Ryan's Life

I wasn't going to do a post on this but after last week and some emails and stuff I got I just had to say my peace on this and move on I'm talking about Whitney Houston. On facebook I said what I felt about her and her death and I guess I pissed some people off. Well if you think this is going to be an apology then better stop reading now and close this site out. I will not apologize for my thoughts right or wrong they are my thoughts.

I was very hard on Whitney and stand behind what I said I said something like this I don't feel sorry for her she had a gift from God and she smoked it up. I said all of the sudden she dies and everyone wants to put a crown on her head like she was a saint. A few years ago nobody was talking about her unless they were making fun of her crack smoking ass. Now she died and they all jump on the Whitney band wagon please!

They did they same thing when Michael Jackson died 8 to 10 years ago we were ready to lock his ass up for child molesting but when he died oh they jump on that wagon and it was all king Michael. I'm sorry this pisses me right off one day your ready to piss all over them but when they die there like a fucking saint. Well I'm sorry if I piss you off but neither one of them are saints and if they were every going to be they fuck it up by doing bad things.

Now I got emails saying well your not a saint and a cherry pick bible verse the one that who has not sin cast first stone. Well number I have never claim to be a saint and I'll be the first to admit I sinned and I'm not throwing stones. I will give credit where it is due and both these singers were great and Whitney had a voice like nobody else but she blew that God gift away.

They tell me to show respect well to me they lost there respect by doing drugs and touching kids. If that makes me a bad person cause I say what I feel then so be it I'm a big boy and I can live with it. I had a really good person that I looked up to and stood with on many issues we crossed a few times on issues but always stayed friends but over this they ended our friendship made me question how true this person really was to me.

Look if you stop out friendship over something so stupid like Whitney or Michael then I don't need you as a friend. One other thing I'm really sick at people pointing fingers at Bobby Brown I'm not a fan of his or his music all I know is after him and Whitney got a divorce he went to rehab got himself clean and now is back touring and doing well makes me wonder if maybe Whitney was really the fault! So bring on the hate mail delete me from your facebook if this post pisses off cause I'm going to be me speak my mind I'm not sticking up for molesters or crack heads!

Heading over to Daytona soon for Saturday night's Bud Shootout the start of the Nascar season I'm so happy. I will be busy for the next week with speed weeks and then the Daytona 500 so the post may few and far between. So look back on some old post until I return.



Hugs!

So Kadin always plans and surprises me with something awesome on Valentine's Day and this year he did not let me down. The best part of this is we didn't have to go far to have a wonderful time. So yesterday we were at home and Kadin was doing his normal stuff and that included the xbox. I was beginning to think he hadn't planned anything. Finally it was getting close for me to head off to therapy he came in said you ready to go I said yeah as ready as I will be.

We got in the truck and headed to my therapy class when all the sudden he turn a different way and I ask where you going/ He said sit back you will see! I knew there was something up then he drove out toward the beach and he finally said no therapy today. We pulled up in front of this hotel/motel type of place on the beach and he said did you think I forgot? I said for a moment I did he said I told you that a valentine's day would never pass that I wouldn't show you how much you mean to me.


We went inside to our room and there was rose petals on the floor and on the bed a trail to the bathroom with roses and chocolates and petals floating on the water. He said were going to have a special night. I found out that he had Tyler and Max come out earlier and set things up even brought my guitar and our suitcase. We went to dinner on the beach and came back to the room and soaked in the tub for a while before we ended up making the best love ever.

The point is this if your in relationship you don't have to spend a lot of money or even go far to show the person you love how much you love them and want to spend time with them. There are many bed and breakfast places out there and even if you can't find one of them a motel/hotel can be a wonderful place if you make it a nice hot bath together just talking maybe having a glass of wine. The point is just make the time and show the love!

Peace & Love

Today I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day!

I know in the past I've ask for help with different things and you have came through today I'm asking for any help you can give Josh. This is his story...........

On February 9th 2012 Joshhy was shot in his right wrist and brutally beaten with a 45 caliber pistol, and rushed to the ER by a good Samaritan. At the hospital he was told he would need at least 3 surgeries to repair his wrist and regain full movement of the wrist and hand. He will almost defiantly be deaf in his left ear for the rest of his life and may not regain full use of his right hand. He has suffered bruises and swelling throughout his body. To this day he has not been able to have a full night’s sleep due to stress, anxiety, and nightmares.


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I tell you what I know people like doing things if they get something in return I'll do this if you do give something email me how much you gave and I will send you a sign copy of my drawing in a frame you can choose the pic here or one that is unedited just make sure its a real good donation email me at ryryt87@yahoo.com and tell me what you gave and I will verify with Josh make sure you tell in your donation that your my friend and you want the picture the highest donation wins.


Peace & Love!

Over the weekend I went to this event with Kadin I'm not going into details on what kind of event really not important. It was a gay event there were a lot of people there I don't fit into these kind of event but Kadin wanted to go so I went with him besides I make him look good when I'm hanging onto his arm lol alright I had to toot my own horn a little. Everything seem to be going good then I notice this guy kinda looking at me and he was standing alone and I thought maybe he knows me.

Finally I went up to him and ask him do we know each other? He said oh no sorry didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable. I said you didn't just thought maybe we knew each other. As I was walking away he said thanks I said what for? He said for not yelling or jumping on me for looking. I said I'm not that way he said most guys your age are they freak out over an older guy looking at them. I said that's cause there asses and don't realize one day they will have some age on them too.

I ask the guy if he would like to get a glass of wine and sit at our table and talk he said he would like that. I'm gonna make this story a little short cause I want to get to the point. This guy he was in his mid 40's had a little belly but all in all not really a bad looking guy was telling me he has been single for at least 8 years he tried a few times but the kind of guys he likes don't like him and if they do there are money. But what really gets him now is how they overreact over someone looking at them or by just saying hi.

He went on about a lot things and I thought about it and a lot of what he said is so true. The gay community who is suppose to be so open and love everyone is really not that open. We are a bunch of hateful, judge metal people there is. Think about it if your not young or with a hot bod then people don't talk to you there is more clicks in the gay community then anywhere. He told me his biggest fear is growing old alone in our community and sometimes just trying to say hello to someone is hard to do for the fear of getting yelled at.

I know people there has to be something there to like a person but would it hurt to say hello maybe reach out and say your not what I'm looking for not my type but I could always use a new friend or maybe you know someone that may like them. Look people we have to stop this un accepting people cause of looks, age or weight for we as a community and a minority can never gain the acceptance and equality from the majority when we are not always accepting of our own.