It's always hard coming up with something 2 say when it's the last time you plan on sayin it. Well over the past weekend a lot has takin place and most I can't talk about. Oh don't worry me and Mikey are still together and if I have anything 2 do with it will always be together. I tried an easy way 2 say so long for now. I thought I would copy the Soprano's and use the onion rings and the song from Journey they used 2 end their run. So then Mikey thought we should use the Fade to Black maybe that would help ya'll understand that we were leaving the blog world. Then I thought thats not a good way really 2 say thanks and goodbye. So I want 2 say thanx for all the wonderful years of blogging. Not all have been good but ya'll made them better. I have made so many good friends that I would have otherwise maybe not met. Even though this blog is gonna close this chapter of our lives it don't mean me & Mikey won't be around. There is some big stuff coming up and soon ya'll will see us around. Those that have been emailing us keep it up I will answer emails love getting 2 know u more one on one. So for now let me just say thank you for all the love and support throughout the years. Now a few words from Mikey....
I just wanted to tell everyone who Ive met through the blog thanks for all your support and good wishes for both me and Ryan. Especially since my accident I loved reading all your get well comments and emails. Although I never actually met all of you in person I still consider you my friends and hope you do the same. The ones I have met thanks for taking the time. I never thought much would come out of my blog but boy was I surprised. The best thing of course was meeting Ryan and then also all the friends I made which if you knew me you'd know is not easy to do. There have been a number of jerks and assholes but thats to be expected I reckon. Even had one "friend" from the blog try to steal Ryan from me but I wont get into that. He knows who he is he just dont have the balls to answer emails from me. Anyway thanks everybody for all the support and thats about it I reckon.
Sending out Love 2 ya'll that has gave your love and support 2 us one last time from Atlanta!
Wow my Mom told me last night she got tickets for the True Colors Tour she said she got them when they went on sale but waited to surprise me and she did. I only wish Mikey could go but he told me 2 go and have fun. I am taking my Brother and his friend and my best friend Kate I know we will have a blast. The concert is at Chastain Park for those that haven't been there this is a wonderful place for a concert its outdoors and the sound is just wonderful I can't wait! Mikey release date is the 27th and he is happy and so am I home in time for the 4th of July. We don't have plans but just having him home is what we both need. As far as I know right now I on will be on the Coca Cola stage this Saturday at 12:00 noon for pride. That was not set in stone they told me might change to the WaMu stage so check back if there is a change I'll post on here. I am gonna be talking about coming out at an early age and how it was in school and being on a swim/baseball team. Also I am gonna speak a little on Mikey and the accident and how long can heal and no matter what life throws at you with love you can past anything. Monday there will be a post with a big announcement so check back in for that.
CHARLESTON, S.C. — Fire swept through a furniture warehouse, collapsing the building's roof and claiming the lives of nine firefighters in a disaster the mayor described Tuesday as "difficult to fathom or quantify."
"Nine brave, heroic, courageous firefighters of the city of Charleston have perished fighting fire in a most courageous and fearless manner, carrying out their duties," Charleston Mayor Joseph P. Riley said at a morning news conference. "To all of their loved ones, our heart goes out to them."
Two employees in the building were rescued from the blaze, which broke out at about 7 p.m. Monday in the Sofa Super Store and warehouse, Riley said. Firefighters punched a hole through a wall of the warehouse to reach them.
Firefighters, police officers and other rescue workers saluted as the bodies were carried from the warehouse during the night.
"To lose nine is just a tragedy of immense proportions," Riley said. "To lose nine is just unbelievable."
The cause of the fire was under investigation, but Riley said arson was not suspected. He said the blaze apparently started in a storage area. He was unsure whether there were sprinklers in the building.
Riley said the county coroner would announce the names of the dead.
Witnesses said the store's roof collapsed, throwing debris over about two-dozen rescue workers. Onlookers were hit with flying ash.
"It was like a 30-foot tornado of flames," said Mark Hilton, who was struck in his eye.
Firefighter Eric Glover told CNN that he was at a golf tournament to benefit the family of a firefighter who had recently died when he heard the call on the radio. By the time he arrived, he said, the roof had already collapsed.
"It all happened pretty fast. They didn't have a chance," Glover said.
Firefighters went to a nearby car dealership asking for towels, said salesman Daniel Shahid.
"The next thing you know, we were carrying hoses, directing traffic, everybody from the dealership," he said.
Shahid said he saw firefighters rescue four people from the building.
"They were struggling. They were covered in black soot. They looked scared out of their minds," Shahid said.
He later told CNN the roof collapsed too quickly for anyone to escape.
"It came from nowhere," he said. "It was a standing structure and five seconds later it was on the ground."
Riley called the firefighters heroes.
"This is a profession that we must never take for granted," the mayor said. "There's a fire raging and they go toward it."
On Tuesday morning, flowers were left on the sidewalk in front of the wreckage of the one-story furniture store and its adjacent, slightly taller warehouse, both of which continued to smolder.
The buildings are located on what residents here refer to as the "auto mile," a commercial strip of car dealers, body shops and stereo installers.
Losing a firefighter to me is like losing someone in the military or a police officer to me we lost another real Hero! My heart goes out to the families & friends of these fallen Hero's.
Thinking of our heros in South Carolina from Atlanta!
Saturday morning I woke up sick my throat hurt so bad I couldn't stop coughing I cough so much Saturday I made my stomach and sides hurt. I called Mikey told him I was sick and I would try 2 be there later he said 4 me 2 stay home and get better. I woke up Sunday and I hurt all over all I could do was lay still. I didn't even get 2 watch the race coz all I wanted 2 do was sleep. Today I feel like crap but I have 2 go and see Mikey it's been 2 days and I can't take it anymore it's makin me sad. Now if I can just get pass Mom I'll be on my way!
Yesterday in Massachusetts lawmakers took a stand and blocked a constitutional amendment this is a big step and the right step. If the lawmakers in Massachusetts can take a stand just think what it would be like if the rest of America did. Read the story here Massachusetts blocks amendment.
Some Quotes from the story
"We're proud of our state today, and we applaud the Legislature for showing that Massachusetts is strongly behind fairness," said Lee Swislow, executive director of Gay & Lesbian Advocates & Defenders.
Jean Chandler, 62, of Cambridge, came with fellow members of her Baptist church in an effort to rebuff the image that strict followers of the Bible are opposed to gay marriage. "I think being gay is like being left-handed," Chandler said. "If we decided left-handed people couldn't marry, what kind of society would we be?"
Now lets talk about Cyndi Lauper and the True Colors True I think what she is doing is also a great. The tour was conceived by Cyndi she wanted to give back to the community that love and supported her throughout her career. The True Colors Tour will bring together Americans across the country to voice their solidarity against discrimination and for equality and raise public awareness about the issues facing the gay, lesbian bisexual and transgender community. True Colors is a celebration of basic values and freedoms that be shared by all Americans. Cyndi says "this tour was created to celebrate our differences by raising awareness for liberty, fairness and dignity for everyone not just some of us." Check out the tour and dates here True Color Tour. I have been ask to speak at pride in Piedmont Park at first I thought why me? Mikey being the wonderful man he is ask why not you? If all goes well Mikey will be there also. I am also going to be working at pride this year and no not working that honey! haha I volunteer to work the festival this is the first time I'll be working and not out checking everything out. I will let those who want 2 know what time I will be speaking I would love 2 see and meet any of u that will be there for pride. Pride this year in Atlanta is the 22nd thru the 24th.
Everyone knows how much me and Mikey are into Nascar. I bet you think I am gonna talk about Dale Jr well I'm not. I want to talk about being gay and liking sports. I know people stereotype gay people, they look at a gay guy as being a nelly bottom shopping and hanging around with his fag hags when he's not with his boyfriend. Well I am here 2 speak up and say not all that is true. Yes I love 2 shop and Mikey don't. I am not getting into who is the top and who is the bottom 2 me that is something that is private and should not be talked about on a blog. Some of you have I have talked 2 and u know and if it makes that big of a deal 2 ya send me and email and we will talk about. But back to the topic we are into sports. Me and Mikey both are Atlanta Braves fans. I am a Atlanta Falcon fan, Mikey is a Miami Dolphins fan and we both love Nascar.
Now I know most of the sports world don't do anything 2 attract the gay community and I am not saying they should go out of there way. But they total don't do anything they turn a blind eye 2 the gay community but they don't mind taking our gay dollar. See I feel if Nascar or baseball even football would speak up and say yeah we know we have gay fans and we love them as much as the other fans it's a start right? I just wonder if we would take like one day and all the gay people would not go, maybe not buy a t-shirt or do anything that has 2 do with sports they would then see hey we lost a lot of money today we need to speak up and say we want the gay community coming also. I just think it would be a start if one of these sports would speak up and maybe more and more people in America can see we are not gonna hurt them and we all can get along together just fine.
Now I have Sirius radio in my truck and in my bedroom and my parents have it and we totally love it. Yesterday on my way home from visiting Mikey I had it on the Nascar station channel 128 and was listening 2 Dave Moody and he has AJ Allmendinger on his show and AJ is on every week and I always like listening 2 him talk about how his race was on Sunday and he kinda cracks jokes and really just can be his self. The different side of drivers we hardly ever see. Well I can't even remember what they were talking about coz he said a word that just threw me for a loop. He said I shouldn't have said that it sounded HOMO. I was like omg he just said it sounded homo right then and there. I totally lost all respect I had for AJ. I know it's just a word but he used it in a way that meant gay people are less than him. Like he is better than any gay person and that pisses me right off!
I love my Sirius and I love Nascar but I see this as a problem that we face everyday and I feel this is why we have all the hate going on. I know homo is just a word just like queer or faggot but when it is said in a way that AJ used it 2 me its a hurtful word. Just like back in the 60's when people was using the word nigger as a hate word. I personally think all these words should be banned. Sirius has a gay channel and I listen 2 it a lot and have taken some of the things I heard on there and have shared them on this blog. I am all about freedom of speech but somewhere we have 2 draw the line. I am tired of being treated like I am a second class citizen and it's ok 2 use homo in a way that hurts. There are shows on Sirius that a person can listen 2 if they want 2 hear that crap but on a channel where a lot of different people listen is just wrong. I feel the Nascar channel and AJ Allmendinger owes me and the rest of the gay community an apology. I know I won't get it hell they won't even know that I wrote about this.
People please remember words do hurt and we need 2 change. There is nobody in this world any better than anybody else and when we all learn this we all can get along and the hate will stop. I do believe this.
I want 2 leave u with a Nascar video I found on You Tube I just think is cute. Kasey Kahne is in it along with Juan Montoya, David Stremme and my buddy Reed Sorenson so enjoy!
Well the weekend was ok I guess I mean Mikey is getting better as ya'll can tell. So I spent most of the weekend at rehab center with him. The people at rehab even let me help with some of his rehab not only that I have help them with a few other patients the lady in charge told me I might want 2 think of a career in rehab. With me being a swimmer the pool excise they have them do I have been a big help on and 2 be on honest I really have been enjoying helping out. Maybe its my calling I will have 2 check into it. Maybe something else good will come out of Mikey's accident.
A few things I want 2 get into while Mikey is down getting his walking in. There is this boy that's here and he tried 2 kill himself. He is one I been helping with well I got him talking a little yesterday and found out the reason he tried 2 kill himself. Yeah it's coz he is gay. I was just taking away for a sec and he could tell he ask you have a problem with gays? I told him lord no I am gay and my boyfriend was in here. He ask what happen and I told him. I had 2 ask him why did u feel your only option was 2 take your life? He thought for a second and said his parents disown him and he was thrown out. I said ok I ask again why you feel this was your only option?
He said I won't understand I said try me! He said he felt alone in the world felt like only way 2 feel loved was 2 give his body away. He said he got tired of living on the street and having sex just 2 eat. He was right I was even more blown away. Later that day I pushed Mikey down 2 his room so we could talk some more and we told him he don't need 2 feel that way anymore that there are people that care and there is places that can help and we would do whatever we could also. He cried a bit said he thinks God had somehow made sure he lived and found his way 2 us. I found out later he came from a Christian family and they now are in some sort of trouble over all this.
Course my parents are gonna do what they have 2 make sure this kid has a fair chance we talked about till the wee hours of the morning. I'll keep ya' ll updated on this kid also. Now for some freak out news while I am helping Mikey and others someone decided they wanted in my truck real bad so they broke a window and help themselves to stuff I had in there. Lets see I had my laptop in there I had some clothes in there some books some dvd's some money in the glove box (not much) All of this and they even had time 2 steal the radio and rear dvd player that was attached 2 the roof. Nobody seen a thing and nobody heard the alarm going off. I mean the stole my laptop dammit there were things on there not meant for anybody 2 see.
I have my old laptop but this one was kinda new. I told my Dad there were things on there that was meant not 2 been seen and he said well this should teach u not 2 keep things on a laptop coz there is always someone that want's your laptop more than you. I am like thanx Dad this makes me feel a whole lot better. So I had 2 tell Mikey this morning what happen he understands and kinda laugh at me told me I shouldn't keep things on there they should be kept on a disk. Ok Dad number 2 thanx! So I guess all I can hope for is thing don't get out right? I have learn a lesson don't trust damn car alarms they don't stop thief's from taking what they want. Hope your weekend was good!
I got an email from Dave a reader of this blog and I have 2 say he has made my day hell he has made my weekend! It seems that Shirley the bitch that left all them hateful comments on here has been arrested! Yes arrested and I for one am happy for this what's that old sayin "what comes around goes around" Here is the link 2 the story of her arrest. I think these people are nothing more than a cult that use the bible and a church to spew there hate and there teaching there kids 2 do the same thing. I for one am not in favor of the war or Bush but I and Mikey are behind are troops 100% there doing there job period. For someone to protest them or a funeral and to stomp on the American flag needs more being arrested I say throw there ass out of the country. Hell I feel like a second class citizen in my own country but I love America and I believe in time I will have the same rights as the rest as much as I get mad over this in this country I wouldn't want to live anywhere else!
Thanx Dave! Have a good weekend! Love from Atlanta!
Just wanted to tell everone thanks for the get well coments and emails. Ryan had been printing them out and reading to me everday when I couldnt get on the innernet. Now Im back even if its just for a litle bit each day. My therepys going good and geting stronger everday. Still my brain aint back to what it was. I get so pissed not knowing how to spell words. I can see there wrong but cant really remember how there spelled. Makes me feel realy stupid like I need another reson. I know i can use spell cheker but its like Im giving up and cheating. Anyawy it will get better with time as long as yall can read it and make since is all that matters. Thanks again for the get well wishes
When I think about Mikey I get this feeling inside me that I want 2 let him and the world know that he is my life. I know many people are single and wish for someone 2 love and I wish they find there soulmate I know sometimes people get tired of seeing me get all sappy when it comes 2 Mikey but I can't help it I love him so much! So Mikey If I couldn't love you I wouldn't be me! Make sure ya'll check in tomorrow!
Love from Atlanta!
If I never see your smile again, Or never woke to touch your skin. The truth would be so plain to see, If I couldn't love you, I wouldn't be me.
If the night couldn't kiss the morning sun, Like a river that has no place to run. God only knows where I might be, If I couldn't love you I wouldn't be me.
If you hadn't of come into my life, I'd be forever wondering why I never found my destiny. If I couldn't love you, I wouldn't be me.
And when the Master calls us home, I hope and pray our hearts live on And be as one eternity, Cause If I couldn't love you, I wouldn't be me.
God only knows where I might be, If I couldn't love you, I wouldn't be me.
If you hadn't of come into my life, I'd be forever wondering why I never found my destiny. If I couldn't love you, I wouldn't me by BRC
I have been doing a lot of reading and watching TV with Mikey. We watch a lot of Logo TV for those that don't know what Logo is its a gay network. They have a lot of great shows on there I never really got 2 watch a lot of TV before Mikey's accident just we always had a lot going on and TV just didn't fit into our time. So now with him in rehab we been watching a lot of TV. Now the reason for this post is as much as I like Logo and what they do on there network I am really ticked at there commercials. Seems like most of there commercials are to do with over weight people. I personally think this is not a good thing seems like in the gay community they except us 2 look a certain way well I think this is bull.
Mikey is always telling me I am 2 skinny and I try 2 gain weight but I can't now he always thinks he's 2 fat and I think he looks fine. Now the problem I have with these commercials is people don't need it throw in there face that there over weight they already know this. Now boflex is at the top of my list of bad commercials they have one where a guy says he gay all his fat clothes to his fat friends 2 me that is just wrong. People don't need reminded they are over weight they know this. Now I don't have a problem with commercials telling people about there products and that it might help them lose weight but every damn commercial is about over weight I just think the gay community makes people feel bad about themselves. They preach love one another and let's all get along but they pick and choose who they want 2 pick on.
I have a few friend that are over weight and they know it. They don't need my skinny ass telling them about it. They need support and they need 2 know they are beautiful just they way they are. These commercial bother me something awful. Over weight people don't need it throw in there face they carry there pain with them everyday just like me and my hearing I don't want people 2 look at me and think oh he's a retard coz he has hearing aids. We need 2 show love 2 everyone period no matter what they carry with them. I think Logo needs 2 rethink there commercials and put new 1's up I mean I just think it's bad for a skinny guy 2 sit there and say I gave all my fat clothes to my fat friends. To me that is just a terrible thing 2 do. Later this week I have a surprise 4 ya'll!
I have so much on my mind I just can't find the time 2 write it all down and post it so I can get ya'lls thoughts. So please bear with me I will get all my thoughts up. Before I get into what I want 2 talk about today I want 2 give an update on Mikey. He is doing better everyday seems 2 be better than the day before. He is still having troubles talking sayin some words walking is not coming along that great and his doctor thinks he might have 2 redo his ankle lets pray that is not the case. His head 2 hand is doing better than anything else. He does get upset quick coz he knows what he wants 2 say but cant get it out right and this makes him very angry. That's about it on Mikey for now still a long road ahead of us but we will get thru it. We have lots of people pulling and that is the best medicine in the world.
Ok I got an email from a reader who wanted 2 know how come we never talk about clubs and parting an such. First off Mikey is total against drinking if you read this blog for a while ya'll know why. If not let me sum it up Mikeys Dad was a drunk and was very mean 2 his Mom and him and the drinking finally killed his father. As for me I have had a few drinks now and then I have even went 2 a few clubs with a fake id just 2 check it out. I even had Mikey go so he could see what it was like. He didn't like it much and I could take it or leave it. I didn't mind it don't get me wrong and don't have nothing against people that go it's just if I am happy at home why do I need 2 be at these clubs.
In the email he also ask how could we settle when were so young? That's easy I found my soulmate most people look all there life and never find a soulmate. I have mine and I know it coz I just look at him and I melt I would die 4 him and I know he would 4 me. I know we are not your average gay people coz we found each other and we are happy so we don't need to look anymore. I also say what's wrong with settling down and making a life. There is more 2 life than a club or your next cock. My grandparents married when they were just kids and still together. My parents the same even tho they went thru a patch where it looked like they wasn't gonna make it but they worked it out and there making it. I think if people my age would try it they might find they like it.
