Hey everyone Ryan got sick and is in the Hospital, Kadin let me know that today, Kadin says he's getting better now though, but let's keep them in our prayers and hope that Ryan gets well soon thank you everyone much love
Just wanted to say thanks to Addi for coming on to the blog and helping me out with it. I will try to post when I can just dealing with some stuff and I haven't been feeling well. So please let Addi know what you think about his posts and I'll do what I can when I can.
Here is the uncensored pic from facebook. Also take a sec and welcome Addi to the blog he will be posting videos talking about different things. Never know what he may say so check him out!
Last few days I have to admit I've been moody on the edge and totally lost intrust in facebook and blogger. I think on the facebook side those who are my friends on there seen a change. Hell I went one day with out posting anything and yall let me know about it lol in a good way. I don't know why I feel like I do I just do and like I said I've been on the edge and have been jumping on people telling them how I really feel just tired I guess of the bullshit.
Speaking of bullshit something that has pissed me off for years and I know I have talked about it before just never went into details until now. So I'm sure I'll piss some people with what I'm about to post but the mood I'm in I just don't give a fuck. What got me all pissed is these church's and groups that are trying to feed the hungry in other country's. First off you know not all the money they raise goes to help these people most of it goes right back to the church or group don't believe look it up its public record.
Like Susan G Komen talk about a rip off they are right at the top of money wasted again there is a government website that you can go to and they have to report what money is being used for what and very little of there's goes back to cancer research look it up. But I'm not here to bitch about them I'm pissed at these groups that are saving there feeding the poor and sick in another country's.
Like I said it's a waste of money if you send them any but besides that and here is the part I'm sure will piss some people off. Why don't we worry about feeding the hungry in our own country first? There are plenty of people right here in the United States that are hungry there are children right here that go to bed every night hungry. What about the old who have to make a choice between there meds or food? But we send millions and millions over to help others I'm sorry I don't understand this and don't like this.
I hate to be just right down cold hearted but I say fuck them people if there not smart enough to over throw a government if that's the reason they don't have food or if they live in a place that don't have food then fucking move. I'm sorry I wouldn't stay here in Florida if I didn't have shelter or food I would get out even if I had to walk. So it's kinda hard to sit here and feel sorry for people who aren't doing anything to help make there life better.
I'm sorry but there is no way in hell I'm gonna ask for money to send out of our country to feed some people when our own people are hungry. I seen George Cloony last weekend being arrest over some stupid shit and it comes back to feeding someone else in some other country you know what George big deal you got arrested for standing up why don't you shut the fuck up and put up your millions to feed those people? See he will use his name and who he is to help but try to take his money see how much he really cares.
Look I'm sure there are some good groups out there that do help and do a lot of good my problem is why don't you help some of the people here first. As long as we keep giving to those people there not going to do a damn thing to help themselves. And after we do help them sometimes they turn there back on us and spit or burn our flag yeah we need to think long and hard about this and like I said if you do want to help do it at your local homeless shelter of kids shelter.
This is my 2 cents you don't have to agree and your comments are always welcome!
A quick update about the last post and the bidding on the pic after talking with Kadin and a couple other people I trust they think that it wasn't such a good idea. Not the fact of yall seeing me naked the fact is the bidding thing that bother some people. See the ones I talked to about it all came up with the same thing is someone saying you didn't give the money to the shelter and that would piss me off and upset me.
They also said many of you already give to your local shelters and wouldn't feel right about taking that gift out of your local area. So there is many reasons and I understand this so let me go back to the drawing board on this pic idea like I said I'm not worried about the nudity part that's the least of my worries. Maybe I will just put it on ebay and let everyone know about it and bid away and the highest bid wins and what I do with the money is my business nobody can get mad that way. Thanks for understanding about the comments I hate the fact I have to approve them. Cause I am a true believer in freedom of speech and when I have to approve your comments I feel like I'm taking away your right to say what you feel. I know I don't always agree with everything everybody says but I let the comments stay unless there hate ask Bob or Aaron they been reading my blog for years and they don't always agree with me but I let them say what they feel cause they have never said anything that was hatful.
I don't want people coming on here just to kiss my ass I want people to be open and honest with what they feel about what I write about. If you agree with me that's great but if you don't that's great also. We all are different and that's what makes a great world how boring it would be if we all were the same and all agreed on everything. So please keep commenting on my post don't matter if you agree with what I write or not I will post it unless it's hate toward me or anyone else. Who know's maybe someday I can go back to comments like they were before.
Check in tomorrow I'm working on a good post I think will get yall talking for sure!
Okay a few thing first the comments now will not show up until I okay them. Sorry I had to do this but for some reason the haters won't stop so for now all comments will have to be approved before they will be publish. Please don't stop commenting cause I do like to see what yall say and until the hate stops I just have to do this.
I'm thinking about doing something special for a couple of the animal shelters that were hit hard by the tornados up north. I thinking about selling a few copies of my drawing it will be unedited of course as long as the bidder agrees to a few rules. I'm thinking about maybe running out 5 of them in like an 8x10 and maybe sighing 2 of them for the highest bidder.
My question is this something yall would bid on? If not that is okay I'll think of something else to do for raising money to help these shelters. Either way let me know okay either leave a comment or email me.
Everyone knows that I love coffee and I have my morning facebookers I like to call my breakfast club we say good morning everyday with a nice cup of coffee. I'm always looking for better coffee and I have found some not only that they support the gay community with there coffee and hell how could they not when there company is called Gay Coffee!
That's right the company is called Gay Coffee I drop hints last week on facebook about them but I bet yall thought I was trying to be funny. Well I wasn't it's a real company with real coffee. You can click on any of there pics and it will take you to there website and you can order yourself a bag of gay coffee. I would like to welcome Gay Coffee to my blog and very happy to support them. I would like to send out a special hello to Melissa K from Gay Coffee sending you out big gay hugs enjoying my Gay Coffee!
Remember you can enjoy your cup of Gay Coffee too just click on any of the pics and they will take you to there site and you can order you a bag or 5 really try there coffee you will love it!!!!
Click here to find them on facebook and like there page!
More surprises coming soon got an idea for yall to bid on something for a good cause!
Some news will be coming soon on a couple things I'm working on some hints it has to do with coffee, animals and you! I'll try to get the info out tomorrow but it may be Thursday before I get a chance but I think yall will like it!
I got this friend he says he's straight I've know him for years I mean like we met in grade school. He has never acted like he like guys we've even talked about it and he told me he was okay with me being gay and it didn't change are friendship at all. He has been a good friend as far as friends go and when he started dating it was girls and he has had a few long term with girls so I never thought anything about him being anything but straight.
The other day he calls said he coming down to Disney world and said he would like to come visit and wanted me to meet someone. I said sure come on over spend the night and we can catch up and talk about old times. So when he shows up he has this boy with him now I say boy cause the guy looked like a boy I found out he was 19 and my friend is 25 that not a big deal to me the age thing as long as the person is of age I could careless. What confused me was he has a guy with him.
He introduces us to his friend but he didn't say this is my boyfriend, husband or anything. When I introduce Kadin I said this is my husband. Now this guy Bryan said how awesome and you could tell he was family (gay) he wasn't a flamer but you could tell he was family. So me and my mouth I finally said so Bryan your gay right? He said oh hell yes I haven't had pussy since it had me. I'm like oh and he is redneck like me how cool!
Finally got my friend alone and I just came right out and ask him. Ross what gives? I said we've talked about the gay thing before and you told me you wasn't into guys. He said I wasn't and I still don't know if I'm totally into them he said there is something about Bryan that draws me to him and I find him so hot and sexy and I can't get enough of him. He went on to tell me that he is normally the top but has let Bryan top him. But he also says he don't think he is gay maybe bi but only for this guy.
My question I guess cause this confuses me so much how can a guy who has never been with a guy all his life all the sudden be in love with one and have sex with him? I mean I have known since I was a little boy I mean back in kindergarten I knew I was gay hell I would check out all the cute boys. How can Ross all of the sudden have these feelings and say he don't find any other guy cute but he does Bryan?
I been wanting to do a post about religion for a while but have tried to stay away from it. One thing my dad told me and it has always stuck with me is never talk about politics, religion or money he told me them topics would start many arguments and sometimes right down fist fights and over my time here on earth he is right. But saying that I have to speak my mind and if it pisses some people off oh well get over it this is my blog and I am here to stay don't like what I post or how I spell it move the fuck on take your hate and stick it up your ass! Religion is today's topic now before I get into my post I want to make it clear that I believe in Jesus and the cross and all that.
I just don't believe in some of these church's and some of there preachers. I think most of them stand there behind that pulpit and use the bible to hate on others and because they read it one way it makes it okay to hate. Look people the bible is a book period nothing more nothing less a book. That book was written in Greek and Hebrew and translate in many different languages and it has been a proven fact that in translation some words were translated wrong. Also speaking of the bible it's also a proven fact that there are books left out of the bible that we know and the reason for this is they discredit the other books check out this link on them books I bet you will be surprised!
I'm not just talking about the holy bible I'm talking about all religion scientology, muslims, buddhism all religion it's all fuck in the head if you ask me take the quran another book that's filled with more bullshit and them people are worse than any christian I know. From what I know about that book they bring women down they think its okay to kill someone if they don't believe in the name of muhammad and with whats in the news the past few weeks going all crazy cause some american troops burn there book. I mean they went all postal on americans and killed them for burning a freakin book how in the hell is that religious?
Come on people the quran is book period nothing more nothing less hell I would piss on it use it to start a fire level out a desk its a book the faith is in your heart not a book and I'm the bible, the quran, the book of scientology and all over holy books out there don't like anyone killing anyone. If religion is about hating others and killing others or about big church's and fancy cars and clothes I don't want any part of that. I believe in my god and I believe he is happy with me cause I'm a good person I care about others and his animals. I don't need a book to tell what I should believe in or how I should treat others I think in my heart I already know.
It's a shame if you look back on history many of the world conflicts have started over religion and I'm sure god is not happy when he looks down and see's all the hate and conflict all cause by man who looks at a book and thinks this is the way it is and your way is wrong. All I know is when my time is over I sure hope I'm not stuck behind some stupid christian or a stupid muslim who killed some people over religion cause you talk about a book god sure will throw the book at them for being so fucking stupid!
Over the past week I've takin a lot of shit from people some I think was just right down hate and the other I think was jealousy maybe one in the same I don't know. It's made me stop and question why do I keep doing this blog or even posting on facebook? I used to love coming here and writing something but now its like this anit no fun anymore. I let people take away something I used to love.
I never come on here to do any harm to anybody unless they needed it then it was only my opinion I wasn't asking anybody to agree just look at something at a different point of view. I started this blog for in and it turn out not only to help me but other gay kids out there. The emails and comments that I got showing support made me keep on writing. I thought wow my words are helping some people this is good!
Speaking of writing I never claimed to be well written hell I know I'm just a country boy from Georgia and yeah I didn't do well in school. So I know my grammar just sucks and I use words a different way but it's what I know and it hurts when people keep throwing up in your face about your writing and how stupid you are. Yeah I know its only a few people but it hurts just the same.
I know I'm not brightest person around but I never did anybody harm with this blog only tried to help. I thought if I told my stories it may help some other gay kids out there who were looking for something. Thought maybe if there going through there personal hell and came across my blog they would see there not alone. I'm tired people of hate or the jealousy whatever you want to call it.
I think it's time for Ryan to walk away from all this I know who my friends are my support team. I'm just tired of fighting with people tired of the negative shit just cause people don't like the way I write. I haven't totally made up my mind on walking away yet but it's leaning toward that. I just wanted to give my friends and true fans of this blog a heads up if that's what I do. I'll have the answer by the end of the week.
I know I haven't posted anything since last week with Nascar at Daytona and the rains and everything that happen over there just didn't have the time and needed a break from it anyway. I do want to cover a few things in this post so I want to say sorry now cause I'm sure I'm going to be all over the place just hope you can keep up.
First let me cover a little on Nascar this Daytona was like a Daytona from hell thought it would never end. There was rain there was fire then there was fog. We didn't get back home until Tuesday I was like a hostage in Daytona I felt like I was never going to get out felt like groundhog day. The 42 car breaking and hitting the jet dryer truck and it blowing up was wow just couldn't believe it. While I was there I got an email that to be honest kinda worried me and kinda scared me a little so much so my dad thought I should at least report it so I did. The email was over a post I did on here and my comments on facebook about Whitney and Michael. This person said a lot but at the end of his email he said I should watch my back while I was in Daytona cause something bad could happen to me.
So yeah it scared me cause I didn't know what he meant or if he was for real. I believe in freedom of speech that's why I said what I said about Whitney and Michael I stick to it today and will never change my mind about it. But coming out and threaten someone over what they had to say really? It worried me it worried my boyfriend and my family and all most ruined my nascar trip. I decided after talking with dad that I wasn't giving into fear or giving into this bully. He wasn't going to ruin my trip I waited all winter for the Daytona 500 we were just careful and kept an eye open. Thanks to some friends over there who let us stay with them we felt much safer and was able to enjoy the time there. I just don't get why something I said could drive someone over the edge that they feel the need to threaten me. It crossed my mind to delete everything that had to do with social media but then I thought if I do this then they win and I couldn't live with myself cause I gave into bullying and I promised myself that I would never give into bullying again. Like I said I did turn in the info I had and I'm working with the proper people to handle this and if someone gets into trouble over it so be it maybe they will think twice about threaten somebody specially over something so stupid. This kid in Ohio also been on my mind the one who shot the other kids at high school. I've done post on this before when it's happen before and it still confuses me so much. What drove this kid to do this? The others I know had to do with bullying not saying what they did is right but this case seems different and the accuser TJ Lane claims he wasn't bullied and seems to be no reason why he did this.
Could a kid his age have something wrong upstairs? I tell what pissed me off is the media the only pic they keep showing of TJ is the one where he has his head shaved and not shirt on looks like a crazy person but all the other pics even the one from yesterday when he was in court he had hair and looked like a normal kid but the media chooses the worse pic and uses it shame on them. Don't get me wrong I'm not showing support for TJ and what he did just the media pisses me off most the time. I feel sorry for the kids that died and there friends and family. My prayers go out to them and hope they find comfort. Just don't understand why this keeps happen over and over again? There has to be a better way of controlling these kids from bringing guns to school. Just sad for all that is involved in this tragedy so many lives changed for no reason.
Sorry for being all over the place with this post!
