A New Start

Wanted to do a follow up post from yesterday seems like everyone had the same thoughts and they were the same as mine and Kadin. So I got a new consoler went last night and had my first visit and I explain to him why I left the other one and he seem to agree with all of us also that the nudity and the wanking has nothing to do with the depression. He also thought it very odd that he would come to some sort of conclusion about me so quick and really think having me in a group after two days of consoling is very odd. He thinks more one on one is needed before starting a group thing.

I want to address some of your questions in the comments. First off me and Kadin are fine and we have sex normally twice a day but if not then at least once a day I can't remember the last time we went a day without having sex. Kadin also is very cool with my nudity very open to it and has even become more open with his body and being nude in public. He has even told me he finds it kinda hot that guys see me naked and see how sexy I am but they can't have me. He also knows I want and like watching porn and he is also okay with that I know some couples get made if there partner wanks well Kadin don't mind we talk about everything and we have rules I would never cross one and hurt him.

There is more to the depression than I do speak about on here. I am pretty open about much of my life on here but there is something's I don't talk about just something's need to stay private. There are a couple people who know everything but there is a reason why its called trust. So understand I can't post everything when it comes to the depression. The new counselor even though its only been one time I like him and he seems to understand more and I think he is going to be so much better for me. He made me feel more welcome than the other one did. Have my second meeting with him later and I'm looking forward to it!
10 Responses
  1. elise Says:

    I am so happy for you, Ryan--good move!

  2. ryan field Says:

    I'm glad you found another counselor. They are all different, just like medical docs.

    It also sounds like you and Kadin are pretty normal...as far as gay relationships go, with regard to the rules and lines you talk about. That's important to do.

  3. Doug Says:

    I am glad you found a better counselor. Maybe the old one needs to be reported. I hope everything works out.

  4. naturgesetz Says:

    Sounds like you made a good move. I hope this one works well with you and helps you get that depression under control — or get rid of it altogether.

  5. mary gresham Says:

    I'm so happy you found someone else. While I'm in no way an expert, I too thought it was kind of fast for group interaction. Ryan Field, as I told Ryan, if it was left to Randy, we would have sex at least 3 times a day, if not more and he is almost double Ryans age at 54 and he hasn't slowed down yet. His doctor asked him last year if he needed Viagra because of all the meds he takes, which include 4 blood pressure pills and 4 anti depressants a day. He just looked at the guy and said he had no use for it. The dr was very surprised ;-)

  6. Anonymous Says:

    Good for you. It takes courage to start over like that. I think you'll be fine once you build the rapport needed to open up to the counselor, he's the one who needs to hear everything, not US!

    Peace <3

  7. I'm really glad that you found someone new. Sorry I hadn't commented on the other post but...I wasn't entirely sure what to say because like everyone I was a bit put off by what that guy said to you. Of course there is nothing wrong with you and how you life your life damn it. It actually made me really mad reading it but....yeah I just didn't know what to say other than "you're find the way you are!"

    So I'm very happy you have found someone that is going to take the time to listen to you instead of make snap judgments about you base around something that is not part of the actual problem.


  8. Anonymous Says:

    Hi Ryan, that's what we love you for: after considering the pros and cons you are so quick and determined! :)

    I wish you all the lust, oops: luck and love of the wold!


  9. jimm Says:

    Ry, when you write about you and Kadin, it sounds like you have alot to be happy about.


  10. Jay Ross Says:

    Ryan - I'm happy for you. Trusting those that are trying to help is so important. Good luck for a speedy recovery.