It's been a while sent I did a post like this but sometimes it just has to be done. So today is my rant post and I'm just gonna let the rant's flow makes me feel better. If you have any on your chest feel free to let them flow also I promise you will feel better.
1. Yo Michigan driver that cut me & Kadin off this morning you should be happy Kadin was driving for I would have taking my BIG SUV and drove it straight up your ass! Yeah the one with bigger toys wins!
2. Richard Petty I know you don't own the majority of RPM but you still have a say I don't understand why you didn't open your mouth. I always liked you but I lost respect for you picking AJ or Elliott over Reed and not only that jumping to ford. Shame on you RPM remember karma is a bitch and when your only star Kasey Kahne jumps to the 24 car after next season what will you have then a bunch of losers for drivers. RPM YOU SUCK!!!
3. The gay guy at Bells department store I understand pride and being who you are trust me I do. Equal rights, pride marches and all that I am all for but you take the cake on being way too gay ok! If you feel between your legs your still a boy and you still have balls why don't you use them for something besides rubbing. If you ever address me as girl again I will slapped the shit out of you period ok I have a cock and balls and proud of them. So start acting like you do or I'll make you a girl cut cut slice right off!
4. Normally I don't say anything to people about there looks it rude and it's not me I was pick on when I was a kid so I know how it hurt feelings and self esteem. But for the fat kid at KFC that told me and Kadin that we make him sick with are little skinny bodies let me tell you this maybe if you would only get a 2 piece instead of the whole bucket maybe you could be skinny too! Hello fat ass out the drum stick down and take a walk.
5. For my dip shit friend that is love with a guy that's just using him but he's to blind to see it when you had enough of being used just remember I told you so. Normally I would support you no matter what but when you told me to fuck off mind my own business well that's just what I will do but just remember fair play and all I have to say is I told you so. He won't leave his boyfriend for you he's has done this in the past to other people as long as you put out he will be there but when you give him a choice between you and his boyfriend you will lose how do I know this his record for one and you don't have what his boyfriend has. What is that you ask it's called money see he's what we call a gold digger.
6. Lady at Dunkin Donuts piece of advice a little make up goes a long way k. The 80's are over time to come to the future were nice here we got cookies and shit!!!
Thank God Joey is ok and Reed too as you can see in the video it was just one of those racing deals. You could point fingers at many but I think nobody was to blame just racing. For those that think Nascar is a joke take a ride like Joey did then talk to me.
Sorry I haven't been on here or posted anything been really busy with working 2 jobs and spending the rest of the time with Kadin. Also my best friend been dealing with a lot of drama so I am trying to be there for him when I can. Oh I was going to speak on that white kid on the bus thing and I still might sometime but more I think about the madder I get and I'm sure if I speak on it and speak my mind I might make some of you mad and you will hate me. Maybe for now I need to think about it some more and answer it when I think it out. Somebody sent me an email and I'm sorry slipping my mind now who it was that ask how Mikey and my Parents were with all the rain in the Atlanta area they are fine I talked with them daily well my Parents and they talk with Mikey so all is well up there thanks for asking about them. I have so much more I want to talk about just need more time I will try this weekend to get something in ok.
Martin ask: What’s the first thing you usually think when you get up in the morning? Well first thing I think of is thanking God for giving me one more day.
Jimm ask: Besides your parents, who were your role models while growing up, and why? I didn't have many honest but one that I looked up to and still do is my Uncle on my Mom's side. He is also gay like me disowned by our family but it didn't stop him from being happy and making something good out of his life. My Mom never turn her back on him and he would visit us at holidays and I remember thinking I want to be like him when I grow up. Maybe that's why I moved here to Florida to be close to him he lives a few houses from me I can't never see my life without him in it. I hope he knows how proud of him I am.
Angel ask: How old were you when you had your first sexual encounter? Well I was rather young I don't want to get anyone in trouble not sure anything can be done about it now or not but I was 8 and he 13. Now before anyone jumps and starts blaming I wanted it. I knew back then I was gay and had feelings and I was in love with him as much as an 8 year old could be. He didn't force anything I want to make that clear I wanted to do it as much as he did. We did it on and off for a few years after the first time until his dad found out and freak out and sent him away he was never the same after that.
Carl ask: Are you happy? For the first time in a long time I have to say yes I am very happy. I went through some dark times within the past year did some dumb stuff that was my own doing. But I finally seen the light at the end of the tunnel and came through it just fine. Yes I am happy very happy to have Kadin back and were working on making things better. I am happy that Mikey found someone that's making him happy. I am really just filled with a lot of joy right now even though some friends of mine are going through some tuff shit I know all I can do is be there for them. But yes Carl I am happy and happy with the way my life is going!
Andy asks: What is your fascination with nudist & being nude & flaunting your package for the world to see? Well I say if you got it flaunt it haha just kidding. I think most of you that read my blog know I have never lied about my size when ask but I don't think I flaunted it either have I? On nudity let's see I grew up around it not that we were nude all the time but we went to nude outings and was around other nude people so being nude seem natural to me. I think being raised where we wasn't ashamed of our bodies has made me a better person and having an open door with my parents made it easy to talk with them hell I'm 22 and my parents still see me naked. Yeah me and Kadin are nude a lot at our house and we have nude parties and stuff like that but if someone comes over and don't take there clothes off that's ok too.
Well that's some of the questions I have some I answer to the people personally they wanted it that way. I do have a few more I'll put up next week. Also I'll be talking about what happen to the kid on the school bus I'm sure ya'll seen the video I am rather pissed about it but I know if I talk about right now I will say something's that might piss some people off I also had the same thing done to me when I was in school but was much younger and why my parents pull me out of public school system. All I know is I am pissed over it and think many things could have been done first the bus driver needs to be fired period no excuse stop the bus in the middle of the damn rode and break it up the bus driver has no excuse. OMG I need to stop I don't have time to get into this right now and it's just making me madder. Oh writing this post I just found out the bus driver was fired I say good! Also when you read this link make sure you keep an open mind I am trying but I am finding it very hard to believe it was over a fucking seat!!!!
I love it when I get that look form Kadin you the look you get when your lover wants something and you say no. Ya know the look I'm talking about right? Well this is the look that I just love can you guess what he wanted and I said no but end up giving in? Well tonight is Big Brothers final so I'm off to watch I am pulling for Kevin or Jordan to win I want Jordan but if Kevin gets it all be ok first gay guy to win Big brother. Oh it's been a while since I did this So I am opening up again to questions ask any 1 question and I'll answer in a post sometime later. You can ask here or email if you don't want others knowing what you ask and I'll keep your name private ask anything and if it's to personal I'll let you know.Later!
UPDATE: Please go over to One Love Blogcheck out my post its very important. So much going on in the news that's pissing me off this is one thing I'll have a post soon on the other but please go over and check this out. One Love Blog
Growing up in the Atlanta area I have always been a fan of the Atlanta teams The Braves are still my favorite. When it came to football of course I like the Falcons. Moving to Florida and my Mom being from there we always had a spot for the Tampa Bay Buccaneers. Well today being kick off weekend for the NFL and Kadin liking football we spent the day watching football and we still are and will watch the night game also. I know people might read this and say hey you boys are gay we didn't think you like sports. Those that know me and been reading my blog for years know I am a sport nut love many different sports. Today was a bad day for the Buccaneers they lost there first game and I know Mikey is a little pissed his Dolphins lost to my Falcons. Kadin also is a Dolphin fan so he was a little pissed that they didn't play good. I am happy for the Falcons with all the crap they went thru with Michael Vick and the coach walking away last year I don't think anybody thought they would come out looking good I just hope it keeps up all season. So is there any other gay guys out there that like football? What's your favorite team?Later Peeps!
Ok a quick post while im watching big brother. My weekend went like this here first off lots and lots of love we went Saturday for a walk on the beach and while we were walking I found and iphone. First I didn't know it was a phone cause it in the sand and I even kicked it but then it made a noise so we stopped and I pick it up and open the case and damn an iphone. So I put it in my pocket we finished our walked and when I got home I looked at the phone better and it was unlocked so I check it out and Kadin was like what are you going to do with it. I said I'm gonna try to find the owner of it I know I would want someone to find me if I lost mine. He said I knew you was going to do that I don't know why I even asked.
So I looked through the phone trying to find a name or something I found something better in the address book something called Mom. I knew calling this persons mom I could find the owner well it didn't take long for them to track him down he didn't even know it was missing he thought it was still wrapped up in his beach towel. Well him and his dad met us at the coffee shop and his dad gave us 50 bucks for finding it and calling them. I told Kadin lets take the money and give to the MDA so we did. I also know many people would have kept the phone or sold it on ebay its like a 400 phone I think but I am a strong believer in karma.
The other news I have is another job its a only a few hours a week working at a nursing home. In the actives department and I love it. I worked Friday and we did bingo and they had a wii and had bowling on it and them folks loved it and loved me. I had a blast with them and the people that I worked with told me I was awesome with the people and had people laughing that don't normally laugh. So yeah I think job fits me also I can't believe a month ago my life was so screw up and now it's like everything is falling into place. Well that's all for now hope ya'll had a good Labor Day!
Well I know everyone has been waiting for a update with some good news from me. Kadin and I have been talking and when I was home last weekend he called me he told me he is ready to commit to me totally. Not that he was cheating he never done that but there were things that were stopping him from being a couple totally. As most of you know we had an issue with his parents and he had a problem with that. His parents for some reason don't like me much I haven't totally figure that out yet more of that later. But when he called he said he was ready if I still wanted him. Hell yeah I still want him and I ask when do you want me back in Florida he told me as soon as I could get there. Trust me it didn't take me long to get here. He was waiting at our house for me and well you know what happen from there all I will say I was in heavens arms.
His parents well we went over this past week and had dinner. This I didn't want to do but he ask me too so I did. We sit down for dinner and before we ate he told his parents that we are a couple and was going to be together didn't matter if they liked it or not. He went on to tell them this is his choice and he would hope they would support him but if they didn't or treat me bad he would have to make a choice and he look at his mom and told her she would lose. I was in shock as much as his mom was but his dad stood up and its the first time I seen him take charge and look at Kadin and said if Ryan is who you want to be with and he makes you happy then he makes us happy. So more good news on top of all that is I have a job now my dad call in a few favors and hook me up with a job. I am working for the state now in the correction department for mean kids. For now I just work behind the glass because of my knee but I might get to work on the other side once I'm back to 100% pretty much what I do is open and close doors with computers keep an eye on the monitors to make sure no fights break out and help with bookings. Not the dream job but it's a job and I never realize how mean some of the boys are. I feel sorry for some of them but I have to remember they are there for a reason. I also want to help with there reading and school work I think I would be good at that but right now they just want me to learn the ropes.
So I guess I will be sitting up house with Kadin and doing what all people do and that is work live and pay bills but the most important thing is I'll be loving and someone will be loving me. I will try to post at least once a week as a apart of my deal with Kadin Also myspace and facebook I won't be doing much on but will touch base on there from time to time. Emails are always welcome as well as your comments. I love you comments your thoughts and inputs on my doings. I hope this catches everything up for now and remember if I left something out just ask me and I'll hit it the next time.Thanks for all the love and support! Later!
This is a sad story but I feel like I should write something. This couple I've know for maybe a year and half are calling it quits. They are an older gay couple been together for 37 years and are calling it quits. I just don't get it really after 37 years couldn't they work it out somehow? I mean 37 years that's more years together than most straight couples I know stay together. I have talked with both one more than the other of course but neither one has the energy anymore to stay together. I look at them moving out and see how sad they are.They hardly speak to each other while they are moving out going there separate ways. What stuff they don't want people are taking this is just sad. I hate to think after 37 years with 1 person that I couldn't work things out with that person. The one guy that I talked to the most came down last night to talk with me and Kadin gave us his new address and the poor guy just broke down and cried but when we ask why don't you talk with him all he could say is there pass talking. Damn I just don't get it I don't understand all that time and you can't talk. Anybody understand this please explain it to me please!
