Got a few emails said they missed the days when I posted about my life and how things were going on in it. Said that they were the best posts I ever did after thinking about it they may be right. So here a post that's personal and very deep. If someone would have told me a year and a half ago I would be where I am now I would have looked at them and called them a liar.
Yes I've been pretty open about my life but I haven't told everything only a few people who read this knows everything about me and the reason I told them is I trust them totally. I never thought I would be where I am now in my life. But here I am and I don't like where I am and don't like what I see. In thought I was doing everything I could to dig myself out of this hole I'm in but as soon as I get ahead I get knock back down.
I honestly want to just give up but I can't cause I have people depending on me along with a dog and a cat that I promised to take care of. I'm working three jobs just to get by and that's not enough. I wish I could feel in all the details but I can't and I'm not the type of guy that ask for help if I can't do it or get it on my own then I don't want it. I just keep looking for the light at the end of this dark tunnel but I just can't see it.
So I'm going to take a step back from everything to see if I can get things right again. If I don't post for a while or if I'm not facebook of twitter please understand its just not in me anymore right now. Thanks everyone for all the love and support over the years it's just something I have to do cause I feel like I'm losing my mind and if I keep up I'm just afraid everything I post would be deep and dark and that's not me.
I'm an ocean, because I'm really deep. If you search deep enough you can find rare exotic treasures.