids in coz again of the flu I was just feelin like shit. If I don't have them in I can't hear anything but I go on 2 the voice mail. She said how I knew u wasn't gonna answer you never answer anymore Ryan she went on 2 say how we were friends but since Mikey moved here I have no time 4 her and I just put her on the back burner. This is not true I call almost everyday and yeah I haven't hung out as much since Mikey moved here but I was tryin 2 spend a little more time with him coz I know he's homesick am I bad person 4 this? She went on 2 tell me the reason I have no friends coz I don't know how 2 b 1 and she went on and on but 2 sum it up she said I wasn't a good friend damn I don't know maybe she's right this sucks!
It's the weekend now go out and make it a great 1!
Later from a not so good friend in Atlanta
I am sure like most of u I watch Bush try 2 tell us why we need more troops in Iraq. The problem is I like many of u aren't fallin 4 his lies. Why should we believe anything he tells us when he couldn't and still can't take of the people in New Orleans. We keep sending money and troops over there and for what? I know what it's all about just like many of u it's all about the oil. All he is doing now is makin American's look like jackass's 2 the rest of the world. Sending more troops over there won't help it's only gonna get more American Troops killed. How many troops have 2 die b4 someone steps up and say enough is enough and stop this moron from doing whatever he want's.
This just makes me sick 2 my stomach I bet some of u remember my neighbor that's in the army I posted about on here. He was over there and he said they didn't want us there and some of his friends I talk 2 that's in the army are sayin the same thing if the Iraqi people don't want us there then I say get out. Why don't we put the money 2 good use and help the people of New Orleans get back on there feet send are troops down there 2 clean up and get that city built back like it was and even better b4 the storm. When I think about what Katrina did and I look at what are government did 2 help them people I hang my head in shame.
Now about this company I have workin with me and Mikey on this blog and getting us ads and some new things comin soon let me just answer a few questions. I know I could have went and signed up as an affiliate myself but u know I didn't have the time 2 sit and go 2 ever place and do all the signin up and whatever u have 2 do 2 get there ads on our blog doing it with this company they do it 4 me. They ask me what kinda things we liked and then they went 2 work and he would call and tell me who said yes and who said no so 4 me it was easier 2 do it this way. Also they are working on some other things 4 us that will b comin soon. Has any of the ads slow this page from loading? It hasn't 4 me but I'm on cable so I don't know. Oh soon I will have a post on some that have said no about ads on this blog I think it will shock some of u.
That's it from Atlanta takin my sick butt back 2 bed where my sick man is.
Who use 2 live in this castle?
Well ya'll know how easy it 4 me 2 catch the flu and yep I have it again not only that but Mikey has it 2 now. Mom has her hands full now coz my Brother has it 2. U might have notice some new things going on around the blog I wanted 2 say something about it real quick b4 I go back 2 bed. Me and Mikey meet this cool guy who is helpin us out with the blog and there will b more changes comin soon. He got us some ads from some good company's even
NBC. I wanted 2 say any money made from them will all go 2 the
Matthew Shepard Foundation I think its a good coz and I never really started a blog 2 make money with in the first place but I need the support 2 make this blog grow even bigger but I will make sure every dime it makes will go 2 help fight hate and 2 try 2 help people understand. So if u see something from an ad on this blog click on it coz its going 2 a good place. That's it 4 now I need 2 lay back down we will try 2 post soon when were feelin better.
Sick in Atlanta 
I was thinking yall might be wondering how Im doing since my big move down here. Well I didn't think it would happen but Im a little homesick. I couldn't wait to get out of my little town but now I miss it. Everything down here is on a much bigger scale. When I come down to visit I didn't really think about it much. Since Im down here to stay though Im missing my small town and the little 2 lane roads. Everybody you see on the street you know them maybe not by name but you've seen them before. I miss my mom and our little house. I can't believe I would say I miss my house living in Ryan's big house but I do. Me and my mom have talked on the phone several times since the move. When I left we wasn't on the best of terms but at least were talking now and being nice to each other. Ryan's mom has been just like a second mom to me, shes great. Ryan told me about the talk they had and everything shes worried about. I always knew Ryan would stay close to his mom and I never had any intention of moving him away. I love the idea of building a house on their property but that's not in the immediate future. I also know I can't look after him like his mom can when it comes to taking his meds and shots and everything but I try to. I bug the hell out of him daily asking if hes taking all his pills and his shot. Ive even learned how to give him his insulin shot. Sometimes he don't feel in the mood to do it and I give it to him. With me and his mom looking out for him I think he'll be just fine.
Other stuff that's been going on is I finally found a job. Its not the best in the world but it'll do for now. Ill be working security for a local trucking company. Ryan wasn't thrilled about me taking it cause its at night. We even had a little argument but it was to funny to be serious. I told him I needed to find a job cause I wasn't gonna be sponging of his parents the whole time Im down here. Not that they let me give them money cause they don't but I just feel better working and saving all the money putting it away as a nest egg for us later. Anyway the funny part of the argument was I asked him if he expected me to lay around the house all the time and be laying in bed with my legs spread when he comes home. So the smartass says and whats wrong with that. I couldn't help but laugh at him cause he said he was just kidding, I know the little sex addict to well. Me working nights is putting a little crimp in the lovemaking though but were working around it. Thank god for 90 minute lunch hours and mom being Ryans boss sure helps cause hes been late getting back a few times. So hes been eatin his lunch at home the past week. The boy keeps me so wore out Im thinking about hiring someone part time to help me pick up the slack. Of course Im kidding I can handle my guy just fine. So that's about all I been doing lately work and sex and not in that order. I been spending a good bit of time with Ryans little brother, hes a funny little guy. I can sure tell their brothers cause he acts just like Ryan. Since I mentioned I was a little homesick earlier I wanted to leave yall with a few pics of West Virginia.
One last thing I almost forgot I started a new Boys Club blog with the new beta blogger just to see what the new blogger was like. Turns out the pics load a lot quicker for me so Im gonna be using it from now on to post pics of hot guys. Here's the link to it it's called
The New Boys Club
Trying to make it a little harder this week good luck!
There are 876 miles from Atlanta to this city.
There was a famous battle between U.S. cavalry and the Indians near this city.
This city was settled by the third land run on April 19, 1892
Population is about 3450
Crime in this town is as follows
Murder - 0
Rape - 0
Robbery - 0
Aggravated Assault - 4
Burglary - 5
Larceny (theft) - 7
Motor vehicle theft - 0
A few days ago my Mom sit me down 4 a talk now knowin my Mom I knew when she ask me 2 come drink a cup of coffee with her it was gonna b heavy. So she started out how happy she was Mikey moved here 2 b with me she said she feels like she got a new son. So me being me was waiting on the bomb 2 drop she I said ok Mom what's on your mind I know u like u know me and u got something going on in that mind so just spill it.
So she did she told me that her and Dad been thinkin and talkin and they know that me & Mikey have talked about getting our own place. We have talked about this b4 but this was b4 Mikey moved down here. At one point we talked about just building a house on the property. Since he has moved here we haven't really talked about movin out of the house even tho I know Mikey is tryin 2 make things work having a family around. I think he been doing a good job at it 2 him and my Brother get along real good there both rednecks!
Anyway my Mom told me she is worried about me movin out and we don't have 2. She did bring up building a house on the land or jusr stayin in my room. She told me she was not ready 2 cut me lose and don't think she every will be. She told being her onlt child she gave birth 2 she don't want 2 see me as a grown man. She said she worried bout my health and she knows Mikey would do his best 2 make sure I took my meds but if I get in 1 of my moods she worries bout me not takin them.
She told me she can't help but think of what happen 2 Matthew Shepard she said she knows she can't always b there 2 protect me but she said she felt better with me living at home or at least close. She told now she has 2 worry about Mikey now also. She said she just wanted me 2 know I or we neither 1 has 2 move that they would do want they can 2 make Mikey feel at home. If we feel the need 2 move then we should think about buildin a house on the land.
I was overwhelmed with joy with my Parent's but I should know coz they always made me feel welcome and loved. Now they want 2 make Mikey feel the same way and they are not pushin us out the door. Wouldn't it be a great if all of America was as open and loving as my Parent's are? Wouldn't it be great if kids could come up 2 there parents and say they are gay without worryin about be throw onto the street? Wouldn't it be great if we didn't have any hate 4 another human just coz they are different? All I know is I love my Parent's more than my words can say!
Feelin Love in Atlanta!
I love to read and when I'm not on the computer looking at news webpages or on top of Mikey you will normally find my nose in a book. I just finish a really good book and wanted 2 share it with ya'll or least the 1's out there that are nerdy just like me. This is the first book I have read by
Stephen White but I think I pick one of his best I just bought a few more of his books from
amazon.com I will let you know if there as good as this one but I am sure they will be.
We will have some more post comin later this week and 1 I am workin on has 2 do with me and my Mom and it's kinda deep so look 4 that. I hope ya'll had a awesome New Year and didn't drink 2 much. For those that did party 2 hard and u posted about it leave us a comment so we can come check out how your night was. Oh for the record are night would be boring 2 most I think we just snuggled in bed watched a movie and I was alseep b4 the ball came down and then Mikey well I'll leave it there ok!
Go check out this book you won't b sorry!
The Best Revenge 
Later from Atlanta.
