Okay I'm going to be totally honest about something and the reason I'm going to talk about this is I want your thoughts on it. As many of you know Riley and I broke up about a month ago well we kinda got back together but already having some issues, Now the reason we broke up is he cheated I know yall thinking well Ryan your just a big flirt yourself. This is true but I never cheated on him I have in the past with an ex and had it done to me many times.
When we started dating we laid out what we expected from each other and if we could both agree to these rules then we would give it a try and we did. Then he cheated and then he lied about it and I caught him up in it and I did what I thought was right and I kicked his ass out. Well a little time had passed and we ran into each other and I found myself still in lobe with him and wanting to be with him. First I thought it was maybe just wanting his sex again but it was more than that.
Well here we are back together and I told him that he broke the trust and it would take a long time to earn it back he said he understands. I told him things would be different and his leash would be so short and if he couldn't agree to that then we should just stay apart well he agree to everything said he wanted to be with me and would do what every it takes to prove this to me. I was like good and it made me happy that he wants to be with me,
Heres the issue I want to trust him but I can't I just got this feeling that he will mess up again and break my heart again. This Friday he wants to go out with some friends he works with to do all things go skating something he knows I'm not into and I don't know whats with me but I told him I have an issue with this first off he knew about 4 days ago they were planning this but he just now told me. Second off there a couple gay guys going and the one I don't like and don't trust at all.
I hate being a jealous person but after all I been through it's hard not to be. A few people I talked with said this could be a big issue for us something we might be able to work through. Me personally I have a few friends and yall but don't need that friendship that most think they need and Riley is one of those people. So I want to know what yall think and please be honest no matter what you think I need input on this topic.
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