Ryan's Life

I'm a flirt and I know it it's kinda funny cause I'm a little shy also but somehow it works for me. Reason I even bring this up I want to talk about the love of my life and don't want people to take my flirting the wrong way. Kadin came into my life about 3 years ago now at the point that was a real low in my life I was at rock bottom and didn't think I was gonna make it out alive to be honest. Most of this I haven't talk about before some of it I have but now it's something I want to tell. I met Kadin in the hospital he was the nurse taking care of me. I was sick having of of the many issues I have with my immune system. All I know was finally I had a hot nurse that was taking care of me and was I ever gonna flirt with him. I would love when he came in I would ask is it time for my sponge bath yet he would just smiled and say didn't you already have a shower? I said I had a shower but not a sponge bath again he would just smile. The day came I was being released and I was like not sure if he was gay or if he was into me.

I finally got a set a balls and I ask mom to go get me a thank you card I was gonna leave it at the nurses station for him. She did and I wrote in the card "Thanks for takin care of me I enjoy this stay more than any other stay I have had. Oh by the way not sure if you would be interested or not but I would like to buy you a drink sometime coffee or other call me sometime if you would like that. Either way thank you for the wonderful care" So I left it at the desk and I waited and waited and waited. About a week went by when I got the call and he told me he normally don't do things like that with someone from the hospital but I was stuck in his mind and he would like to meet for some coffee. Ok I was like a kid with a new toy I just broken up with Mikey and that was hard on me I loved him so very much and I was jumping from guy to guy looking for something that I couldn't find. So I met Kadin for coffee that night and I found what was missing in my life.I'm not gonna sit here and say it's been a fairytale romance cause it hasn't. I will say most of the fault lies with me. Kadin has been nothing but great to me and has loved me no matter what. I have hurt him in so many ways and he still is here and shows me everyday how much he loves me. He is such a great man the things I have done and he still is here. He helped me through a dark time in my life when all I wanted to do was drink and party and do the shit that comes with that lifestyle. He was there when I crashed his car and had to have my knee replaced he help me to see I didn't need that lifestyle. Again I cheated on this man and when he could have left me and he did to cool down he came back and we worked it out. So I want to make it clear I may flirt and may run around naked that's just me and I don't care really yes maybe I am a little proud of my body but I earn it. I didn't have the awesome body in school and when I did nobody notice so yeah I flaunt it a little so if I flirt or if I hang out at the beach or at my house by the pool and we hang out naked don't mean I want to get it on with you. I love Kadin and he knows how I am and he knows I do this and is ok with it he also knows cause I gave my word I would never hurt him again by cheating and I won't. He tells me how lucky he is and I have to tell him no I am the lucky one.I thank God everyday for a few things in my life Kadin is the first thing I thank him for.

I Love You Kadin Bear!