We've finally been able to send Ryan and Corey on a long trip. The Lunch Lady and The Spirit of Saint Lewis have this blog to ourselves. Enough of the young, cute ones commandering the world. It's time for the older goats (sorry Lunch Lady, I had to!) to get a chance to rock this blog!
Tomorrow is World AIDS Day. Don't forget to send out good thoughts and prayers to all of those around you who struggle and who need a good word. You'll find my story "When HIV Strikes Close to Home" Here. I hope you'll check it out.
And now, something that I'm not completely 100% proud of...but, hey, we're a work in progress, right?
Tomorrow is the big day so this is my last post for a little while. Don't worry I have a couple guest coming 2 do some posts 4 ya'll. Please show them the love u show me. Show them why u keep coming back everyday 2 read my little corner of the web world and why I have the best readers of any blog out there. Ok so I can get a little sappy sometimes but ya'll do mean the world 2 me more than I think u know. I plan on showin Corey the time of his life over in England I never seen anybody so happy in my life. I alreadt warn him about my Grandparent's and there tea time. We have 2 be there at tea time or all hell will break lose. I think Mom blows a gasket from time 2 time u should see Grandma when she blows hers haha! Like I said before I'll try 2 post from over there but don't hold me 2 it ok last time I did it didn't go well many reasons why main reason is I was so damn busy I didn't have the time and the other was the net at my Grandparent's house I had a hard time getting my laptop 2 work. Yes I could use there laptop but lets face they see me as a little boy and they don't like me touching there puter scared I will break it. I know but u know Grandparents haha. Guess that's it I need 2 finish getting things ready just know I will ya'll and make sure u show the love 2 Laurie and Lewisthe guest bloggers.
You reading this blog won't understand this post but I feel it's at the point now I can say this. Jake you know he love's you and would lay down his life for you and you for him. So what are you waiting on? True love only happens once don't let it slip away. Last night I heard him singing to you on the phone your more than a memory to him. It's time Jake it's time!
Every just wake up in a bad mood? Nobody did anything 2 ya your just pissed. Then u read the news maybe watch a little on TV and it makes things worse? Well that's how I feel today I am just in a pisses mood and no reason why and I'm really not mad at anyone just in a mood. If you didn't read my post over on One Love Blog I think that will put you in a mood for sure. Only good thing is the phone calls are coming in more and more and the news I got looks good so yeah that puts a smile on my face 4 sure. A few more days and me and Corey are off 2 England I will try 2 post from there but 2 be honest it won't be on my mind much and last year the connection really sucked. Beside we have a couple guest bloggers I think will do a good job while we are gone and just think of what I'll have 2 say when I get back. Oh I did get a new pair of pants over the weekend Mom thinks well I won't say what she thinks about them but I just love them there metallic they look like this I think I'll look hot in them over in England haha!
We went yesterday and got the family Christmas tree. We are planning on decorating it tonight. Dad always likes 2 sit it up and leave it over night so it can fall out he says. Mom normally don't go this early and get a tree but since me and Corey are leaving Friday she wanted 2 do it. See it's a must that the family do it together if we didn't we would have 2 deal with Mom and none of us want 2 do with a pissed off Mom. So how many of you already have your tree up? When we get back from England me and Corey is gonna put ours up something 2 look forward 2. Of course we will be back in Atlanta for Christmas another Mom rule. Me and Mom did the black Friday shopping I think she is pretty much done with Christmas shopping I did pick up a few things but I still have some 2 do besides I knew I would be buying stuff over in England so I didn't go 2 crazy. Did any of you go out on black Friday? Oh so you know I made that phone call I was talking about and it went great I have made a few more since turkey day things look good I think. Keep your fingers crossed for me on that topic! That's it for now just wanted 2 update a little Mom has my breakfast done. I know spoiled brat!
I had a Thanksgiving I will always remember. I will have more later I'm going out with Ryan's brother to ride the dirt bikes. Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. If your wondering where Ryan is one guess yes out with his mom shopping they were up and gone at 3am that's crazy!
Well, Corey started it so I guess I'll do a little of what I am thankful for. I'm thankful for my family for accepting me for who I'm am. I am thankful for finding Corey. I am thankful for all my blogging friends ya'll are the best in the world! I'm thankful for so called friends that tell me they love me and then take an email I sent them and put on another blog 2 make fun of me. I'm thankful for sending an email 2 so called friends and tryin 2 make peace for them 2 never write back. I'm thankful for those so called friends who think I am a spoiled brat and my parents need 2 cut the strings. I am very thankful for Mikey!
Happy Thanksgiving 2 all my true friends! Laurie Lewis Ed Uncle Gerry Cheeky Elise Patti Jimm Carl Martin Gomad Polt Reed Dan Matt Tim Jerico James
I felt like the day that I met Ryan & Mike I was blessed but little did I know how much this was true. I was dealt a nasty hand of cards in life but I was determined to play the hand out. I am not one to bitch and complain about life and what has happened to me I just deal with it. I think a few of you may know about my past but those who don't I will tell a little about it. My family kicked me out and disowned me when they found out I was gay. I did things on the streets of Tampa that I am not proud of but when you have nothing you do what you have to do to survive. I met Ryan & Mike on the beach and my life changed that day for the good. Mike is no longer here as you all know and I miss him a lot but I do still talk to him weekly. My childhood was never that good in the first place because father & mother both are drunks and drugheads but yet they judge me but whatever. So Thanksgiving time wasn't that big of a deal in my house it was just a long party weekend for them. A normal turkey dinner with all the fixings we never had but I do remember once going to a church for Thanksgiving dinner but that was as close to normal as it came for me. Brings me to this year being here with Ryan and his family and seeing the love they have for each other and all the things they do together as a family. It shows me that there is hope and the fact they open their hearts and invited me into their family is just more than I know how to say. I can say I am thankful for meeting Ryan and having him as my friend and my brother. And for his family for showing me what Thanksgiving is all about. Sorry for being so sappy I'm not a good writer and I'm not good at telling my feelings but I just want Ryan to know how much this all means to me.
Miami I am so glad I am away from there. So much went on there and so much feelings and theft and drama. Just chill I am gonna get 2 it all. First we get there I call my friend tell him were at the gate he comes out 2 get us and take us 2 the media center 2 get our id's so we wont have issues right? Well we get 2 the media center they tell my friend that he could only have one guest coz he didn't call ahead. I know this is bullshit coz he called from my house. So he is going off on this lady and calls his boss and he shows up and gets it all handle so we think. We head back 2 his bus and Barney Fife the same one Kasey had problems with stops us and informs us we can't go in there we have the wrong id's we have press id's not visitor's id's. I am like you have 2 fucking kidding me at this point I am like go home Ryan it's only gonna get worse. Anyway we went back got the right id's after another small fight finally get to the rv for some rest.
Next morning we decided we would all go and have breakfast. My buddy was gonna pay we always take turns when we all go out like that. Well I paid with my Daddy issued gold master card (everyone should have one of these) Anyway we get back 2 the track and my friend had 2 go 2 work so we decided 2 walk around check out all the trailers of the other drivers and I found some things I wanted so with my Daddy issued card I paid for these items. Later we had lunch and then some hot dogs soda some more buying stuff I didn't really need all with this Daddy issued credit card. We get home last night my Dad called me and ask what the hell was going on with the credit card? I ask what do you mean? Seems like somebody in Miami wasn't being honest and stole my credit card number and there is charges from all over the place on there hell there was a charge in California at a walmart for over 780.00 dollars and tell me how in the hell they do that? Not only that they racked up a total of 6230.00 before it was stopped. Now my Dad is trying 2 track them down and I am without a credit card Daddy issued type. (sorry have 2 throw that up 2 all those who say I am a spoiled brat)
Last but not least my feelings yeah I have them and they are so worked up right now I just don't know. Yeah ya'll know what it's about and it's just killin me. That's all I am saying right now about but I am thinkin about callin on Thanksgiving Day what could it hurt right? Well, later tonight me and my posse will be leaving headed 4 Atlanta. Seems like all our family is there and Corey is going also he is family his family turn there back on him shame for them coz I got another great little Brother. My friend is going 2 his parents house 4 Thanksgiving then were gonna do some partying before we head off 2 England. Guess that's about it for my weekend. Like I said I am so glad 2 be out of Miami!
This weekend is the last race for Nascar until February last race of the year for those that don't know is in Miami, Florida and yes I am gonna be there. Me and Corey will be going down tomorrow I can't wait. We are staying with a friend in his RV so that should be fun. I haven't been feeling 100% so I just been taking easy hoping it don't turn into the flu or something. Speaking of feeling ill I want to send out warm thoughts for Patti she has some ear troubles and I know all 2 well about that. She has 2 have some surgery done so if you can go over and wish her the best she is good people. I have gotten some emails and ask me thoughts on the Bratboy School scam I would rather just answer that in emails than waste my blog on that. I will say what a shame I never had any love for that blog and it was well know but a scam like that and it's hurt many people just sucks.
Ok I have some holiday gift ideas if your not sure what 2 get somebody on your list and it will help some good causes.
The shirts and hat you can get for $20 bucks (I order the green one for myself) The wrist band you can get 3 for $10 or 6 for $18 You can click on the pic it will take you to there site.
Next is Humane Society Christmas cards there different prices so go 2 there website 2 check that out. You also click on the pics it will take you 2 there site.
It's hard 2 believe that Thanksgiving is almost on us. We will be going home 2 Atlanta for the holiday. My Mom would be so pissed if we didn't so Mom we will be there! The big news I have is every year I go over 2 England and visit my Grandparents normally right after Thanksgiving this year is no different. This year I am taking Corey with me he is so happy he has never been anywhere other than Florida and Georgia. Now for some more big news last year I had guest writers on this blog while I was gone this year I will do the same this year I ask Laurieand Lewis if they would do it and they both agree I think they both will add good writings 2 this blog. So look for there post starting the end of the month and show them both some love.
I have been working on some other things soon as they are set in stone I'll talk about them. Also I wanted 2 let ya'll know that the money this blog makes in the ads I never keep. Let me explain I take the money from the ads and give it away I give 2 the Matthew Shepard Foundation I also give 2 many Animal Foundation like Pca, Peta, Human Society. I never keep the money for myself and never will. Some ads on this site Like Matthew Shepard or any Animal Foundation I never charge for ads on this blog and never will. I feel they should be on this blog for free cause I believe in there cause. Now I have used some of the money 2 help people that were a little down on there luck a few of u that comment know what I am talking about. I just feel if I can help a fellow human when there down then I should. I just wanted 2 clear up where the money goes from this blog.
A few blogs we all know are in some trouble right now for scamming people out of money and I would never do that I never ask for money I only take money for ads. Also I have another blog some of you know about it's called It's Raining Men. Now this blog is going through some changes and people will be leaving this blog it's a group blog what I would like is any of the readers 2 this blog would like 2 be a part of that blog email me and let me know. It don't matter if your gay or not if you support gay people then I want u on the blog. So please go check it out and if u think u want 2 be a part of it let me know I would love 2 add all of u 2 it. If u do become part of it u don't have 2 post on it everyday maybe once a week would be great. Just let me know. I am also thinking about changing the name so if u have ideas on a name let me know that also. That's all for today folks.
Why is it that I meet people that seem like really cool people someone I want 2 be friends with then they turn around and stab me in the back first chance they get. I don't understand this am I that bad on judging people? Or maybe do I just have a face that says come be my friend I am easy 2 make friends with and when I am down u can kick the shit out of me. I don't know but it's getting old and I am getting tired of making friends that do this 2 me. People ask how come your trust of people is very short I always say been hurt 2 many times by people who claim they love me or claim 2 be my friend. I am so over friends!
Oh this part is just 4 me and a few people in the blog world let's see your school president is caught up in a big lie and scandal but yet I was the one that ya'll claim was fake all I can do is sit back and laugh and say I am still standing! God I love this!
I want 2 say thanx sometimes u just need someone 2 say get over it and stop the damn crying already. Your point is well taken and this time I needed it. But let me say this u bitches sometime I need 2 have a pity party for myself ok haha ya'll know I love ya! We don't have any weekend plans 2 speak just kinda sit back take it easy. I don't think I'll be posting this weekend takin a break from it also but make sure u tune in Monday I got some big things 2 spill.
I woke up this morning feeling a bit sad then I did some of my normally web surfing and read something that even mad me sadder. Last few days I been on cloud nine but I know it anit meant 2 last. Hell look my record I truly believe I am not meant 2 be happy. Anyway I heard this song and it just about says what I feel so please for give but I am gonna put up the lyrics I know it drives some of you crazy but it's how I feel and I can't say it any better.
Later!
I said the night you left me, Nothin' worse could ever happen, But seeing you with someone else proved that I was wrong. And when your eyes met mine, I knew that you were gone forever, Along with all the reasons , I had for hanging on. I'd be better off in a pine box, On a slow train back to Georgia, Or in the grey walls of a prison doing time. I think I'd rather die, And go to hell and face the devil, Than to lie here with you and him together on my mind.
I always thought that someday, We might get back together. I just thought you needed time to spread your wings and fly. But when I saw the lovin' way, You held onto each other, It was all that I could do, not to break right down and cry.
I'd be better off in a pine box, On a slow train back to Georgia, Or in the grey walls of a prison doing time. I think I'd rather die, And go to hell and face the devil, Than to lie here with you and him together on my mind.
I'd be better off in a pine box, On a slow train back from Georgia, Or in the grey walls of a prison doing time. I think I'd rather die, And go to hell and face the devil, Than to lie here with you and him together on my mind.
I can't lie here with you and him together on my mind
Well I am leaving Atlanta tonight going back 2 my home in the Sunshine State oh the house my parents paid for. (always need 2 throw that up 4 my fans) Anyway I am taking a few people back with me. Corey of course he's my side kick and I need 2 have him there with me but my friend who just lost his boyfriend decided a change is what he needs so he's come back and Aaron coming down also for a few weeks! Woo freaken hoo! Yes this makes me happy very happy seems we have hit it off again and for once it nice 2 have a cock that is normal sorry for throwing that out there but damn uncut is hot but after a while a boy just wants something normal without all the extra know what I mean? Well since I am being nasty might as well make this my nasty post. Omg the sex with Aaron is better than the first time we did it. That could be we both were kids then and have had a few people since we did but damn the boy sure knows how 2 rock it now! My word he was giving me orgasm after orgasm and I anit talkin about shooting a wad either trust me people! Sorry if that's 2 much info but damn I missed this boy. Guess that's enough 4 today now I got all u gay guys work up and all u ladies throwin up.
What a surprise I got yesterday I don't know if ya'll remember when I first started blogging 4 years ago I was dating Aaron. Well yesterday I ran into Aaron and it wasn't as bad as I always thought it would be if I ran into him. It was a good warm feeling damn he is still as cute as ever and I so wanted 2 kiss him right there on the sidewalk. We talk 4 a bit I introduced him 2 Corey and then he ask if I wasn't busy later maybe we could do dinner or something. With all that's been going on I thought yes I can do dinner. So he said he would call and he did Corey likes hanging with my Brother so he didn't mind so Aaron came out and picked me up. We went 2 are favorite restaurant and we talked like it was old times. It felt so good and so right I didn't know how much I missed him in my life.
We took a walk after dinner and talked some more about things that were going on in our lives. I found out he is single. He was surprised I lived in Florida he thought I would never cut the strings. I told him even though I live in another state don't mean them strings are cut haha but he said he was proud anyway. I invited him down of course he said yes he would love that. Then out of the blue he did something I didn't except he reach and took my hand he look at me and said I missed you. OK so I started crying right then and there yeah I am a big cry baby I can't help it. We walk and held hands and it was like time had never passed. We ended up back at the car and he was taken me home when we pulled up to the farm we were sitting there in the car and kissing I did something that shouldn't surprise many of u I ask him 2 stay the night with me.
Well he did that's all I am gonna say!
Well I must go I need 2 get ready today is gonna be a hard day I am tryin real hard 2 leave all the drama off here for a while seems like it's all I have been posting. Anyway thanx again for being my friends!
It's been a stressful weekend as many of you probable could guess. My friend is very upset and his Dad has had people talking with him but he is blaming himself right now. I myself don't know what 2 say all I can try 2 do is be here for him. I know the next few days are going 2 be real bad. I am hoping I can get him 2 come 2 Florida 4 a while 2 take his mind off everything. I want 2 say thanx 4 all the love and support u have sent in comments and emails. I know I have told u before but that means the world 2 me. I myself don't understand this and I guess I never will I know things get tuff on people but I don't think this is the answer. I remember in school being pick on 4 being the smallest having hearing aids and wearing glasses sometimes I got picked on a lot. Many times I cried and played sick so I didn't have 2 go 2 school I even had the thought in my head but could never do it. My ears have been giving me a fit while I been here also I scatch one so much I got it bleeding my Mom got pissed at me but damn sometimes it just drives me crazy. It's funny I was telling Corey last night something about being home back in my room and in my bed I felt safe.
Yesterday me and Corey were out having lunch when I got a phone call from a friend in Atlanta. He was very upset and crying I was trying 2 get him 2 calm down so I could understand why he was so upset. He told me his boyfriend was gone. I didn't understand what he meant by gone then he finally told me that the night before they broke up and sometime in the same night his boyfriend killed himself. I was lost for words I for once didn't know what 2 say. So I am back in Atlanta here for my friend 4 as long as he needs me. I was up most the night with him. I don't understand what can make a 21 year old boy think life is not worth living. This has me so sad I just don't understand. On the way up here we had on Sirius satellite radio and this song came on it was so sad but had some truth 2 it I feel I need 2 post it. I will have more info on this as I can let it out.
Sad in Atlanta!
Little child Dry your crying eyes How can I explain The fear you feel inside cause you were born Into this evil world Where man is killing man and no one knows just why
What have we become Just look what we have done All that we destroyed You must build again
When the children cry Let them know we tried cause when the children sings The new world begins
Little child You must show the way To a better day For all the young cause you were born For the world to see That we all can live In light and peace
No more presidents And all the wars will end One united world under god
When the children cry Let them know we tried cause when the children sings The new world begins
What have we become Just look what we have done All that we destroyed You must build again
No more presidents And all the wars will end One united world under god
When the children cry Let them know we tried cause when the children fight Then we know it ain´t right When the children break Let them know we´re awake ´cause when the children sings The new world begins
