Ryan's Life

I want 2 talk about a hot topic if I may. I want 2 talk about porn! Ok now I got your attention don't scroll down just 2 see my nudie pics. Haha j/k but really I haven't told everything about Corey coz I felt it wasn't my place 2 and I thought Corey would post more on here but he has decided 2 more on with his life and put the past behind him. No he didn't move from my parents house he is still there and he slept in my bed with me and we cuddle. No Mikey is not jealous he knows where my heart is. What I mean about Corey is he told me it was ok 2 talk about this but he don't want 2 it's in his past and there he want's 2 keep it.

Now the reason I am bringing this up coz it might help another young person I know. Seems this kid is already online selling his body for people 2 watch. What I mean is he is jacking off and gosh only knows what else. The problem is he thinks he can make a living at this. Now there is many things wrong with this first off once you show yourself naked online it will follow you until you die it never goes away trust me I speak of this coz I know. I did something stupid when I was 16 and it comes back now and again and bites me in the ass when I think it's about over.

Another point and I am not talking bad about this person at all it's just a point. But most of you remember Ethan/Gerald the brat boy school well his point for the website was 2 make him more know so he could get modeling jobs well that's what he said well he did get one with a underwear company until his lies caught up with him. What I am saying even if you have a perfect body and a pretty face don't mean you will make it. This kid I know is thinking about starting a website with cams all around the house but he don't understand any money he makes he has 2 pay taxes on.

Brings me back 2 Corey he did something in his past he is not happy about but something were done so he won't go hungry and I can totally understand this. I myself would do some crazy shit for food. But one thing Corey did was he was in one of those dorm houses with live feed hoping that someone seen him that would turn him into some star or something that's what he said they paid him 200.00 a week he had free room and board but he had 2 pay taxes on that money. Guess what happen after he got a year older and they found someone a year younger that's right he was ass out.

All I am sayin is the porn business I don't think its all it's crack up 2 be. Think about do you know any porn stars that are rich? I know a few personally and they are ass broke. Hell look at Ben Bradley Ethan's ex he selling underwear now you think if there was money in the porn business he still wouldn't be doing that? So I say 2 that 19 year kid that is stroking your cock on xtube stop it and go get a real job. Maybe someday your true love will find you and then you have to tell him you were a net slut and he then dumps you is it worth it? Just stop and get yourself a real job the little money your making now will dry up then what u gonna do?

Later from Atlanta!

Ok I got Mikey hook on Idol and he has me hook on Big Brother. I am gonna do a post about Idol and when and if he feels like it he can do one on Big Brother. Anyway our pick 2 win American Idol is David Archuleta he is only 17 years old and stole the hearts of many young girls and older girls I'm sure as well as all the gay boys out there. Now without sounding like a freak coz we are older than 18 not but much but we are. David is one little hottie! But that is not the reason we have picked him well it's part of it but he really can sing also. Yes it don't hurt him at all that he is well so dreamy! Do any of you watch Idol or Big Brother what do you think? I would love 2 hear your thoughts on them shows.


Oh lets not forget about Danny Norriega he is very good but I don't think he will win it. Oh Danny whatever you do don't let that flame go out we are pulling for you also! His flame burns so bright for all of us!
Later from Atlanta!

I got all these emotions going on inside me. Then I got all these people telling me what's best for me. I know there just helping but after a while a person kinda gets tired of hearing it ya know? Anyway last night Mikey called and I wasn't in the best moods and I think maybe he wasn't having a great day either well we talked for a little bit and he started asking me have I take my meds have I eaten did I go 2 the doctor? Well I kinda lost it and went off on him. We both got mad and hang up the phone well when it comes 2 little fights we are both hard head and giving in is not something we either do. Normally I am the one that gives in but this time Mikey beat me 2 the punch he sent me a text and said check your email. So I went and check it and I found this pic.
Under the pic it said my Daddy is very sorry that he upset you. You know we both love you and miss you! OK I lost it right then and there and I was crying like a little baby. Mom came in said what's wrong I said look at the email when she did yep you guessed it she cried also. So I called Mikey right away and told him I was sorry I just got a lot going on in my head. He said he understood but just wants me healthy and I know this just pressure got 2 me is all. There is a song that has this line in it and now I can see how true it is. Course I change the he part coz in the song it says she but its all about he 2 me!

No one can make me cry
Make me laugh
Make me smile
Or drive me mad like he does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse, one thing's for sure
It's real love and I don't know what I'd do
If I lost it.
Later from a cold Atlanta!

I'm finally home but I am not a happy camper I tell ya that. This time it was worse than it's been in like forever and yes I know it's my own fault. Mikey is back home he missed enough work and school over me. I have 2 stay here in Atlanta for a while coz my doctors are here and everyone thought it be the best that I did stay. Course I wanted 2 go home with him but he talked me into stayin here and he will be back this weekend. The infection I had in my body this time they said was hard for my body 2 fight so that's why I had 2 stay a little longer in the hospital than normal. You should see these big horse pills I have 2 take yuck!

On this is 2 someone very special that email u sent me with the virus in it well it didn't work and I am not sure if your aware of it but you can and will go 2 jail for shit like that. Do you realize what my Dad does for a living? Well guess what he is on your ass now! When he take u down I am gonna post all your info right on this blog u tried 2 take down!

That's it for today people I am still a little weak so I'm gonna go rest.
Thanx 4 all the emails and ecards and comments they mean the world 2 me!
Later from Atlanta!

Hey everybody I'm sorry for not letting yall know sooner about Ryan but I just been busy at the hospital with him. Corey was suppose to let yall know something but hes got his head up somebodys ass and to busy. Anyway Ryans doing better and if things go well hes going to be moved to another room Friday. So he will be able to have his laptop then. Ill try to do better with the updates from now on. Now Im off to get a shower and grab a sandwich then head back to the hospital.

Just wanted to let you know that Ryan is in the hospital. He went to the doctor this morning and they admitted him. Mike is on his way here now. I think Ryan just pushed himself to much this time. Me or Mike will let you know more as we know more. I just left the hospital a little while ago and he wanted me to let everyone know he would be ok. He ask for his laptop but he can't have it in the room he is right now soon as he can I will take it to him maybe everyone can leave him a message here to show him how much we care for him.

Thanks.
Corey

You know I been open about pretty much everything in life on this blog from my health issues 2 my fight with depression. Now I need to vent just a little having a weak immune system just down right sucks. I know I have no right 2 bitch when there is people out there in worse shape than I am. But it just seems 2 me I have been dealt with a few more problems than most from the immune system to hearing problems lets don't forget the diabetes. I am just sick of it I really am! Yes I was disappointed I didn't get 2 go 2 the race but I know I need 2 take care of myself coz just like Mom & Mikey ya'll would be all over me for not doing so! hehe that's not a bad thing I'm just sayin and I love u 2! Anyway I am just sick of being sick so I am gonna stay home again today and rest and go tomorrow and Sunday then I promised Mikey & Mom I would go 2 Atlanta and see our family doctor.

Have a Good Weekend!
Later!

I didn't go to the 125's today even tho I wanted 2. Cole was ok with it he is enjoying the warm weather and the pool. I am feeling like shit so I listen 2 Mikey and stayed home so I can go this weekend. Oh if you want 2 know what I got Mikey for Valentines Click on his link!

Later!

Mom took me to the doctor today oh I didn't tell ya she came down here 2 spend a few days with us. Anyway I'm not feeling well and the flu was running wild over at the track. My doctor gave me a shot and told me I should stay away from the track and a group of people. I looked at him and he could tell coz he said your not going to listen are you? I am like hell no it's the 50th running of the Daytona and I will be there! He ask me to please stay away from the 125's tomorrow but I don't know it I can. He also ask me to wear a mask when out in public to help cut down on viruses that are out there I tell ya having a weak immune system sucks ass! My cytokines th2 count is low for those that don't know that's what the hell that is it's antibodies and mine is low and can't fight off anything right now. This shit just sucks is all I been waiting for this race and now my body want's to let me down fuck this pisses me off so bad. Now I am fighting with Mom & Mikey and got Cole in the other ear.All I know is I'm going 2 the race and this post is my Valentine post for Mikey. I won't be able 2 post tomorrow coz I'll be at the track so Mikey Happy Valentine's Day! You know how much I Love You! Tonight your Uncle will be bringing your Valentine's gift over 2 ya. For those that are wondering what I got him well you will have 2 tune into his blog and wait for him 2 post about. Trust me he will post about coz it's gonna be so special he's gonna wanna tell the world about it!Mikey I Love You Happy Valentine's Day Babe!Happy Valentine's Day hope ya'll are as happy and in love as I am!
Later!

I am having a good time here in Florida I missed my friends from down here. I haven't been feeling the best last couple days just hope I'm not catching a cold. The flu was running wild over at the track just my luck it ran right into me. Well I need some help I already talked 2 Mikey but I want 2 get your thoughts on this. A few years ago I had a lesbian couple ask me to help them make a baby I decided back then it wasn't a good idea for me at the time. Well a couple me and Mikey know down here ask me yesterday if I would and I told them I would think about it and let them know. What do ya'll think? They did tell me when and if me and Mikey wanted kids they would help us out I have no doubt they would I just need some input on this. Also my interview is up on Best Gay Blogs I think you should go read it leave a comment or 2 it's a side of me ya'll haven't see much and I open up a lot in the interview so go check it out. Damn I miss Mikey!

Later!

Just a quick update we made it 2 Daytona just fine. Only thing I wish Mikey was here with us. It's good seeing all the cars again and geeting back into the racing season. You just got 2 love a state that shorts and flip flops are wore all the time!

Have a great weekend!
Later!

Oh Mikey got a new post up check it out!

Later today me and Cole will be flying out of Charleston headed to Daytona. Saturday night is the Budweiser Shootout this is the first time Reed has been in it so wish him luck hope he wins it! Were gonna stay the week gonna go over to the house in Tampa show Cole around that area a little then come back to Daytona for the twins 125's on Thursday. We then will stay in Daytona until Sunday evening then we will be flying back to Charleston. A week without Mikey man I know I don't want 2 do it but I know I will have fun at the races and this is Cole's first time and 2 get him in places people can't normally go unless you know somebody will be cool. Me and Mikey are planning on some other races together this summer. Yes Patti Darlington is on our list! hehe Oh Best Gay Blogs is doing another interview on me I had a nice interview with Ryan Fields about my depression post. That's why he wanted to do another interview that I was open about it and maybe it could help someone else who is dealing with it. I think he said Monday or Tuesday they would post it I'll let ya know soon as it is up. Well that's it 4 me kids I am out of here and headed into the redneck pits!
Have a good weekend don't forget pull for Reed 2 win Saturday night!

Later!

Family Upset About Sign In Neighbor's Yard

Sam Penrod reporting

A cardboard sign is hanging in a tree, directed at a boy with developmental disabilities, and the boy's mother isn't happy.

Neighbor: "I'm not taking the sign down, last night was the first night of peace we've got in a long ----- time."

Carrie Heaton, Colton's Mother: "They've put up this sign now, that we feel is very discriminatory against my son."

The cardboard sign is hanging in a tree in the Central Utah town of Nephi.

It is also being denounced tonight by advocates for the disabled.

The boy's family noticed the sign pointed at their home on Wednesday night, and tonight it is still there. That's despite our visit to the neighbors who put it up.

Advocates for the disabled are outraged, calling it insensitive and in the same category as a racial slur.
Carrie Heaton, Nephi Resident: "You are a good guy."

Colton Heaton: "Yes I'm a good guy

Carrie Heaton, Nephi Resident: "Yes you are... Pats"

13-year-old Colton Heaton is developmentally delayed. His mother says he is more like a three year old.

Carrie Heaton, Nephi Resident: "He looks normal but once you start talking to him, you can see he has these problems and he's just a loving little guy, he thinks we're just a great big family."But now a cardboard sign is hanging in their neighbor's tree -- spray painted with the words: "Caution-- Retards in Area." His mother says it is fortunate Colton can't read the words.

As we were filming the sign, we could see the neighbors who put it up were outside, so we approached them for their side of the story.

Sam Penrod, Eyewitness News: "Why did you put that sign up?

Neighbor: "I've been harassed for six months, my daughter has been assaulted."Sam Penrod, Eyewitness News "By who?"



Neighbor: "The young boy, we got pictures and everything and they would not press charges because he is handicapped."

The neighbor claims Colton threw a rock at his young daughter. Other neighbors told us they have frequently found Colton wandering onto their property.

Still, the Disability Law Center says using offensive words is the wrong way to handle a difficult situation.

Fraser Nelson, Executive Director, Disability Law Center: "People with disabilities are probably the last group for whom we continue to use language that is hurtful and offensive. Instead of being someone who is mentally retarded, you are a person with a developmental disability and that means really what we are valuing is the person."

Tom Brownlee, Advocate for those with Disabilities: "When I was growing up, people always used that word in front of me and called me retarded."

Someone who knows how hurtful that word can be is Tom Brownlee, who today is an advocate for those with disabilities.

Tom Brownlee, Advocate for those with Disabilities: "I hate that word, it was very offensive and I just want them to see that people with disabilities deserve the respect that they are entitled to."

Both Brownlee and Nelson are hoping the community will stand up against any behavior that lessens the role of people with disabilities in society.

Fraser Nelson, Executive Director, Disability Law Center: "Regardless of cognitive disability I may have, I'm a person and people do not deserve to have signs pointed at them, making fun of them, scaring them, harassing them."We contacted Nephi Police and they are working with the Juab County Attorney -- who told me tonight -- he finds it distasteful and derogatory and is researching what legal options may be available, since the neighbors still refuse to take the sign down.

The Disability Law Center is planning to meet with local officials to offer sensitivity training there in Nephi.








Ryan Say:
I posted this first over at One Love blog today and it's been on my mind all day. There are questions I have and I know I won't get answers for but I am gonna ask them anyway. First they say that Colton was throwing rocks at there daughter my question is why was he doing this? Maybe because the daughter is like her parents or over heard her parents talking about Colton saying he is retarded (I hate that word btw) and she was making fun of him. His way of reacting is throwing a rock at her maybe I don't know. But to me it seems like whatever the problem was I would bet it came from the daughter and Colton was just defended himself. Next the neighbors say they found him on there property who cares he is a kid and kids do that hell my parents got a lot of property around there house in Georgia and I know kids are on it all the time playin shit that's what kids do I know I did. Seems to me there is a lot of hate going on out there over Colton all I have to say to any of them people walk a day in his shoes just one day! He will never be able to do the things that they do or there kids do. His Mom will never see him get married, finish school, have a good job and what happens to him when his parents are gone bet they never think about that. Like I said walk a day in his shoes and see then if you put a sign up in your yard. All I can say is white trash at it's best. I can only feel a small bit of pain that Colton feels I think Jimm can feel me on this I know the feeling of getting pick on for having hearing aids and for wearing glasses being the small kid in the class. Until we stop all this hate and that is what this is to me is just hate then we as Americans will never better ourselves. We need better crime laws and discrimination laws. In the Declaration of Independence is says All Men Are Created Equal that's what is says but if you handicapped, gay, a women, black or poor then your not. Just makes me sad very sad I sure hope Colton don't have to put up with hate all his life!

Later!

Normally I wouldn't bitch about this but I am so angry right now I have 2 get it off my chest. BANK OF AMERICA SUCKS! And today the lost a customer not just me but my family. My Dad is in Atlanta as I write this transferring our money 2 a different bank. I wish I could go into details about what happen coz it is so simple but Dad I know would have a fit talkin about our business on here. Just take my word for these big banks like Bank of America suck and they don't give a shit about there customers all they car about is making a buck. Ya know I hope they are the bank that hold all the liens on these houses people are loses. Yes Ryan can be mean when he needs 2 be and Bank of America is on my shit list! I know it don't matter coz I'm just one person and they have millions of customers but now as of today they have one family less.


Other than that my day is going good. I might be flyin 2 Daytona this Saturday with Mikey for the Budweiser shootout. After is where I am stuck on do I fly back or just stay in Florida for the twin 125's on Thursday the 14th and the 500 that Sunday or fly back and then fly back down on Wednesday. Shit I don't know can I go a week without Mikey that will hard 2 do.

Later!

Happy Birthday Day old man haha yeah I know your just one year older than me but you always will be! Make sure next time you put me on hold you don't forget about me and I promise not 2 hang up! ha ha

See Ya in Daytona!

Later!

When you look at these pics what do you see? How do they make you feel? I'll be back later today and let you know how they make me feel.

Later!

Well is everyone ready for some football? I thought I would do a quick post Mikey and Cole are in fixin breakfast. That should turn out good haha. Just kidding Mikey is a great cook and his gravy is 2 die for. My Grandparents sent me some tea over from England I had 2 cups last night gonna have a cup for breakfast just something about England tea. Well we don't have any plans today just gonna watch the super bowl. Ok I am pulling for the giants I really don't like either team but something about Eli I just like besides I think he looks better than his brother. Mikey pulling for the giants also coz he is a Miami fan and don't want the patriots beating there record. That's about it for us just gonna kick back watch a few movies until the game comes on. What ya'll doing today on this super sunday?


Later!

I did a post over a year ago or so about the troops I just want 2 make it clear that I totally support the troops. There doing what they are ask to do. I got an email from a soldier over in Iraq it caught me off guard a bit I didn't know that my little blog was being read clear over there. He did tell me that in fact my blog was read over there and not only by him. This does my heart good 2 know I might put a smile on a soldiers face. He also sent me some pics and ask if I would post them. Yes I will any of you guys over there ever want anything posted on this blog please just email me and I will be more than happy 2 put anything ya'll send me on this blog. If you want your name out there I will do it not I will keep it quiet so you wont have 2 worry about that.

I just want 2 say again how much I support you for what your doing. I know some of you feel like me and this war is un called for but you do your job anyway. I respect you so much for I know I couldn't do it. It's not that I wouldn't try I know they wouldn't take me and it's not coz I'm gay it's health reasons. I think soon that don't ask don't tell crap will be over and you gay soldiers can serve openly. The way it should be. Please those who read this post this one anit like the military post I did before. It has nothing to do with what's right or what's wrong with this war this post is about the soldiers that are over there fighting. So please comment and let the soldiers who read this blog know we support them and wish them well and hope they all come home soon!

Later!
One more thing Mikey has a new post up go check it out!

Thanks Again Bryce!