Ryan's Life

Halloween weekend anybody got any plans any Halloween parties? I don't have anything plan Kadin and I both have to work. Oh tonight at the care home there is a Halloween party and I am helping out with that I bet it's gonna be fun. Some of the residents are dressing up and there having some guy come in to sing and a dance I bet it will be a blast. Other than that we are just staying home this year last year we went to the club and it was fun also but I remember I drank way too much guess that's what adult Halloween is about. We are gonna go over to my Uncles and help pass out candy little kids doing the trick or treat thing is cute and the costume are just way cute. Next week I have a great post in mind about something going on at the care home that bothers me.Happy Halloween!

Ok these seem to be happen more and more often they make me feel better so just deal! Ya'll know me me and know I don't hold age, weight, skin color or anything against anybody. Just sometimes people just piss you off so bad you just have to rant.

To the stupid kid with the bad haircut taking my order at Taco Bell what part of NO SOUR CREAM on my burrito don't you understand?

To the bleach blonde backside of 40 never have a chance to get with me gay guy what part of I HAVE A BOYFRIEND don't you understand? And if I didn't like you would have a chance!

To the old black lady with summer teeth ya know sum are here sum are there at work that don't like my potty mouth let me say fuck you, shithead, motherfucker, asshole, cocksucker, pussy lips yeah take that back to the supervisor. Oh and next time you call someone white trash make sure they don't have a pair of diesel jeans that costs more that your whole damn wardrobe!!!!

To my new next door neighbor that told Kadin that we needed to cut are grass not a good move pissing off the neighbors that have real cool parties. Yeah and another thing if our grass is bothering you feel free to cut it dickwad!

To balloon boy and your alien abducted father and loon mother enough already we have seen enough of you people to last us forever ok your 15 minutes is up 40 hours ago.

One last thing Levi Johnston your 15 minutes were up also but if you do full frontal nudity in your playgirl shoot like you manager said he was 90% sure you was gonna we will give 15 more minutes and another 15 if you look really hot showing your johnson we will need the extra 15 to run one off too ya! Just sayin!!!

Ok now if you will excuse me I think I need a vacation maybe to Grinder's Switch!

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I got an email last week and I told the person check for a post this week with there answer to there question. He wanted to know what I was watching this fall he reminded last year I did a post on what I watched on TV. So I thought what a good idea for a post and I could see what ya'll is watching and if were watching the same stuff. Now before I get to my list let me say I am still pissed of at fox for not bringing back Terminator The Sarah Conner Chronicles it was my favorite show and they just leave it hanging like they did shame on you fox tv!

Though I am looking forward to V that starts on Tuesday looks like it might be good it's on ABC seems like ABC is the station of choice this year. So here are some of the shows we watch now we don't get to watch all of these but we do set up are DVR and record them and when we have a day with nothing we catch up. Now there are a few shows we watch no matter what can you guess what they are the top 3 if you will. There are shows we watch that not on the top 4 networks so I only listed what was on there.Click on the pics of V it will take you to ABC website and you can check out the plot.

1.House
2.Fringe
3.Glee
4.Lie to Me
5.Ugly Betty
6.Ghost Whisperer
7.Brothers & Sisters
8.Desperate Housewives

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There is many things in life that are beautiful like a sleeping ocean like snow caps on a mountain. Maybe a child on Christmas morning or a child before they are to old to hate. That's just a few things that comes to mind but for me one of the most beautiful things I get to see is Kadin sleeping. When he works the night shift comes home at 7 in the morning and crawls in bed with me and I lay there and watch him sleep that is so beautiful to me. I think how am I so lucky to have him I think why did he pick me with all the cute boys in the world. I watch him breath in and breath out and I don't ever want anyone or anything to hurt him ever. To me watching him sleep is one of the most beautiful things in the world.

Have a Great Sunday!
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Nothing special today just a simple post.

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Last night on the way home I was flipping through the radio I don't know why I was doing this cause I have sirius/xm radio and regular radio just bores me. But I write on I was flipping and came across one of those christian radio station and they had some idiot from focus on the family on there of course what he was saying I had to stop and listen too I knew I should have moved or turn the satellite radio on but no I had to stay right there and get pissed off. I know better to be pissed off than pissed on but I say depends on who's doing the pissing cause if Jesse McCartney wants to piss on me I'm ready you hear me Jesse I'm ready!!!Oh sorry got sidetracked again focus on the family idiot was talking about gay's and how they are hurting America families. Ok sure they are I think most typical American families and families all over the world have gay family members only the stupid people disown a person because they are gay. I know I could go on and on and run them into the ground but really what good will it do they will still be there hocking out there hate. I will say this much as much money troubles that America is in right now if we take all these churches and places that are tax-exempt non-profit organization that preach and treat them as what they are a business and make them pay taxes maybe this country would be in better shape right now. If they had to worry about paying taxes they wouldn't have so much time to spew there hate.Focus on the family is a joke please go tell me my she don't have a normal family and I'll watch a southern girl go off on your ass. Just my 2 cents on this organize religion please understand I do believe in God and I do believe he loves me for me and I believe he made me and he wanted me just they way I am.

Oh I had to turn the comment word thing back on was getting all kinds of ad comments when they stop I'll turn it back off cause I personally hate it.
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I've talked about this in other post but after last night I need to talk about it again reason why is when I think about it my heart gets heavy and I just want to cry. When I went into work yesterday they had got a new resident in the care home I work for is a private one so that means the people there pay to be there I mean they pay if you know what I mean? Anyway when new residents come in one of my jobs is helping with checking them in finding out about there diets seeing if they need anything special.Well yesterday we had a marine come in I've work with marines and military people before coming home from fighting the wars. This always bothers me so much seeing these guys messed up. His parents decided he would get better treatment here than at the government ran place I have to agree with them. The thing is people have heard me bitch about the war in Iraq forever and I still will to anybody who will listen but saying that don't mean I don't support are troop whoever thinks that about me can kiss my ass. What them men & women do I could never do so I thank them for doing a wonderful job and for giving up so much for me that I can be free.I just want to be clear just cause I don't agree with the Iraq mess don't mean I don't support are troops there doing what they are told to do right or wrong and I will be there to do what I can to make there life a little better when they come back home. This guy is about my age if I didn't say before and it just makes me so sad to see him like he is when I talk to his parents and they tell me how he was before. Sad part is they don't think he will be any better than he is now. I really wish I could talk more about his condition but I can't the hipaa laws just know I will do whatever for this boy to make his stay here great they are going to try rehab and sure hope it works. Anyway just had to get this out there and out of my mind.What do you think about the new look on the blog?
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Ya'll know from reading my blog for years that I am pretty much an open book hell many of you have seen me totally naked so I normally hold nothing back. Today won't be any different I got a couple emails from the post below. They were upset that I started posting pics that offend. I'm not sure what was offending about it but I must make a stand here and let them know that I am a nudist raised a nudist and think there is nothing more beautiful than a nude body. Now saying that there is a difference in a nude body that's natural than a nude body that's nude for sexy photos hope that makes since. I guess what I am trying to say that if the body is not trying to make porn than it's natural.I also understand that I have readers that might not be as open about nudity as I am and I try not to show private parts on this blog. I also understand there might be teens that read and for that reason I don't show full nudity but saying that I don't think it's wrong if you were raised around it. Now I don't try to throw my nudism around just like I don't like someone throwing there style on me. I have people over to my house that don't like being naked so when they come over we wear clothes or swimming trunks if were doing the pool. Guess what I'm getting at is I love emails and comments froem everyone as long as there not hateful I don't feel these emails were hateful in anyway just didn't like the tone of them I guess by trying to make me feel bad over nudity.Guess that's it for today think I'll take my naked ass out into the kitchen and get another cup of coffee hey no peeking in my windows haha just kidding what window you looking in ill turn around so you get a better shot hehe!

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Wow sure is cold here in Florida today I know most of you are like stop crying 60 not cold but for me it is. Only good thing about the weather down here it might be cold for a couple days but always warms back up. So today I making a pot of chili just sounds good on a chilly day don't ya think? What do you like to fix on a cold day? Anyhoo I thought I would pop in on a Sunday and throw a quick post on. Oh I dream of warm days again haha!Later!

When I was little I remember my Mom singing this song to me when I was feeling blue maybe when I wasn't feeling good when I felt like I didn't have a friend in the world she would sing this song to me. I never knew back then that she was my best friend. This morning I called her back in Peach Town I don't know how she knew but when she answered the phone she was singing this song too me! How do they do that how do Mom's know when there kids are feeling sick or blue?

Love You Mom!

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Life is funny I think we all can again on that. People come and go in your life and others stay forever. Sometimes when people go it's your fault other times it's there's. The past couple weeks I have had people come in my life and had a few that has left. Even though at the time I was mad that the ones that left because we parted on bad terms and maybe I will never speak to them again I still feel glad that they were apart of my life I take away many good things and even though I am sure we will never speak again I just hope the best for them and hope they get out of life everything that makes them happy. Even though words were said in the heat of the fight I still think deep down inside most things were just words from both sides. Maybe in time things will be different and those words won't even be remember and we see each other and can say hi how you been. There are reasons for everything and I believe this is a reason a reason we could no longer be friends. I am not mad anymore a little confused but understand it's all apart of life. I wish only the best for everyone involved and no more hateful words will be said from me no more negative only wish the best.Life is funny and like riding in a car and I will ride it until the wheels fall off.

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MATTHEW'S STORY

The story of Matthew Shepard began on December 1, 1976 when he was born to Judy and Dennis Shepard in Casper, Wyoming. He went to public school in Casper until his junior year of high school when he moved with his family to Saudi Arabia. Matt had to finish his high school education at The American School in Switzerland because there were no American high schools in Saudi Arabia at the time. In both high schools, he was elected by his peers to be a peer counselor. He was easy to talk to, made friends easily and actively fought for the acceptance of all people. Matt had a great passion for equality. His experiences abroad fueled his love for travel and gave him the chance to make many new friends from around the world. Matt’s college career eventually took him back to Wyoming where he studied political science, foreign relations and languages at the University of Wyoming in Laramie.

The horrific events that took place shortly after midnight on October 7, 1998 went against everything that Matt embodied. Two men, Aaron McKinney and Russell Henderson, lead him to a remote area east of Laramie, Wyoming. He was tied to a split-rail fence where the two men severely assaulted him. He was beaten and left to die in the cold of the night. Almost 18 hours later, he was found by a bicyclist who initially mistook him for a scarecrow. Matt died on October 12 at 12:53 a.m. at Poudre Valley Hospital in Fort Collins, Colorado with his family by his side. His memorial service was attended by friends and family from around the world and garnered immense media attention that brought Matt’s story to the forefront of the fight against bigotry and hate. The life and death of Matthew Shepard changed the way we talk about, and deal with, hate in America. Since his death, Matt’s legacy has challenged and inspired millions of individuals to erase hate in all its forms. Although Matt’s life was short, his story continues to have a great impact on young and old alike. His legacy lives on in thousands of people like you who actively fight to replace hate with understanding, compassion and acceptance.

FOUNDATION'S STORY

The Matthew Shepard Foundation was founded by Dennis and Judy Shepard in memory of their 21-year old son, Matthew, who was murdered in an anti-gay hate crime in Wyoming in October 1998.

Created to honor Matthew in a manner that was appropriate to his dreams, beliefs and aspirations, the Foundation seeks to "Replace Hate with Understanding, Compassion & Acceptance" through its varied educational, outreach and advocacy programs and by continuing to tell Matthew's story.

OUR MISSION
To support diversity programs in education and to help youth organizations establish environments where young people can feel safe and be themselves.

OUR VISION
To educate and enlighten others on the importance of diversity, understanding, compassion, acceptance and respect. Everyone must participate in developing solutions to problems that are rooted in ignorance and hatred.

OUR GOAL
To replace hate with understanding, compassion and acceptance.


I was just a kid when this happen but I remember it like it was yesterday. The thing I remember the most is how scared I was for me and how scared Matt must have been. I prayed hard for him to be ok but we all know he wasn't. This for what being different I think that's what scared me the most I was just like Matt would this happen to me. I was already being picked on for being different wearing hearing aids and glasses sometimes being too skinny I know who would think. Wouldn't be until later that I was jumped for being gay. I'm not trying to say I know how Matt felt cause I don't I know how scared he must have felt and how cold he must have felt. How much he wanted to be love and I bet how much he loved his parents. So do this for me and for Matt and all other gay kids out there help Judy give a little let her know how much we thank Matt and miss him. Let her know we will never forget and will help her all we can. Please just give a little 5 bucks every little bit helps. You see the purple wrist bands all you have to do is click on them it will take you to Matthew Shepard Foundation

Say a Prayer today for Matt, Judy and all Gay Kids!

I've got a couple emails asking me how my knee was doing so I thought I would make a post about things. First off my knee is doing much better I still call it my terminator new with it being new made with metals and plastics can't beat it. I still have some pain now and then but I think I always will but all in all it's doing good. I also got an email on how it happen most of you know but for those that don't let's say I was stupid and let my anger get the best of me and went out drinking thinking I was superman and nothing could happen to me I got in a car wreck thank god the only person I hurt was myself many times it don't happen that way normally the drunk driver isn't hurt at all he ends hurting somebody. The thing is I own up to my bad judgement call I paid my fines I even did my time but more than anything I paid with hurting myself and my family when I woke up and the fear look on there faces hurt me more than anything more than losing a knee. Saying that I changed the way I do things I still have a drink now and then I see nothing wrong with it but I learn if I drink I take a cap or call a friend I will never get behind a wheel again while I'm drinking.Wow I can't believe I got all that out didn't bother me at all like it use too. Last week we had a small taste of fall here in Florida but this week been hot so far and looks like no fall temps in site. I guess it's a good thing in some ways for us the nudity thing and laying by the pool. I am a little sick of the ac though ready to open the windows and have fresh air day & night. Ok here is a question for ya do you ever take a bath with your partner? We have a hot tub so were in that at night time a lot but ever now and then we will take a glass of wine and take a bubble batch together it's just so relaxing and sexy at the same time. Guess that's all for now folks remember questions are always welcome leave them here in a comment or email to me. I'll have a special post tomorrow early so check that out. He got such a nice ass! heheLater Ya'll

Sis Patti this one is for you! I know you will understand it!

I love fall but living in Florida we don't get the change here the fall colors and all. I remember going up Mom always put fall things up and I just loved it. Being an old fashion type of guy I want to keep the tradition so the past week I went out and got some fall things to fix the house but I just couldn't find the right table piece so Mom sent me what I was looking for. I think some tradition are lost over time but I try to keep some of them going that I was raised on. I personally think if people would keep up with tradition we might have a better world to live ust my thoughts. How about ya'll do you keep tradition going do you but up fall things like hay and pumpkins? Thanks Mom Love You!

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On my post the other How You Like Me Now post I got a comment not sure who it was from they didn't leave a name but this what I said...

The gay guy at Bells department store I understand pride and being who you are trust me I do. Equal rights, pride marches and all that I am all for but you take the cake on being way too gay ok! If you feel between your legs your still a boy and you still have balls why don't you use them for something besides rubbing. If you ever address me as girl again I will slapped the shit out of you period ok I have a cock and balls and proud of them. So start acting like you do or I'll make you a girl cut cut slice right off!

The comment that was left said this...

Way to be intolerant and give gay bashers justification. By bashing fellow gay guys you give bashers justification to bash you. Because maybe they find you overly gay and because of that, they feel like you need to be castrated the way you wanted to castrate him. Maybe a little tolerance would go a long way...

Now I am not mad about this comment for ya'll know I am all about freedom of speech. I just think I was misunderstood on what I was bitching about first off let me say I would never hit anybody unless they hit me first. I was just bitching that day but since I got that comment I feel I need to address my feelings a little deeper. I have no problem with a person being who they are but being a gay guy myself I feel I have a right to my thoughts also. I feel that some gay guys take being gay way to far. What I mean by that is some gay guys act to women for me calling each other girl and shit like that I can't stand. I also feel that being that way gives gays a bad name. I feel that the str8 community looks at gays being that way and it rubs them wrong now I normally would say who gives a fuck what they think but with us gays wanting equal rights I feel we have to be better than them and calling each others girls and acting like girls makes us look bad. Now this is only my feelings but I feel we have to be better than the str8 community we have to look better act better we have to show the world that gay people are the best people in the world. I know that acting girly is part of our community just like drag queens are don't mean I have to like it. Saying all that I would never hurt a persons feelings in public hell I would never say anything to anybody that's why I said it on here. I am a gay man and I want to be with a gay man not a girly man. Remember people these are my thoughts only and would love your take on this.

Have a good weekend!

Get checked I know you ladies don't like it Mom has told me all about it just do it! If you can give a little click on the pic to donate even if it's a small amount it all adds up and helps!

I'll have a post soon to answer something that was came up in the comments yesterday.

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