UPDATE:
Any of my readers that are from overseas please email I have a favor to ask you.
Email me at ryryt87@yahoo.com.
Thanks!
Just wanted to say thanks for the comments and emails and the advice. Just wanted to give ya'll a quick update on what's going on in my crazy life drama. Me & Kadin are still together but he is staying with his parents right now. I'm not sure why but he said he feels it's best for now me personally I feel it's hurting us. I don't understand why his parents don't like me I never did anything to them but love there son so I guess that's it. I have talked to a few of his friends and they told me this is not the first time. All I can do is hope for the best and hope it works out. The Canada deal I still not sure about a few things have came up and I'll know Friday more and if I want to do it. My parents are leaving soon going back to Atlanta area my siblings will be heading back to school soon. They want me to come back up there for a little while until I'm healed up 100% again sad part is if things don't work out with Kadin soon I'm thinking about it.
Later fom Florida!
Later fom Florida!
So much going on in my life right now it all a bit much for me if I'm honest. I got offer a sweet deal and at first I wanted it but now I not sure. It's causing a lot of issues between me and Kadin. This weekend we had some people come in that would be apart of my deal and things just didn't go well with them. Then yesterday we went over to Kadin's parents house against my best judgement I know them people don't like me and they have been very open about that. When the topic came up about my golden ticket deal they wasn't happy at all and really got pissed when they found out it was Canada.
When they heard Kadin would also be going I thought the roof was coming off the house. Just like last time words were said and I try to respect them for they are his parents but I am human and can only take so much before I defend myself. Well it ended up bad and now Kadin is pissed and me hell he didn't even come home last night stayed with his parents not sure if he's coming here tonight I talked to him once today but it was a short talk. Lord knows I am respectful to my elders and don't go off on people unless I am under attack. Now I think about it is this golden ticket worth losing my boyfriend over I am thinking it's not. The other issue that were going to have to deal with is his parents. I just don't know where to start on that issue.
Life is sucking right now!
When they heard Kadin would also be going I thought the roof was coming off the house. Just like last time words were said and I try to respect them for they are his parents but I am human and can only take so much before I defend myself. Well it ended up bad and now Kadin is pissed and me hell he didn't even come home last night stayed with his parents not sure if he's coming here tonight I talked to him once today but it was a short talk. Lord knows I am respectful to my elders and don't go off on people unless I am under attack. Now I think about it is this golden ticket worth losing my boyfriend over I am thinking it's not. The other issue that were going to have to deal with is his parents. I just don't know where to start on that issue.
Life is sucking right now!
We sit and we type and we stare at our screens,
We can't help but wonder what all of this means.
With mouse in hand ...we roam through this maze,
On an infinite search...lost in a daze.
We chat with each other, we type all our woes
At times we'll band together to gang up on our foes.
We wait for somebody, to type out our name
We want recognition, but it is always the same.
Soon friendships are formed - but - why we don't know,
But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow.
We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes we'll flirt,
In IMs we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt.
Why is it on screen, we are so easily bold,
Telling our secrets, that have never been told.
The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell,
We all have our problems, and need someone to tell.
We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must
So we turn to our 'puters ...and to those we can trust.
Even though it sounds crazy...the truth still remains,
Most of my "friends" have no faces...and odd little names.
~Rusty Black~
We can't help but wonder what all of this means.
With mouse in hand ...we roam through this maze,
On an infinite search...lost in a daze.
We chat with each other, we type all our woes
At times we'll band together to gang up on our foes.
We wait for somebody, to type out our name
We want recognition, but it is always the same.
Soon friendships are formed - but - why we don't know,
But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow.
We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes we'll flirt,
In IMs we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt.
Why is it on screen, we are so easily bold,
Telling our secrets, that have never been told.
The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell,
We all have our problems, and need someone to tell.
We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must
So we turn to our 'puters ...and to those we can trust.
Even though it sounds crazy...the truth still remains,
Most of my "friends" have no faces...and odd little names.
~Rusty Black~
Just a quick note to let ya'll know I am ok thanks for the emails checking. Sorry for not letting ya'll know I was taking a short break from the social networks. Normally I am good about letting everyone know but this time I didn't sorry. I am just taking a break for the computer and all networks for a little bit but don't worry I'll be back just like the original terminator so be careful or I'll kick you with my terminator knee!!!
Later from Florida!!!
Ryan, I know we had some rough times but they been worth it. You tell me all the time how beautiful you think I am but to me your the one that's beautiful. My wish for your birthday is that I am there for your 80th. I love you and I know your mom calls you her special angel I know why she call's you that now.Happy Birthday!
Love, Kadin
I never really wanted you to see the screwed
up side of me that I keep locked inside of me
so deep, it always seems to get to me.
how do I breathe without you by my side?
how will I see when your love brought me to the light?
where do I go, when your hearts where I lay my head?
when your not with me, how do I breathe?
the kisses you put on my forehead when you think I'm asleep
those are the ones that mean the most because
you did them because you wanted to
not because you had to.
I'm the happiest man in the world
and its not because I won the lottery
its because I have you!
I Love You Kadin!
up side of me that I keep locked inside of me
so deep, it always seems to get to me.
how do I breathe without you by my side?
how will I see when your love brought me to the light?
where do I go, when your hearts where I lay my head?
when your not with me, how do I breathe?
the kisses you put on my forehead when you think I'm asleep
those are the ones that mean the most because
you did them because you wanted to
not because you had to.
I'm the happiest man in the world
and its not because I won the lottery
its because I have you!
I Love You Kadin!
There been a lot going on in my life the last week in seems. Daytona was fun for the most part had some issues there also. Had a drunk run into me after the race with his golf cart knock me off my crutches re-injured my knee spent the last couple days at the hospital getting it fixed again. So yeah I'm pissed about that and normally I'm not big on people taking places or people to curt for penny lawsuits as I call them but this time I am so thinking about taking the guy who hit me and Daytona speedway there for not protecting it's guests from drunks on golf carts hello this guy was so wasted he passed a lot of officers and they didn't stop him.
I also got into with a really good friend of mine over a topic that I thought was behind us but I guess not it hurts me so bad that he let's people push him around like he does and goes along with it just to keep his job. I know some people have too but some don't and I feel he don't so he lies to make the masses happy. Well I'm sorry I can't go along with your lie and until you change I think are friendship will hurt and that hurts me worse than a knife.
Also I have things coming up for me that might make me turn this blog into a private one my question would ya'll still follow or want to follow my life? I don't want to say to much about what I'll be doing until I am 100% sure I got it but I was told if I get it I'll have to go private on the blog and myspace, facebook.
Um let me see what else is there Michael Jackson I haven't said anything about him on here or anywhere let me explain why I don't know much about him I mean I know his music and seen some of his videos but I really wasn't into his music. My Mom now she was guess it's here era she grew up with him she was sad over his passing. I will say it's sad that many people are sad now over his passing but many of these same people were standing a few years ago calling him wacko jacko over the child molesting case.
Like I said I don't know much about him but I do know he was human no matter what else he did he was human and now that he's gone let him rest give his kids some space and remember what he did for the music business and how he touch many people with his music. I will say this my favorite Michael Jackson song is Man in the Mirror what a great song with a great message. I do have mixed feeling over the memorial service yesterday and the state of California having to pay and shutting down the interstates when there already on the verge of bankruptcy not sure that's right if it was me or you and wanted extra help from the police we would have to pay for the off duty officers. I'm just saying I have mixed feelings about that.
Later!
I also got into with a really good friend of mine over a topic that I thought was behind us but I guess not it hurts me so bad that he let's people push him around like he does and goes along with it just to keep his job. I know some people have too but some don't and I feel he don't so he lies to make the masses happy. Well I'm sorry I can't go along with your lie and until you change I think are friendship will hurt and that hurts me worse than a knife.
Also I have things coming up for me that might make me turn this blog into a private one my question would ya'll still follow or want to follow my life? I don't want to say to much about what I'll be doing until I am 100% sure I got it but I was told if I get it I'll have to go private on the blog and myspace, facebook.Um let me see what else is there Michael Jackson I haven't said anything about him on here or anywhere let me explain why I don't know much about him I mean I know his music and seen some of his videos but I really wasn't into his music. My Mom now she was guess it's here era she grew up with him she was sad over his passing. I will say it's sad that many people are sad now over his passing but many of these same people were standing a few years ago calling him wacko jacko over the child molesting case.
Like I said I don't know much about him but I do know he was human no matter what else he did he was human and now that he's gone let him rest give his kids some space and remember what he did for the music business and how he touch many people with his music. I will say this my favorite Michael Jackson song is Man in the Mirror what a great song with a great message. I do have mixed feeling over the memorial service yesterday and the state of California having to pay and shutting down the interstates when there already on the verge of bankruptcy not sure that's right if it was me or you and wanted extra help from the police we would have to pay for the off duty officers. I'm just saying I have mixed feelings about that.Later!
Were on are way to Daytona I won't be back on here of Facebook for a few days I'm sure I'll try but not gonna make any promises. I just want to wish everyone a Happy & Safe 4th of July. Take it from me if you drink let someone else drive or you will end up with a terminator knee like me. Besides I want you all back when I start posting again don't make me come after you! If you get a chance to watch the race this weekend throw your support behind Reed this is one of his better tracks and I think he could win it!
See Ya'll Next Week!!!
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