"Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be"

Where to start I still feel like shit and it's not for what I did it's this damn cold. Now for what I did not going into details but Kadin knows I did the right thing and I told him. Yes we got into a big fight and yes I made him cry and that hurt me a lot. It's so funny why do I do the things I do. Some say it's my choice of friends some say it's coz I'm way 2 open others think the rum has some to do with it maybe there right maybe all them do come into play but then again maybe they don't nobody twist my arm or held a gun to my head I did it coz at they time maybe I thought it was the right thing to do but I find it wasn't only made things worse for all those involved and made me lie to Kadin something I said I wouldn't do. Well everyone say hi to Kadin because I came clean and told him everything about this blog, everything were gonna work on things see if I can mend some fences also change something's about me. I am gonna try hard not to hurt him again I do love him and I hope you know that Kadin.

My favorite group say's it best Kadin this one is for you.............

Please be open and free about your comments and thoughts I know some of you know what's going on but held back coz your scared of hurting my feelings don't be I need the advice and comments good or bad coz they only make me a better person.

I need some rest so until later...
9 Responses
  1. Anonymous Says:

    I love you no matter what you say
    no matter what you do...You are
    my Baby Boy (who isn't a baby any

    I'm proud of you...I really do wish
    you would stop drinking, eat the
    right foods and take your meds when
    you are supposed to...

    I have no problem shoving my
    foot up your butt so far that
    you'll have to have surgery to
    remove it...

    Love you ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


  2. ryan field Says:

    Nice post, Ryan.

    Hi to Kadin. You're very lucky to have someone like Ryan around. He's a strong guy but has a good heart.

  3. gomad.ch Says:

    It's good that have come clean with Kadin about your blog.

  4. naturgesetz Says:

    Kadin, if you're reading this, I have no idea what Ryan did, and if I tried to guess, I'd probably be wrong, because I have a vivid imagination. But what I do know from reading this blog is that Ryan is very big-hearted, generous, and caring. He also seems to be kind of impulsive. I'm sure he loves you.

    I hope all works out for the best for both of you.

  5. jimm Says:

    Start wuth Kadin, but dont stop there. Make a meaningful commitment to make things right with ALL the ppl in your life.

    As for boozin, at some point dont ya get tired of waking up with a hangover? Hugging the toilet bowl? Going to work the next morning all miserable? And then have to apologize to friends for your drunken behavior? Not to mention blackouts.

    As i said before, replace your bad habits with good ones.

    Kadin, stay kool, you seem nice from what ryan has said here!

  6. Angel Says:

    Hey ryan,

    Just get better. Even though you did those things you did I am just proud you came clean with Kadin. And after all of that you and him are going to work on your relationship. I dont know if you did that over the phone or in person but I am just glad you told the truth. Like laurie said, take care of yourself. If I lost you I... I wouldn't know what to do. Now I may not shove my foot up your ass...unless ur into then ew. But just fight this beast my little soldier.

    Your Lil Guardian Angel

  7. Angel Says:

    Oh and Kadin! I'd love to get to know you more since I only know so much aboutcha. Keep by Ryan's side and work through this, Ryan is defintely a blessing. email me! lol. Take care Kadin.


  8. I know too little to give advice, but how my beloved Marcus Aurelius wrote: “Look within. Within is the fountain of good, and it will ever bubble up, if thou wilt ever dig.” I wish all the best I am able to wish for both of you.

  9. Honey none of us are perfect. If you did wrong by Kadin but "manned up" and admit it - you did good! My best to you both. All I wish for you baby bro is love and happiness!!!!